>cis married gay, together for 16 years>never felt insecure at all>hit mid 30s >sudden bizarre insecurities hit me>2 years go by>I am now fucked up all the time I am fucked up by basically every other man I see, like vicious punches of envy. That guy is taller than me, that guy has a bigger dick, he's got a better beard, he's more beautiful, he's got something I don't and can't have. I feel like I'm not a complete person, like I didn't finish growing, it makes me feel worthless.This is a problem now because I sleep with my husband trying to be normal and loving, but look at him and he's perfect and the feeling that I don't deserve him is killing me
Hit the gym fagboy
>>44822987normal midlife crisis, hit the gym, get some hobbies and use the bandwidth from being an established adult to improve yourself a bit, which will raise your self esteem.
>>44823079I am kinda struggling with the hobbies, I stopped finding anything enjoyable a couple years ago, I join in and do stuff but nothing happens inside my body. I started working out, but how can I stop from feeling so bad inside?
>>44823115genuinely get therapy, these are issues you can 100% work through and normal, its a lot to try and worth through on an image board. also idk what your relationship is like but maybe opening up to your partner you haven't been feeling well could be good too
>>44823184That's fair, I'm on list for therapy already since April so I guess all I can do is wait
