Why not just be effeminately gay without estrogen instead of castrating yourself and pretending to be a woman?

>>44918891
because i wanna see if i can grow tits

>>44918891
because only estrogen makes you fem dumbass

>>44918914
Are you denying that some gay men act femininely without taking exogenous estrogen?

>>44918891
i wont get fat in my hips thighs and ass without estrogen

Winced again after a customer made a comment about my body( I have visibly boobs from when I was taking hrt)
I hate my life
Funny thing is he wasnt talking about my body xd

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>>44918883
Do nothing, the only good thing about me is that my hips can pass somewhat.

Why do all reppers have boobs? Do you at least refuse to wear bras?

>>44920208
I have moid boobs. I used to be self conscious about them but now I don't even care. In fact I welcome them. Still want real titties though.

>>44920217
Gotcha, having real breasts sucks though.

>>44920208
i don't and i don't want any
>>44920051
you are not real you are a tranny baiting for attention and here you fucking go

>>44920258
They're annoying, I refuse to wear a bra because I'm a man and bras are for women.
Men burdened with breasts don't tend to wear bras.

>>44920273
thanks for blogposting you're not even a repper you're just a manmoder why are you here

>>44920307
I'm here to blog post

>>44918920
it's disgusting

>>44918337
i promise myself i'd ride a dildo every 5-7days since it makes me better but then i let 20 days to a month pass

>>44918883
take your HRT, retards

>>44920760
No, I need to be PLAPPED. Not the same as riding a dildo. I need a man to pull my hair and spank me and fuck the dysphoria away.

>>44920778
But I have executive dysfunctioning

>>44920838
still the next best thing since penetration is pretty much a requirement for living

>>44918920
what's the point of being effeminate if you aren't feminine? you just look like a clown.

Reminder that you will never be able to laugh out loud in public again if you transition because your male voice will clock you. Just stay repped.

i repress my agp fetish by forcing myself to watch gay porn

>>44921137
I can't even smile in public already because of a missing tooth.

>>44921137
i already don't it's not ladylike cover my mouth and shit

fuck the delusion is back
maybe i should tell them after all and it will be okay
after all i can't keep living like this
20 is already too late

>>44921332
I trooned out at 30
If you can't hold it back and you're just 20, honestly just do it, unless you're gigafucked (6'0+ and balding, etc). Hell, even then, just go for it.
Repping is not worth it
t. repped for over 20 years before coming out

>>44918920
>act femininely
that's literally the problem, without E past the age of like 25 you can only ACT feminine, not BE feminine

>>44921139
this doesn't work, i had a crippling gay porn addiction and still started hrt

>>44918891

>just be gay.

My brother in christ have you been gay? I have. Let me tell you something: this society when viewed from the bottom does not paint a particularly inviting portrait.

I feel like women so fucking hate me
I was on a lecture about codependent relationships and the lecturer asked some questions. There are a few active people, I was one of them. So I answered a few times and the girls just interrupted me and criticized my answers because I'm wrong here and there and I don't understand. When they shared their thoughts I said nothing because none of us was actually wrong. But still they felt the urge to put me down. They didn't correct other men and even added to the thoughts of other guys.
I'm depressed.

>>44921990
I think that women can subconsciously tell if someone is Trans and lock on to them to bully

>walking home from work
>walking on a bridge over a river
>construction work is being done on the road so the sidewalk is narrow
>got stuck walking behind a woman, really wanted to get past her so I didn't seem creepy
>tried to walk past her but at this point she notices me
>still not enough room to get by, she keeps walking but her head is on a swivel to detect my exact location behind her
>thought "do I really look this scary?" I'm 26, average height, people tend to be friendly with me
>at this point I feel like a rapemonster despite being a repper that wants to do no harm to women
>seeing no other option I gave up and walked up on the step ledge of the bridge and sped up my walk just to get by her, now felt like a rapemonster that gained a few inches in height
>she was looking at me the whole time
>went home and cried
Holy ropefuel. Maybe it's my autism but I hate being seen this way. I don't want to harm anyone. I hope the alcohol numbs the pain tonight.

replying to gincel ishygddt
anyway it's playoff baseball season who've you got fellow malebrained enthusiasts. would be cool if one of the AL central teams or the brewers got it
>>44918883
just don't go out ig

>>44922809
I'm not fem or faggy
I'm just a dude with a receding hairline

Do you ever crossdress?

