and I only started hrt in the first place as a last-ditch effort to not kill myself.
And how do you feel now?
>>44785006Boiling and smoldering, each day I discover a new deeper and darker level that I dared not know before, losing all hope feels like the closest thing I might have akin to any kind of peace, but I still haven't given up the last kernel yet.I no longer am able to speak to myself about my own internal state without using esoteric and religious terminology.Sometimes I feel like I am the blight in God's eye that will lead him to smite the Earth, but then I remember he probably hates me or doesn't care.It just gets deeper and deeper.I feel more affinity for the suicide bomber than the regular person. (I'm not gonna do anything FBI)
>>44784351this will be me
>>44784351so the plan did work, retardyou are alive 10 years later
>>44784351Same but 9 years