>24>neet >moved from the west coast to south despite my mother knowing I'm trans>First few months pass>I sleep on the floor of my room with no bed or futon just blankets and plushies >Unable to get a primary doctor>Scared of applying for work cause no experience and my social skills are fucked>Need to diy>Mother gets 2 loud ass puppies despite knowing dogs overstimulate me. >Piling on more stress for no reason >Sometimes forces me to dogsit our oldest big dog while she's at work>He stinks up my room, even after getting bath>I'm Still sleeping on floor>Still in a southern state far from any blue state>no friends>no support group >online trannies reject me because I'm "too depressed"I mean, atp the only thing I can do is try to get a job just so I can start saving money to move back to a blue state and afford things. But who the fuck is going to hire a beaner tranny who can't even make eye contact? I'm so sick and fucking tired of being alive. I'm grateful for my mom not kicking me out, feeding me and providing me shelter, but I need to fix my life before I completely shut down.I can't even afford basic entertainment or the food I want to support my diet. I need to get a job ASAP.
>>44804787no obese even going to bother reading any of this shit. I don't even know why I bothered writing it.
>>44804789no one* didn't mean to say "obese". thankfully I'm not fat atleast.
>>44804787yeah i fucking hate being a neet tooevery day i open the job website and instead of looking for jobs i just do literally anything elsei do chores and clean up after my siblings and do shit for my mom that hates me or go on walks just cause it feels vaugely "productive" even though it doesnt actually help me personally at least diy bought me some time cause im not getting uglier anymore and dont have as much of a sense of urgency anymore
>>44804787>online trannies reject me because I'm "too depressed"wanna share your discord? Im also depressed as shit
>>44804789i'm obese and i read itgetting out there can be scary but a future where you didn't dare should be even scarier, i've been there i hope you're getting competent help for that depression
>>44804787genuinely my life besides the fact than im on the east coast
>>44804947I rejected for being too annoying and hyper tho ;(
>>44804853yeah, i feel anxious and depressed on top of all of this too. Like, I'm really scared about my future, because I don't have any stability on my own.its hard to see the good in anything when everything is so fucking garbage.>>44804896sure, what's ur discord?>>44804921>i hope you're getting competent help for that depressionnope. Im not getting any mental health support at the moment. In fact, I HAD mental health support before I moved to this shitty southern state but that's all gone now. I'm supposed to be medicated too but I ran out of all my antidepressants and ADHD meds so I just have to suffer in agony every fucking day. I do need therapy and antidepressants, but I can't get it as easily here.
>>44804958therapy and meds would probably help me but im 99% sure the therapist will tell me to quit diy if i tell her about it. Plus im scared that if i get diagnosed with something it'll be harder to get surgeries in the future.
>>44804787I was feeling bad for you until you started being mean to the dogs
>>44804958>sure, what's ur discord?marina_443
>>44805071I'm not being mean to them, they're just really overwhelming and I never wanted to be a fucking dogsitter
>>44805082love them and they will love youalso just get a mattress and box spring on facebook marketplace or something it's really not that expensive
>>44805093 I don't have any money at all.
>>44805100so just ask your mom like you do for everything else