>>44921332
repping at 20 is moronic, no matter how hon-ish you think you are
>maybe i should tell them
don't.
start diy and see how things progress

https://discord.gg/lostcord

another day, another random youtube suggestion hosted by a some woman who triggers a deep, visceral desire inside of me to look like
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kd8eD1BnCWI

>>44918883
am I AGP and a tranny for wanting to be an androgynous anime boy?
or is that AGAMP or theymab or peter pan syndrome or something else?

I don't want to be a woman, I just want to be a beautiful bishounen

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUECAFHHaWc

>>44920778
it didn't do anything

>>44923419
not since I was very young, woman's clothing wouldn't look good on my body so there would be no point

interacting with trannies causes me to spill my spaghetti instantaneously
I hope they (accurately) assume I'm just retarded and not trying to be rude

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i want to kms when I see teenage trannoids with a fully formed sense of self. How do they do it? Seriously. I'm twice their age and am finally starting to grapple with *just* my sexual orientation, not even touching gender identity because it scares me too much. and there are 15 year olds smuggling HRT from japan and getting secret boyfriends and moving states and shit. Am I just severely autistic? How does this happen? Why am I fundamentally incapable of moving my life forward? Is this diagnosable, can I get on medication for this?

>>44923419
I wore a women's leather jacket 1 (one) time at 16/17. I never had the chance to since my mother didn't keep any dresses and I wasn't raised with my sister.

>>44926078
same im almost 30 and I still haven’t learned to cope with myself

>>44921658
i want to but i lack agency
>>44923683
if i don't tell them i can't start hrt until 22 at the earliest after i get a job and enough space for it
but otoh i know for a fact that they deathly hate trannies, i'm torn
objectively i don't think i have very very bad chances at passing but of course it would have been better to start earlier as coming out in uni is social suicide (now that i think of it i have ~zero friends anyways so)
inb4 "just buy estrogen vials retard" no i can't do that because i'm a special snowflake that needs special hrt
>>44925784
trvthnvke i get a mental breakdown whenever i see a tranny doubly so one that even mildly doesn't look like just a guy with long hair (ie makes any effort at passing or dressing femininely)
kms kms kms but i think i hide it fairly well and i make a good effort to try to not get too close, online interactions at best not irl
>>44926078
they are simply more agentic is what i've learned. some people just have more agency and more ability to affect changes in their life. sucks but it is what it is :x

>>44918883
im about 20 mins late for my dose
i havent been taking e because "it makes me feel better but what if i'm cis"
something like that
i was going to ask if this was stupid and brainwormy but i just realised answered my own question
just kinda scared of cypro though so it probably won't do anything
i just can't accept myself even though i know this is what i want
i don't think cis people feel unnaturally happier for no apparent reason when they think about the new female name they chose for themselves
atleast you can tell me if i'm agp or not
t.closet babytranny

>>44926422
>they are simply more agentic is what i've learned. some people just have more agency and more ability to affect changes in their life. sucks but it is what it is :x
I want to have more agency but it's like there is a physical forcefield whenever I try, I can't get my body or mind to move on its own it just shuts down. Fuck everything.

the diy advocacy worked too well and now half the gen is depressed manmoders. fmsml

stupid fucking bitch I fucking hate you

the material world is just a torture chamber for reppers

I'm too malebrained to cut so I just beat myself in the head and sob disgusting man tears into a blanket so I can't hear them

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>>44918883
I saw the TV glow is the worst fucking movie I have ever seen.
It just feels like a cruel mockery towards reppers, with blatantly false hugboxxer themes thrown ontop of it.

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>>44927294
>cruel mockery
I didn't like it much either but was it really THAT bad?

>>44926794
Everyone is gonna troon out anyways, everyone should take their meds (hrt) and then decide how to move forward

>>44922978
Don't take it personally, it's probably not your fault. Maybe that woman was assaulted recently and was on edge, you never know.

Reppers should watch castration movie to turn them away from trooning

>>44927475
True. That can absolutely be the case and even if it wasn't, I don't blame women for being careful.
>>44927284
This.

>>44927399
not me, not nevah

If you really think about it ,and I mean really think about it, taking HRT is basically transphobic and probably racist too and I don't want to be a part of that.

>>44918891
Because I just don’t like looking like a man. Also I can only enjoy sex if I’m presenting as female. I think the main reason I haven’t transitioned is because I’m afraid of losing my job.

How does one present as female NAKED?
nigga you are having gay sex with other men and saying NO HOMO when doing it

Soon I will find the courage.

>>44927670
Gay sex is fire tho

I want to be a hot, sexy, big boobied girl that turns men on with her hot, sexy, nubile and incredibly fuckable body.

