Ive recently gotten a boyfriend and he makes me extremely happy, but i cant stop thinking of breaking up.Ive been suicidal, alone and without trusting anyone for most of my life, and now i just naturally drift off from people because im scared of what will happen to them if i do actually end up kms. I fell like a fucking cat that runs away when it knows its going to die soon, except im like that every second of my life with everyone.I hate being AvPD
>>44798552i was scared of that happening with my best friend but i was very open about me being suicidal and now we have a suicide pact. no planned date but we do plan on living together and eventually killing ourselves together. maybe discussing something like that with ur bf could help ease some of the anxiety? i guess it also depends on what his opinion on suicide is, which is usually negative in the case of normies
>>44798651that doesnt help anything at all, does it?
>>44798742>because im scared of what will happen to them if i do actually end up kmsi assumed it could get him more comfortable with the idea of u dying, so that u wouldnt have to worry about him feeling bad once u do die. sorry i dont think i could fully understand ur thought process behind this i thought that could be helpful
