I'm not trying to be cute I'm just genuinely lost in my life>Sex with men, fun>Never had sex with women, but it could be fun, maybe uncomfortable >Relationship with men, uncomfortable, insecure feelings >Relationship with women, lovey dovey feelings, but extreme frustration with playing the male roleAm I literally just going to die alone? I don't know how to compromise on this
>>44785196maybe transition idk describe your feelings more
>>44785205I've started and stopped HRT multiple times in the past 3 years. I think i have internalized misandry from my mother since I was a child. Now I feel frustrated being a male in all ways, and feel extremely insecure and confused about sex.
>>44785219yeah just transition
>>44785196i think your inexperience with women is leading you to putting them on a pedestal, it sounds like you won't know the answer until you have sex with one, but you should probably prioritize if you want romance or sex as a priority as you are conflicted with that already
>>44785247Transitioning just complicates everything even more
>>44785261How am I putting women on a pedestal? Im not sure I want to have sex with a woman at all
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>>44785269you should not come here asking for advicepinkpillers like >>44785247 who swarm this place will just pressure you to transition because they get off on it
>>44785494Where do I even go for advice like this. The only spaces that would understand my situation are trans spaces
>>44785530>dysfunctional romantic relationships>dysfunctional sexual relationships>confusion regarding sexuality>suspected internalized misandry>hinted at past traumathis all sounds like stuff it would be best to discuss with a licensed medical health professionalidk if you live in the usa or not but your government might have resources that you can use to find and pay for therapy
>>44785550Yes I'm in the US. Finding a therapist is not an simple or cheap thing to do at all
>>44785219>I've started and stopped HRT multiple times in the past 3 yearsWhat made you start and stop?
>>44785196Easy. Fuck men, and have platonic touchy-feely friendships with women. You don't have to get everything you need from one person.
>>44785656I don't really know. I feel like Hrt is an extreme solution for trauma-induced vanity
>>44785662>Fuck men, and have platonic touchy-feely friendships with women. You don't have to get everything you need from one person.I've thought about this, but having multiple half depth relationships seem extremely unfulfilling
>>44785676Okay so then date a dickgirl.
>>44785686Are those really the only options for someone like me? Being in a poly or being a transbian are both nightmare scenarios
>>44785697Lesbianism is cringe, but even hussies do it when they're desperate.
>>44785706I'm not attracted to femininity enough for that to work
>>44785720Ha. I remember one time there was this gay guy I liked. I don't usually go for gay guys. But anyway, he liked me too, except he wasn't into women. So when we were together he told me to "tone down the woman thing". Which meant undergoing a supervillain transformation after getting through the apartment door, turning into my baddest mtf drag king self. Gotta do what ya gotta do.
>>44785732I guess I will continue regretfully hooking up with guys while I passively leave myself available to women
>>44785799There you go. There's a good girl.
Have you tried dating a trans guy? Are the people you date/have sex with also queer or mostly cishet? Do women pressure you into the masculine role?
>>44786996I was in a relationship with an online relationship with a theyfab. We both had insecurities about sex. I was forced onto the male role socially during this relationship which made me build a lot of resentment and it hurt the relationship. I've only had sex with men off grindr
>>44785196You seem gay. Romance with women is just more natural, but it’s possible with a guy you’re really into. It’s the same way for me; I’m gay but I do get lovey dovey with women (always gets me into trouble). It doesn’t sound like you have a sexual interest in women, so it doesn’t seem worth pursuing. Contrary to porn, you don’t really find out your sexual orientation from experimenting. If you were interested in women sexually, you’d know.However I’m not trans, so I can’t speak to why you would take HRT. I do know that going the trans route pretty much limits your dating pool to only other trans, and those are mostly open relationships