>>44927767
zesty ass nigga

>>44927854
I'm not black.

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Today God has decided to grant me (curse me with) Divine Feminine Energy but unfortunately I still look like picrel.

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larry... larry???? I need my daily cuddles

I went on holiday and was passing through some country town a few years ago and I was just exploring and walking around and I turned a corner and there were 3 teenage girls sitting on some stairs and we locked eyes for a few seconds and they started laughing really loud. I've still think about that like 10 years later. I still haven't recovered from the trauma.

Reply to this post to become hairier and more masculine.

>>44927670
drop lot of weight and keep the lingerie on

>>44926422
>i want to but i lack agency
No one is going to do stuff for you
Grow a spine already, either troon or don't, but do it because you choose to, not because you're lethargic

>>44927670
shave your body hair and wear a cock cage UwU

I remember before I purged all my sissy stuff I had a cock cage and it was so comfy to wear. Not even in a sexual way.

>>44929107
i've been meaning to buy an innie cage for years now

>>44926488
personally after doing a lot of self-introspection i determined that it's the ultimate form of learned helplessness
humans are not born without agency
maybe it's the same for you idk
>>44928944
thanks for your very useful post in repgen known to be full of spineless idiots
my dilemma is >>44926422
>if i don't tell them i can't start hrt until 22 at the earliest after i get a job and enough space for it

do u guys wanna learn about hemoglobin

>>44927294
it really does feel like a mockery when the tranny character says thinking about sex is disgusting and stuff like I don’t already hate being attracted to people

>>44918891
I don’t want to be “effeminate”, and I’m not gay, I’m bisexual. I want to be a tomboy.

>>44931229
no, man, do you want to learn about a homo goblin?

>>44928017
Wow fragile much? Girls laughing at me was my entire school experience since I was a child. Get over it.

anyone feel like a weird need to prove masculinity and simultaneously unsafe

OMG I HAVE WI-FE AND WATER AGAIN
I had wisdom tooth removal for $33 and a cashier gave a discount for nothing. All day public transport appeared just in front of me and green lights on all crosswalks (literally omg). Also my new therapist and some ways is better that the old one.

>>44931845
My biggest curse surrounding this all is my massive male ego that demands that I prove to the world im not a failure of a man. Its driven me to dark places

imagine what a year of live in relationship with a manly man could do for your boy removal

Does anyone else have paranoia of family and friends finding out? There is this pit in my stomach kind of feeling that people in my life SOMEHOW KNOW that I am trans. I'm not even presenting in a feminine way, but to the highly perceptive person they might be able to clock me just off the words I choose alone plus certain minor behaviors. Maybe I'm just paranoid and my family thinks I have depression instead (which tbf I do and much of that is caused by gender dysphoria)

>>44932717
I take e and no one knows
most people are extremely clueless

>>44931845
>>44932439
same

I wish my head would just pop

at tu qui summa specialiter esse sophia
praeditus effereris minime sic esse fateris

can i
have sum
remedey
reme
dey four
me pleyse
if eye
head sum
remedey
id take enuff ta
pleyse mey

>>44918883
i think i'm just going to desist and suck it up for the rest of my life
the thoughts will always be there but i can live with it
there's no point, i don't want to be hated more (already autistic go fish) and honestly there's no point
i could probably pull it off but
i just can't see it
think i'll probably die soon anyway
it's going to be awful but it's the right thing to do

>>44933408
tf is "desist" bitch nigga we REP here

>>44933427
MFKER I AM STILL REPPING
hrtrepping ig but i dont take it because i think it makes me dysphoric
i got a vial coming but i don't think i'll use it
if you see some twink on britbonger news who jumped over bridge because she couldnt handle the tranny anymore it's me
soon hopefully

REP
as in
represent
as in
representation
as in
will and representation
as in
the world as will and representation
as in
the bunch of pages bundled together by shoppinghauer
as in
the guy who wants me to be an ascetic
as in
god
id est
dog

for if you remember
G O D
O W O
D O G

the holy trinity of DOG OWO DOG which can be laid out in a SATORAREPOTENETOPERAROTAS setting wheng their oneness and their connectivity like plato's nous connecting with the phren through the thymos

i mean it makes sense this thread always becomes inane "what is repping" discussion because it's not like there's anything going on
anyway let's go white sox god's team pulling through
>>44931845
not really desu, pantomiming fem gay is fun
>>44932630
it wouldn't do anything but it'd make the repping more tolerable

>>44931229
yeah especially if it's with doodles like last time

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>>44920778
HRT won't unrape me or turn everyone into an anthro woman or give me 160 acres.

