I am accepting that I will always be the way I am: a failure, a lazy bum, a dead end in many many ways abd just a loser dude broTransitioning doesnt change abything it’s not something to trifle with if you aren’t certain and it doesn’t get betterNothing gets better.Im content finally with being nothing and having no ambition as I never did.I will eventually learn to be happy and die the same way I was born. Struggling to get out of a hole with out any will of my own.It’s over from folks. I hope to see my loved ones one last time before oblivion. But he is my destination