Just had a dream about my (mtf) friend hooking up with some random older dude late at night and me warning her about everything but never having the guts to tell her that she shouldn't go....This wouldn't be a normal behaviour because she isn't into all that stuff, me neither (mtf).I think something like that would hurt me like a truck impacting directly into my skull and I'm afraid that I'm starting to like her which I don't want to admit cause she has a boyfriend and she would never see me as a partner and I really don't want that either, I'm happy with our friendship.
I have recurrent nightmares about getting computer viruses but when i get the computer virus i actually get infested with bugs and the bugs look like bobbit worms and the burrow into my skin and i have to cover of the bug holes which starve them of oxygen and the poke out of my skin a little bit and then i need to pull them out of my skin very slowly and carefully so i dont break half a worm off inside me and i know how many worms are inside me because my antivirus software tells me how many bugs are inside and i have to pull them all out before i can remove the virus from my computer after i've got them all out someone will use my phone or computer and get the virus again and then i have to go through the process all over again lately in these dreams after i've got all the bugs out i go hunting down the hacker group responsible for the bug virus in order to kill them with a big machine gun like the ones ISIS people used to put on top of pick up trucks hopefully one day i can gun down the hacker group responsible so i do not need to have the dream again but they are in another unspecified country and the dream morphs into another recurrent nightmare that i have which is about getting on a plane to another country with my friends but i spent the last of my money on a plane ticket and when i get to the new country i have zero dollars but have to pretend that i have money to my friends but i just end up wandering around the country doing nothing because i've got no cash and i have to make up stories about why i cant do this or that because i have no money but they can not find out
>>44786707last times i had feelings for girl she would keep telling me everytime she hooked up with random people on grindr and then the last straw was she started to send me videos unprompted of her having sex with random people. anyway idk how people do t4t, that experience alone made me want to be straight forever or kill myself