>>44933532
>hrt"""repping"""
>vial
>she
>tranny
YWNBAR gtfo stupid bitch

>>44931218
Buy online and DIY, there's literally nothing stopping you from doing it. If you already are considering transition, you will 100% end up trooning out, in which case it's best to do it ASAP
Don't wait for years like I did

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well. my therapist knows.

>>44934016
>being known by TheRapist
ngmi

>>44934034
I have diamond hands. I can take anything and just carry on.

gonna go buy more imperial cider I think, 2 days sober is enough

>>44933899
ok fine you win i'm a larper
i could probably twinkhon fairly easy but i dont want people to hate me even more
just lots of bullshit really i'll figure it out

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>been repping for 15 years
>got my doctor appointment tomorrow to start hormones

Cya bros.

>>44934346
have fun
i have no such luck

>>44934374
Thank you anon. I understand my luck and I wish the best for you.

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I want to take a repper home
Reassure them, comfort them, cuddle them, kiss them all over
And then fuck their brains out, compliment them as they make pathetic, sad little noises
Run my hands through their hair post coitus until they fall asleep, and then sneak out to the kitchen to prepare something nice for them to eat
Is that too much to ask?

>>44934398
this is doing things to me ngl
i'd like a hug...

>>44934454
Do you want me to cuddle with you in the couch, under a warm comfy blanket while we watch anime or a movie? I'll let you rest your head against my chest, and rub your back gently

>>44934290
I always win
now get out of here and go twinkhon or I will hate you even more

>>44934518
ya
"all alone on a fri- thurday night? god i'm pathetic"

>>44934562
Come over, nona
I'm in a really strong mommy mood and I need a small, little, cutesy tiny plaything to pamper all night

Is it fine to take e as a manchild cis male with no hobbies abilities skills friends or prospects

>>44934398
>my hands through their hair post coitus
Reppers dont have hair on the account of the norwood reaper.

>>44920778
only of you force it down my gullet

>>44932630
I would just mog him
>>44934398
I am a big ugly man

>>44934731
>I am a big ugly man
Beauty is subjective, and it wouldn't keep you safe from me. If anything, it'd turn me on even more. You're gap moe.

>>44931741
Yeah me too that's why I'm sensitive about it. Turns out different people will react in different ways. Who took a shit in your weetbix this morning? No need to be such a cunt.

>>44934398
not only is it not too much to ask you can type "grindr" into app store of your choice and experience this right now rather than typing in this thread

>>44934834
Grindr has confident men and trannies though
I need a pathetic boyfailure, the likes of which only exist here

>>44934860
really, you can't find anyone pathetic on grindr. have you tried looking again
also really funny to me the whole "boyfailure" "boyremoval" type language. we're 30 and have fucked up hairlines around these parts

>>44934890
Those are simply states of mind, even people who have boynorwoods can be boyremoved

>>44933911
unfortunately i can't just do that
>>44926422
>inb4 "just buy estrogen vials retard" no i can't do that because i'm a special snowflake that needs special hrt
>>44934398
you do not exist and you are not a real person

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Remember, ywnbaw, iwnbaw

>>44934953
lmao okay boynorwoods is funny, still hope they find you in a drainage ditch sometime soon

>>44935009
Hip dips are something cis women have too. unfaithful portrayal.

>>44935009
every tranny i see irl (not online) is basically living proof of this :x
but it's not even unfixable just fucking GO TO THE GYM and compensate for what you don't have naturally you retards
6-12 months of real gym work would easily make left surpass right

>>44935009
nah I've definitely seen some youngshit trannies who can hold up to the right, they just transitioned under biological circumstances that will never be present for me

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>>44935009
wow yay! pure ropefuel!

>>44935082
and some intersex luckshits too actually now that I think about it, which again I personally am unfortunately not one of

>>44935082
>>44935115
>yeah look if you take the 0.1% of youngshits (0.1% of trannies) with god-tier genetics they can hold up to an average cis woman!!!
missed the entire point of the comparison award

>>44935129
they matter more than all of us combined so don't downplay their existence

>>44935157
they each*

at least I'm not under any obligation to do anything with this life if I hate it so much

>>44923419
Never have never will

what a sick joke

>visit hospital
>"Are you on any hormones?"
>No...
So humiliating. You should never put this shit on your official records

I have been browsing this board here and there for like the past 5-6 years and everyone always said that eventually this board would turn me trans and I feel like now I am finally starting to get the tranny thoughts, Idk why it took so long. Anyways I am 29, is it even worth it at this point?

