> Be me>In my 40s and I have been cross dressing on and off since I was in 7th grade.>I have only had two cis gender female sexual partners in my entire life.>I am really only attracted to women, but I enjoy the attention of gay men. > For years I have lived comfortably as basically an asexual cat man.I will never troon because one I'm old and two I'm tall. Also, I have no gender dysphoria. For a middle-aged man I'm not bad looking. I have these recurring fantasies of going back in time when I was younger and trooning so I could become a girl. Had I done that I would have wanted to be with a guy. If I were a woman, I would want to be the trad wife of some old faggot. I believe that this is AGP meta-attraction but I'm not sure. If I see myself as female, I would want to be with a man but not so much as a guy but I'm not repulsed at the idea of homosexuality. One of my gay friends used to come up behind me and grab my ass and say, "Hey slut", and I really liked it but never enough to pursue it.I like the idea of being dominated by a real man, but I'm not really attracted to men's bodies. I was living peacefully until I started coming here and you lot reignited these ideas in my mind. I thought that I was over it. How do I manage this? I just want to be a harmless asexual cat man.
>>44798019I crossdress too but I’m younger. What’s stopped you from experimenting with men if you like the idea of being dominated and also liked your friend grabbing your ass?
>>44798019You kinda sound like youre in the place where I was before I transitioned. I was OK being a fem guy until that started to fall apart and I couldn't take it anymore. I never really "felt" like a girl I was fine being a cute boy. Kinda sounds like you were "fine" with who you are or your situation because maybe there wasn't anything that seriously pushed you towards HRT. For me, it was losing my hair and getting mad hairy elsewhere. I probably would have ended up repping my entire life if I was able to be somewhat comfortable with my situation. I'm not sure your thoughts/feelings about relationships with a man or a woman decide whether you are trans or not. There isnt any kind of "oh im trans for sure" definiton. Everyone has their reasons and the only factor I see the same in everyone is that they keep coming back to the question if they're trans or not regardless of whats going on around them.
>>44798019You also said you don't have dysphoria but it's conflicting when you say you'd go back and do it over as a girl. You imagine yourself happier as a tradwife. You're fine with who you are but if that was fine you wouldn't keep coming back to the idea that you might've been happier the other way. I cant say for sure that you would have been or will be trans but its worth exploring as much as you can. Withholding the thoughts that you're "too tall" or "too old" honestly. If you dont like what HRT does to your body you'll know you arent trans. If the changes make you happy.. well. Thats my guess.
>>44798019take your HRT, hon
>>44798019You have old boomer sexuality
>>44798734If you're in your 40s there's really no point.
>>44798019Im glad I was fearless in my youth and explored my agp and bisexuality fully in my 20s and early 30s. But I was never attracted to gay men, only "str8" men- meaning bi guys and married men lol. They liked my feminine side.
>>44798910>If you're in your 30s there's really no point.>If you're in your 20s there's really no point.>If you're in your teens there's really no point.
>>44798941It was over at the point of conception for me. I'm a conceptionhon
>>44798941This but unironically, not op but at age 14 it was already too late.
