What makes you feel like a girl?
when i kill people
I dont know dog. I just wanna look like one
>>44792925this is graphic but when he's fucking me and i feel like i'm being held by him
>>44792925Not as graphic as >>44794234 but just boys in general.They way they look at me, the way they're kind to me, the way they protect me without even thinking about it...I fucking love men.
>>44792925Originally it was stuff like kindness and friendship and other stuff like that.
>>44795698Originally?
>>44795840Yeah I was uh... my entire mental framework or conceptualization of how to socialize in the world was like... foreign... or unusual... or something to uh... I don't know, America? The internet?Like for example I thought the best way to earn acceptance as a trans woman was to do my upmost to repress it since others expressed to me how they didn't like it. I thought like... this would prove something like... "look at how much I'm willing to suffer to please you by not doing this thing I want because you dislike it... by the way, how much do you dislike it actually again? I just threw up ah... Do you feel nauseous too brother?"But well, it turned out that that's the opposite mentality you're supposed to have.Everyone I've spoken to from the country of my birth says that what would make a trans person seem most legitimate in their eyes would be the total and complete disregard for others entirely. Like... we're in sparta or something, and the real rule is... you need to break the rule.Like... if I ran away to transition without care for my parents at the very start, I would have suffered, but then after a few years, they would have accepted me as their daughter because of the dramatic action I did.It's like this but with almost everything so...I've turned into a person that feels uh... rejected? alienated? deceived? taken advantage of? something or another, by the "group" which makes up the society in general.So... it's hard to feel anything anymore except negative emotions because I realize I've lost my entire youth to doing stupid stuff like that.
getting felt up
>>44792925I've never felt like a girl even though I pass but it's probably because I don't go outside and I never interact with anyone