>>44934398
eventually you'll make me pay my dues then what will i have to do bet it won't even be sexy

>>44935981
Just talk to a gender therapist

lebensraum
kulturkampf
raur raus
fila fila

im repressing my nationality dysphoria
i wish i was a manly aryan blonde german overman but instead im a frail anorexic sickly-pale spanigger faggot who got gaslit by globo homo into thinking he wants to be a gyal

>>44918883
>agp thoughts
>agp thoughts now stronger
>stronger
>much stronger
>coom to trans porn imagining in the tranny
>they go away
>they come back

Fuck

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Every year October comes around and I see the birthday hats and go "Its October already? wasn't it just October a couple of months ago" and then proceed to do nothing until the next October where the cycle continues.

>>44936091
whatever happened to gary cooper

>>44934730
>just create valuable jewels out of these rocks bro

On meds again, surely they'll work this time

>>44937506
Meanwhile I'm trying to get on meds to see if they'll make the dysphoria go away as a side effect. And my family doesn't want me on them they just say I lack motivation in life.

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>>44937757
>my family doesn't want me on them they just say I lack motivation in life
Nta but same, I need to move out asap.

>>44935981
Depends.
You might pass as a woman, or not.

kinda want to get back on estrogen but nahhh

>>44933558
man no wonder i aint got friends
no wonder nobody aint ever there

im kinda thinking of downloading grindr to suck a guys dick but im also really scared and also the grindr ceo is israeli and isntreal is stinky and i somehow feel like sucking a guys dick from grindr would serendipitously end up getting me kicked out of college and my life tailspinning into a hell where my parents and everybody i know hates me and i kill myself a loveless forgotten tramp and my name is plunged into oblivion if not occasionally brought up as an example of a sad retarded useless stupid faggot

>>44936054
You will pay your dues by being cute, and vulnerable and fragile
I just want a broken plaything to nurse back to health

>>44939537
yeah but i'll have to be like that forever what if i do get some semblance of health then you'll hate me because your entertainment will be over and all the time you invested to waste

>>44939567
If I'm investing time into healing you is because I want to see you thrive
As long as you let me cuddle you and pamper you once you get better, I'll still get what I want from you...

>>44938497
Why not?

>>44939537
again you are not a real person

>>44939650
This is making me aroused out of nowhere

>>44939650
maybe then i'll find someone better

>>44939663
cuz nahhh

>>44940428
Get on estrogen cuh

>>44940421
I'd be sad if you did that, but I'd eventually heal and move on. This happened with my ex, too. She ended up leaving me for a man, after figuring out she didn't like women after all. It's painful, but that's just how life is sometimes. I'm doing better now, though.
>>44940133
Good. There's hope for you nona. You'll find someone to take care of you yet.
>>44940123
I guarantee you, I exist. And there are others like me, too

Stop fapping start estrogen

im not fapping im CONDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEMNED TOOOO ROOOOCK NNNNN ROOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

no innocent exit when hope diieees
an claustrophobia buys my miiind
i ran to breathe contagious liiieeees
no reason for just livin liiifeee

>>44940435
What abt me

>>44940518
Arent u already on e lol

>>44940435
im tired and my elbow hurts

>>44940522
Nope

>>44940535
I'm tired too I wanna sleep but haven't brushed my teeth yet and I promised my dentist I'd be a good girl
>>44940773
You should start then! I'm an ugly manmoder but hrt was the best choice I made ever still. My personality is a lot better on it than off it, my skin and mood too.
The only downside is being a hon sucks.

muh aynjulz
muh dävulz
de thawrn in muh pryed

>>44940486
STOP FAPPING START LIVING (as a girl)

>>44940480
that's cause women don't need healing they need slapping and plapping

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it's kind of retarded that the list of things youre supposed to be keeps going up with time

>>44940848
Doesnt do anything

i have to repress for my own good at this point because even though i could troon i would make everything worse like usual
it's gonna be fucking awful and i'll regret it but i just have to repress for the rest of my life or until i kill myself (soon hopefully)

if it makes any difference i'm 18, thats how fucked i am
anyway does anyone know how to numb myself and the thoughts that arent drugs or alcoholism

I hate when women flirt with me
I know they're just playing

>endure life only to die in the end
LOL

>>44941520
you're even more of a retard than i am
just buy the fucking vials and shoot up the estrogen
YOU have no excuse not to
>>44940480
you are not real shut the fuck up you are a mossad officer sent here to make me think that i have support
>>44940486
i would fap more and i would fap harder if i was on hrt

>>44941520
Im 22 and still going. Genuinely not even worth it

I don't have water again

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>>44933735
oh I didn't think anyone would say yes
p1

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>>44942560
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>>44942564
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>>44942571
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>>44942575
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>>44942581
that’s about all I needed to know for my exam

>>44942560
>>44942564
>>44942571
>>44942575
>>44942581
>>44942584
why did you put a cute tranny in it
now i'm sad :(

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I can't accept it. I honestly don't think I'm trans. I don't think I could ever live as a trans person. I just have gender dysphoria.

