It's destroyed so much of my entire life, both lgbt related and not. Yet I can't fucking get it out of my head no matter what I do.Like I've always put inhibition on every single desire I've ever had because of it to the point of doing nothing. Literally I'm almost 30 and I've never lived in any way like I'd like to once.I also think the entire thing fucking evil and disgusting.I still CAN'T stop having it in my mind though.I can't stop thinking God hates me.I can't stop thinking I'm going to hell.All I've found I can do psychologically is embrace it.Hail Satan or whatever.
there is no god, there is no heaven or hell, there's only usi'm sorry that you feel like you're going to hell because all that does is make the here and now into hell
>>44784646This is hell and god is laughing. Everything is a big joke
>>44784646I got over it, but I wish I did it ~10 years earlier.
>>44784646This is because you habituated all these religioid thought patterns into your brains. Keep engaging with critique of your previous belief system until you disspell it
>from a country with one of the lowest levels of belief in god or a higher power>grandmother held onto catholic beliefs throughout communism but subsequent generations of my family are irreligious and didn't return to the church after the revolution>don't really have religious brainworms because i was just never really taught to believe there's a god or afterlife>wouldn't describe myself as an atheist per se, more of an agnostic, but just don't really have strong opinions on the metaphysical or think about it that oftenuhhh AMA i guess?
changing mental belief structures takes time, and ofc it'll be harder if there's guilt attached. but you can do it
>>44786074how was the communism
>>44786557i wasn't alive during it but that era of our history, particularly the two decades starting with the warsaw pact invasion and the subsequent occupation of our lands by the USSR, is very negatively viewed by pretty much everyone here. only total boomer retards and larpers are nostalgic for it. unfortunately a lot of people who were in positions of power then never faced justice and lived very comfortable lives after the fall of communism since they weren't really stripped of their private assets or pensions.
>>44784646im really glad my parents never poisoned my brain with this shit
