> when i got to uni i ended up with the typical group of woke queer non-binary people and tgirls> i was a repper for 5 years, but this group gave me hope in transitioning, so i did> tried dressing up and putting on makeup a couple of times, saying i was "experimenting with my gender" and things like that> ended up getting insufferable about it, basically honmoding ridiculously> so when i came out, i chose a gender-neutral name> when people asked me "what are your preferred pronouns?" i said "don't care"> now i've been on HRT for 6 months> i look like your typical theymab alt punk, dressed in black all day, dyed hair, you know the drill> nobody sees me as a girl, of course, even though my friends call me "she" (there are no gender-neutral pronouns in my language)> realized i'm still a repper, just at a different level> seriously thought this was a good idea> tried dressing femininely again, but i'm still too dysphoric to do it> tried changing my name to something more feminine, but everybody just assumes that i have to prefered names (this one and the gender neutral one)> the only good thing is that when i'm out in the city i don't get called a tranny> and that while when i'm with friends they call me "she"> i'm now depressed> i'm getting avoidant with them> afraid to lose my friends because of my negativityhow the fuck do i get out of this?
>how do i get out of thispass.
>>44792017fuck that's true
you sound like a sneed, just boymode.
>>44792203think like a sneed, act like a boymoder
