My bday is next month and I've been thinking a lot about it. I'm going to give it one more year, then I'm done. Being a tranny is so miserable, scary, and lonely. I just can't live the rest of my life like this anymore. So one more year is all I need, I'm going to try to do everything I couldn't within this year. Next month I'll be 24 without ever really accomplishing anything. so from this point on, I'm only going to be focused on achieving my dreams as best I can.I won't see 25 but I'll make sure to make my 24th year on earth worth it. Sadly, I never got to experience having irl friends or anything, but that's ok. I experienced all of that from 2002 - 2019. and that's good enough for me.
>>44871763if there ever was a good time to not be doing shit, your early 20s are THE time to be slacking off and not really "accomplishing" anything. while you're still figuring out adulthood and going through transition-related stuff, it's understandable. you don't have to be alone, you can still make friends, and you can still accomplish stuff. be less hard on yourself.
suicide is a worse sin than being a tranny btw>Being a tranny is so miserable, scary, and lonely.So stop, lol? This isn't a real problem you can just stop and be normal live a happy life this is self-imposed faggot and killing yourself over something you actively choose to do is retarded even for this shithole
>>44871763Good luck nona, have you thought about methods yet?
>>44871787>our early 20s are THE time to be slacking off and not really "accomplishing" anything. while you're still figuring out adulthood and going through transition-related stuff, it's understandable. not for me Nona. I made a promise to myself a decade ago to have achieved all these things I wanted to in life by now, and I haven't. Now I'm reaching 24 and have nothing to show for it, it's ok to admit that I failed.>you don't have to be alone, you can still make friends, and you can still accomplish stuff. be less hard on yourself.Making friends is harder nowadays as an adult then it was in the 2010s. it's not gonna happen and I've already accepted that. I'm alone every hour of everyday and it's agony. making friends irl for me is impossible so I gave up on it. I don't have a choice but to be alone.>>44871794>Muh just stop being a tranny!You should die too desu.
>>44871870>WHY DOES IT HURT WHEN I HIT MY HEAD WITH THIS HAMMERstop hitting yourself with the hammer>LOL FUCK OFF
>>44871870girl I don't know how else to tell you this. the vast majority of people aren't going to have "anything to show for it" when they're 24. that's very young still. some people will be still in college, working menial jobs, even living with their parents, etc. at that point. it's really okay.>I don't have a choice but to be alonebut why not? have you tried putting yourself out there? friends don't always just fall into your lap. she who hath friends must show herself to be friendly, as my mother used to say.
>>44871870>I made a promise to myself a decade ago to have achieved all these things I wanted to in life by now, and I haven't.why are you holding yourself to an expectation that you created when you were a retarded 14 year old
>>44871986>why is a tranny dooing rash illogical unrealistic retarded things
>>44871924>some people will be still in college, working menial jobs, even living with their parents, etc. at that point. it's really okay.I'm gonna be 24 next month and I've never had a job. never went to collage, and most days I can't bring myself to go outside because of social anxiety. people always claim to have social anxiety/anxiety but it's rare that people experience it as badly as I do. My anxiety ruined my life and I never even got to achieve something as simple as going to college. I'm a fucking failure and a disgusting freak. I'm unmedicated and it constantly feels like the world is going to cave in at any second. I refuse to live like this for the rest of my life. I'm an objective mentally ill failure who's got literally nothing (not even a 9-5 fast food job) to show for it. On top of ALL of that, I'm a disgusting tranny who no one likes nor respects. Is that really a life you think is worth living?>>44871924>but why not? have you tried putting yourself out there? how? what does "put yourself out there" even mean as an adult? it was 1000x easier to make friends as a child, but again I haven't done anything worth while except make my shitty art (picrel) in my adult life. So why would anyone wanna be my irl friend? I'm an autistic damn near mute weirdo. nothing about me is friend worthy.>>44871986When I was 14, I had a very solid idea of what I wanted to do with my life:By 18 I should've applied and started college, By 20 I was supposed to have close friends and enter the workforce, by 21 I should've had my own apartment, by 22 I should've had a steady income, by 23 I should've been set. I have achieved NONE of this, and next month I'll be 24. I can blame being traumatized and my family instability all I want, but at the end of the day, my failure In life is MY fault. I already failed myself and now I'm a mentally ill wreck as an adult who's too scared to go outside for walks. I ruined my life.
from reading this thread, there's a 0% chance you're going to actually kill yourself. at most you're going to take a few pills, throw them back up, and go right back to attention whoring on 4chan
>>44872300so what's stopping you from taking on what you wanted to do at 14 I had an idea by the time I was 7 and I kept getting turned down from it by anyone around me I wasted practically my whole life up till now decided to come back to it last month after I flunked out of a second college now I'm 21 going to be 22 in few months won't get to college till next year by which time I'll be almost hitting 23, no friends, no social skills, no money, no relation in the world no one I can talk to or lean on and I'm still going I know what I want to achieve is possible but only through actually doing something about it what's stopping you Anon why can't you just follow your dreams do what you want to do there's plenty of people out there that started late it's not great but what else are you going to do
>>44872395idrc if you doubt me to be honest.