>>44941970
trooning or repping
need to get over myself
will go properly insane soon
silver lining might starve myself to death first so there's always that

>>44926078
FUCKSJDFLKAJFD i just got reminded of this today
some 18 year old troon talked about how she drove down several states with a friend
and
fuck
i hardly went out with friends after school...

day 3 of eating only one meal a day because I hate having moid pattern fat distribution

this sucks

>>44942745
it gets easier, although then you just notice you have a moid ribcage and shit like that instead

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>>44942598
cus that’s who I wanna be
alas on the college budget diy is too expensive so I’m stuck repping til I get a job that pays more than minimum wage

>>44942879
complete bullshit
a vial and needles are no more than a few hundred dollars a year max
god if you need to skip meals for a few weeks or something
you're just making excuses for not being on hrt right now

>>44942717
Same. I wasted my entire life. And not in an angsty 19 year old way like half of this gen is, I'm almost middle aged . I obsess over Russia starting WW3 so I won't have to face the consequences of my indecision (living a long empty nothing life)

>>44942951
I’m paying off college by myself like 75% of my paycheck is going to the jews and I need food

>>44942979
skipping some meals isn't gonna kill you retard
hrt is obviously more important than avoiding malnourishment for a few weeks

fall is always so pleasantly melancholic for me

>>44941520
Your life will only become more complicated so if you want to transition do it now and actually commit instead of being a hrtrepper.
When I was 18 all I worries about was letting my family down, now I have that, my job, friends who aren't close enough to be let in on my secret but who I enjoy casual time with, a pile of legal documents I'd need to change, etc.

would it be bad to start drinking at 6am if I slept all day?

It's hard knowing the world would be a better place if I just killed myself

>>44944454
only repgen would be a better place if you did that

>>44944508
I get that I'm on hrt, but I fit in better here than anywhere else.
What group would a gender dysphoric individual who has taken no steps to transition in 10 years fit into?

>>44944522
I'm not even going to engage with your bait I'm sorry

>>44944546
It isn't bait...

>>44944561
okay "Charlotte"

My “girl”friend has dysphoria but won’t transition and I have mild dysphoria and won’t transition. Somehow we’re generally still happy.

>>44944567
Nobody has called me that name irl in years. It might as well be an online handle now, I don't even like it that much I wish my family didn't hate me and they'd give me a name instead

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>>44944597
not a single non-imaginary person calls me by a girl name online or irl because I am a repper

>>44944609
And why can't a repper indulge a little for cope?
I told someone I was trans once and they asked me when I would start hrt (like 7 years on hrt)

>>44944609
what do you want us to call you?

>>44944620
lol yeah

>>44944657
What name would you go by if you gave in nona

>>44944635
Nta but Samantha ig
Nevermind, this is all just delusion

>>44944922
I want to just forget about everything. I don't want to be here anymore. I miss when all my online activity was video games and not this. Being a video game addict is far from the person I want to be but at least it feels slightly less miserable than this. But the world will never love me know matter what I do.

>>44944922
How long have you known you'd like that name Samantha?

>>44944922
nice choice sammy
have a nice day :3

>>44945045
>I miss when all my online activity was video games and not this.

Same x 100. I can't stand the internet now. It's post-post dead. It was an animated corpse years ago. It's not even that now. It's been churned up, burned, and emulsified. it's like a meat slushie being stirred by an AI-powered spoon.

I would do ANYTHING ELSE but nothing is fun or interesting. Pacing around my house gets old and then I come back here.

>>44926078
they usually have supportive parents who dont reject them, this leads to them feeling safe enough to do what they want to do instead of repressing until they are 35

>>44918883
pretty easily. i sit inside collecting neetbucks hoping each day will be the day i do it

>>44945069
2 months. It just popped into my head for some reason. It's not even the female version of my male name.
>>44945117
Thanks
>>44945147
I look at my youtube subscriptions and think to myself what the fuck happened to the internet. I just unsubscribed to like 40 channels today in frustration. I just want real life experiences now. I finally asked a friend if he wants to hang out which I never do. I'm always the one that gets invited but rarely have the willpower to make it.

