don't read if you don't want cringe and pain>mom walked in on me trying on her panties and a bra when I was a teenager>she didn't say anything but just kind of smiled and laughed in bewilderment and walked away while I hid in shame.>knocked on my door several times after saying she wasn't mad but wanted to talk about it and I said I didn't want to and she said ok each time>after school later I came home and there was a bag of new panties in my dresser >says if I need to talk about it I can but if I don't want to talk about it that's fine, but I can't share underwear because it's not hygienic so she got me some so I wouldn't take hers.>hid it and didn't say anything because of shame>like a year later at store>look at a dress on a mannequin for a moment>mom says it looks good and I say yeah>asks me if I want her to buy it for me, says it in a completely gentle and real way>nervously laugh it off and say no>a couple other times have been 'moments' like this that I just ignored It's possible I could have been a youngshit but I squandered it out of shame I hate myself for it
how old were you when dis happened?
>>44782238Pretty much every trans person whose experience on this I've heard, knew they were trans before they knew they knew they were trans and accepted that they were trans. Every minority identity that I'm a part of is something that I knew deep down before I could acknowledge it and accept that it was the case. What I'm saying is, you're not alone in this, it's not even uncommon. While I understand that it's disappointing and you can't help but wonder what could have been, you shouldn't feel bad about it, or at least not blame yourself. So many people were in your very shoes and didn't act any differently. A lot of people took way longer than however long you took to get over that shame.
>>4478239814 for undewear15 or 16 for dress>>44782410knowing other people have suffered what I have suffered makes me sad. I try not to blame myself for my failures but it's the outcome of those failures that destroys me