>>44872412i just want you to put a reminder on your calender app of choice for 5 years from now"anon was right"
>>44872300UnderstandableCan you live stream it and be famous for it like ronnie mcnutt? Perhaps tie a string to a submachine gun, stand infront of a tarp with the gun pointed at you, and let it rip as dozens of bullets rip through you you?It would be seen all over the world and it would be an awesome way to goImagine how much yThe webm would be spread all over 4chan, non stop forever
>>44871763>I never got to experience having irl friends or anythingdo you want to add me and talk to me? i know how it feels
>>44872300why though
>>44872300>what does "put yourself out there" even meangoing to local events for things you're interested in, hanging around interesting places and talking to random people you see (yes, seriously, it works)even going to somewhere like >>>/lgbt/frengen and adding people from there! I've made multiple long-term relationships that have moved IRL from talking to people on this board. also your art is really nice! why not try doing drawpiles with other artists, or just DMing other artists who you follow / people who follow you? all of this stuff works. it sucks to be perceived sometimes I know, but you gotta do it.>anxiety ruined my lifegetting medicated / therapized for whatever anxiety disorders you have can help. sometimes I get slightly buzzed before going out around a bunch of people to quell my fear, that could be an option for you too. you're not a failure until it's over.and at the age of 24? it's FAR from over.
>tranny makes suicide bait thread to shill xer artgotta respect the hustle
>>44872757that would be a massive waste of time and is clearly not what's happening here.
>>44872767>do not use your eyeballs or brain to make decisions let me make decisions for youlow-level tranny tactics
>>44872784what's it like going through life intentionally jumping to the least charitable conclusion about everything you see? you need to lighten up.chuds, man...I just don't get it.
>>44872300I had the same idea of life as you did and it took me half a decade to realize its less normal to have everything figured out. Start looking into college or whatever now and figure out the best things you can do. Its delusional to think by 23 you would be accomplished. I started CompSci at 23, graduated at 25, got a job, got a bf at 26, and got married at 28, now I'm 30 and I am just now making friends and living a somewhat normal life. Cut yourself some slack.
I know you don't believe it now, but it gets better. I love you <3
>>44872675>"going to local events for things you're interested in......."well I'm going to try. I want to see if dnd clubs are still a thing so I might try that first but idk. From what I see online, people aren't very friendly these days, especially to Trannies.>DM other artists that sounds like a good idea on paper, but I don't wanna come off as annoying. plus my favorite artists are way better then me and they probably only talk to people at their own skill level. >getting medicated / therapized for whatever anxiety disorders you have can help.I'm technically supposed to be medicated RN but since we moved states, I lost all of my psychiatric support. and looking for new support in a red state is absolutely hell. Everyday I feel like my mind is constantly torturing me because of my lack of medication and therapy. My thoughts are extremely unstable and going outside without being medicated is fucking terrifying now. people keep telling me I should "get a job" and I really REALLY want to but I feel so fucking miserable without therapy and meds or social support. my anxiety and paranoia have ruined my life completely. I can't live like this for much longer.>and at the age of 24? it's FAR from over.its different for me.>>44873004I don't have much faith in myself. if I don't accomplish something between now and next October, I'm offing myself in October or September of next year. I'm going to try college soon because I don't think getting a job rn is possible, but I'm not expecting much.>>44873060I don't think I can believe that anymore.
>>44871763>24suicide twins
stop being a tranny then. It’s your own choice. Go back to being a regular fucking person. It’s self-imposed suffering
>>44873294Why not just bother people if you're really planning to off yourself? Who cares, I promise random dm's from someone with decent intentions. I am a talentless nobody and I'm good friends with multiple twitter artists with 30k+ followers because I decided to not gaf and do what I actually wanted to. Are you really going to kill yourself without trying something so rudimentary?
>>44871763thats crazy i started trooning at 25, was probably a bad move
>>44873004i hate these bullshit normie stories, at 23 i was like "oh shit im an ugly moid and im not in university and i have no friends" and do you know what happened? i dodged university for like 5 years more even though I wanted to go and now im failing it and im going to be 30 soon and nothing got better. just fuck off with this survivorship bias.
>>44873294>its different for meLOL. when I was in my early 20's I thought the same thing. the cycle continues...it's not different for you. you're not uniquely fucked, you'll be okay. you can do this! many people in situations similar to yours have made it out and so can you.and yeah, like the other person said, don't worry about being "annoying". is it annoying when someone strikes up a conversation with you, trying to be friendly? probably not, right? so why would you, specifically, annoy people? I mean you won't get along with everyone but if you put yourself in a position to have a positive interaction more often than not you WILL have a positive interaction. people by and large can be very nice.>people aren't very friendly these days, especially to Tranniesdo you live in a super red state, or in the middle of nowhere, or like, in the south or something? if no, then there are probably people nearby who would be nice to trans women.
>>44871763it's over.