Saw a really cute girl today and I'm not quite sure if she was a tomboyish foid or a boymoder

>>44926078
real.
i wonder how the hell i ended up like this, i cannot trace it to any specific event, trauma or whatever.
my family was and is accepting, i never ever was bullied nor anything.
but anyway my almost all of my early life consisted on me repressing, being abnormally asocial and shy and not having anything to look forwards.

I strongly believe it's another one of those things where I was simply born wrong. I don't know if is specifically autism, (i am autistic and diagnosed), because not even other autistic people are like that in most of the cases.

>>44945949
Are you never gonna start hrt then Samantha?

Im in extreme man mode right now. I feel strong and not feminine at all, but I know the dysphoria is gonna come back. Cant even enjoy the normal days

I'm in fan mode. I'm gonna blow you away!

>>44947193
No, probably not.

i'm simply too depressed to do anything but post on 4chan
i can't even bring myself to eat
i want to sleep forever

>24 y/o
>never had sex
>never had a gf. tried to get one but failed, admittedly didn't try very hard
>gender personality test shows 25% male and 75% female
>gradually grown to hate and envy women
>have giga mef and agp
>have small penis which fuels the above and acts as a blocker in my mind from ever being a normal man
is there any reason why i shouldn't order hrt and stealthtroon? i'm not cute or anything though, more like a lanky 5'11 slav past his twink years. i would never fully pass especially not without ffs, but i'm thinking of doing it anyway for fun before i rope unless hrt magically was the exact thing i needed all along. i'm fed up with life anyway atp so it's not big deal in my mind if it doesn't work out

>>44948653
because you won't do it
you'll think about it for years
and before you know it, you'll be a 35+ year old kissless virgin with no friends
who still dreams of being a woman

>>44945949
> just want real life experiences
bad choice of words for a proto tranny

>>44949058
How?

>>44935009
i have hips like right side and i didn't start taking E until mid 20s

>>44949093
real life experience or RLE is forcing a tranny to cross dress for a long time before given any treatment, often in the form of having to do makeup and clothes in a style that makes the male body stand out even more.

>>44948736
or take E and voicetrain, realize you can't afford FFS and before you know it 6 years went by and now you consistently malefail without truly passing obviously. welcome to the rest of your life, hrtrepper.

>>44949272
Wasn't planning on crossdressing though I did get the thought of the primary reason for getting my own place was so I can wear feminine clothing freely and without judgement. But I don't even know if I'll like that. Shaving my body hair, finally taking care of my body again (in the hopes it will be a female body one day) produced moments of euphoria that felt fleeting at best. Now I'm back to my usual depressed self that showers maybe once every 2 weeks, doesn't brush teeth, and doesn't give a fuck if it died desu.

The only time I cross dressed was once in 2018 and I stopped doing it out of shame because the dress I wore belonged to my sister. I think I'm just mentally ill and possibly traumatized desu, to want to escape by any means even though I know transitioning would make my life a lot harder and more complicated.

By real life experiences I'm talking about going out into the world and trying to connect with people even though my fucking autism makes it feel impossible sometimes. When I'm not working I barely exist in the real world.

Im just a cis guy. Nothing like an actual women. Girls snatch their drinks when im by them at the bar thinking im trying to date rape them

>>44950590
fucking brutal.
at least you go to bars though so you have some semblance of a social life.

I saved a person's life today and yet here I am laying in bed feeling worthless and subhuman, like on every other day. At least I have a bed and a roof so I can be grateful for that.

>>44951200
Did they deserve it?
I’d be pissed if someone would save me from sweet death, but normies like their metabolic processes going so grats

>>44951268
Yeah, I would say they didn't deserve to die yet. Probably in their 30s or 40s. Even if they were 80 beyond, I would still try to save them. Though I don't know many drug addicts surviving to their 80s.

>>44944620
because we're repping not indulging
>>44944635
nobody will ever know

>>44951200
you definitely have more worth than me if you helped someone else

my chud friend texted and called me back after months of ghosting me
i would hope he doesn't read this board but part of me also dreams that he'll boyremove me one day or something

I am literally gargantuan and it causes me extreme mental pain

repping sucks

>>44947447
I'm always in extreme manly man mode

this shit is so nasty

why is repgen so slow lately

idk about you guys but I'm repping at all hours of the day

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I love video games that let me play as a girl

Life as a schizoid repressor is simply dull.

>>44918883
Disassociation and overworking myself to the point where i physically am unable to comprehend anything more than a single phrase.
Oh yeah and also the crippling fear of my parents finding out.

