Ive heard a lot of narratives on trans people and none ive heard really line up with my experience. ive tried for much of my life to be more feminine, and i always enjoyed when people say im girly or compared me to women. I hesitated on transition for a long time because i seem to get along ok with many guys and i thought i was just pornbrained. But i started going by another name and pronouns in college because transition seemed awesome and i was really jealous of trans women. I actually have had a few sexual experiences, they were underwhelming and i diddnt really wanna use my dick because that seemed gross. Idk if that means anything. I started HRT awhile back. I think E felt great in my body, i loved the emotional changes but only once my dose was upped to 4mg sublingual. I experienced about a week of being confident i was on the right path but i stopped out of fear of growing breasts, bad job security, having to tell my parents, etc. Now im convinced that i was just ashamed of being a man and would be better off just getting laser for my face. Either way, my actions are motivated by fear of being wrong. I guess it really isnt a massive deal to just get top surgery if it doesnt work out, my family would take care of it. But wow, i dont wanna be wrong about this.
>>44802645Face ityou're just a big straight guy fantasizing about being a girl