>>44953269
My parents are fuckin scary last time i raised my voice was 5 years ago and i was 14. I got my ear ripped clean off had to get it sewn back on in the er. Whenever I bring it up they tell me to get over myself and “man up”, I bet they’ll be all surprised when I go no contact the moment I get out of this shithole. Love airing out my dirty laundry on this site its beautiful.

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what would your ideal body be repgang?

>>44953298
Big titty anime girl

>>44953041
Same. I look forward to the new Tomb Raider and Resident Evil. I was just replaying RE9 and I love Grace but god does the gameplay feel slow. Capcom needs to change the formula and make their RE games less scripted.

>>44953115
Try becoming radically social. Voraciously suck up knowledge on human psychology and sociology. Then become a chameleon and become a part of a large social structure, sitting back and watching life happen.

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>>44953298
this

>>44953359
And no I'm not posting a picture. Just look up any thick big titty anime girl and that's it.

I wish I had better social skills

>>44953288
jezus I dunno where you live but that's enough to get you imprisoned over here. if you have access to the medical files or any other evidence you should ruin them. maybe move out first but still I'd want revenge.

>>44953298
I wanna look like the cute trannies I see at breakcore concerts and nerdy conventions. the ones that don't quite fully pass but still look girly and cute.

wait why am I still here I literally have a pill under my tongue right now

I just took the meds that let me move and speak without falling on the floor and compulsively masturbating to sissy porn for 8 hours

>>44954002
Hnnng...well, that must feel very pleasurable.

>>44954166
Ok Solid Snake

>>44954002
What drug is that?
I want the antidote

>pain in my shoulder
>Then pain in my elbow
>Now tingling in my fingers

Bros....I'm dying

Godspeed or maybe call someone

I don't know if it's better to hrtrep and date queer woman or full rep and date hetero women

>Do nothing.
>Lose
Huh?

Who here blandmaxxing?

>No hobbies
>No interests
>No job
>No enjoyment of anything
>Same thoughts every day
>Same fap fantasies every day
>No distinction between each day, week, month
>Nothing in the future

>>44956011
Passing my turns until I die

Hrt would give u a little variety...

>>44956147
HRT is extremely overrated. I already tried that shit years ago and never got anywhere.

>>44956182
how many years did you try

>>44956193
>years

Stop it. Jesus. You don't need to be on HRT for years. I swear the happiness horizon is always receding away no matter how long you try. Just one more year bro!

>>44956210
I mean it does take years to work but if masculine enough I suppose it doesn't matter

>>44956193
Ive tried 8.5 years, I don't pass but I look like a weird underage boy and I get treated as such.
It's kinda fun sometimes because I get away with things no grown man ever would but now that I'm 26 I kinda want to be treated as an adult worth listening to.

If you haven't tried for longer than me you need to stfu and take your pills.

The hrt challenge

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I don't think I want to be a woman, but I absolutely definitely do not want to be a man either. I don't want to be seen or treated like one, especially by women. Like some dangerous creep ready to pounce if you let your guard down. On the flipside, I don't want men to size me up and treat me like a potential adversary just because I happen to be a man as well.

I just went to exist without this BS.

im a 29 year old child just waiting to figure things out!

our local schizo seems to have spotted this thread again be warned
also take your damn pills

>>44956445
it's called enbycoping try it

>>44956182
>>44956210
dunno it's been less than a month for me and my skin is definitely changing and I'm pretty sure my butt is getting bigger but I think I was pretty low-test to begin with

>>44956882
sure thing hon

>>44957029
my belt don't lie tho

Not interested in the female social role whatsoever. I just want to look cute. Should i take hrt ?

There must be a certain age where the prescription ceases to be HRT injections and is replaced with euthanasia injections.

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>>44956851
waow this might just be LITERALLY me, thx anon :>

>>44957144
Why would you choose death over putting a little effort in for once in your life

>Dear

https://youtu.be/zsd2KpXZgsE?si=G90WLknfcs9I703s

stelletje kanker liefjes dat je der bent
eh :3 :3

misschien kan het wel niet in enli
wanneer
wanneer

kan zijn dat je vrijheid nou gekomen is omdat ik het zeg

>>44956882
Sure bro

o good lord

>in enli

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I am te tell ye about another thing that may save ye
https://youtu.be/oNoRaTjmdiI?si=8e9QvpqAtgkc7VIh
>dear

ye nigger mutts
who from anywhere else here

stelletje kutjes
Misschien kan ik dit wel niet in enli doen