I'm a massive disappointment.>woke up early>planned to go outside today to skate>Got dressed and did skin care>can't even make it outside my front door>Now it's too late to skate.I wish I wasn't a tranny I wish I didn't have anxiety I wish I had a friend to accompany meI wish I wasn't a fucking coward.it's a fucking beautiful fall day today and I fucking blew it. I literally never go outside and I wonder why my life sucks. I fucking hate this, I wish I wasn't a faggot tranny.
>>44938639Getting up, dressed, and ready to leave are good signs at least. Can you get help with your anxiety?
What's the worst that could happen if you had gone out?
>>44938673people would have thrown rocks at longboy skater tranny for REAL
>>44938639Incredibly real. I will only go out to skate well past dark. I’m really hoping things get better for you Nona… do you have any friends to go with?
>>44938639I managed to go out for a bit. It was awkward and I'm really bad at skating but atleast I manage to do it for a little.>>44938662ty >can you get help with your anxiety not at the moment depressingly. I think anxiety is the main thing ruining my life rn and I'm not even on meds for it.>>44938673I could get yelled at, assaulted, or killed.>>44938697I don't have a single irl friend sadly :(
>>44938837>I managed to go out for a bit. It was awkward and I'm really bad at skating but atleast I manage to do it for a little.It might not seem like it compared to what you wanted, but this is pretty huge after feeling like you can't leave at all. You're working hard at getting better>not at the moment depressingly. I think anxiety is the main thing ruining my life rn and I'm not even on meds for it.Mental healthcare sucks in most places sadly, made all the harder by not being able advocate as hard for yourself because of the anxiety. Fucked shit
>>44938837To get over any anxiety situation I use this technique, preferably with pen and pad, maybe you can try it >Write down best-case scenario >Write down worst case scenario >Write down most realistic/probable scenarioIt usually breaks my anxiety loop, and I find often the best case or realistic scenario happens
>>44938837YAY!!! I am so proud of you Nona.
>>44938907>It might not seem like it compared to what you wanted, but this is pretty huge after feeling like you can't leave at all. You're working hard at getting betterty, this makes me really happy to hear. I'm trying to get out more cause anxiety is probably my biggest obstacle in life rn. I'm unable to work, go meet people, etc. And I think the first step is going for walks or skateboarding every morning. I'm still extremely scared of ppl though but I hope that changes the more I do it. This October I really wanna accomplish a lot.>Mental healthcare sucks in most places sadly, made all the harder by not being able advocate as hard for yourself because of the anxiety. Fucked shityeah ever since being forced to move states, I lost all my psychiatric healthcare. I was supposed to have a psychiatrist and therapist by now, but I have neither. not even a primary doctor so I have to diy from now on too. I'm supposed to be on medication but I'm not anymore sadly. >>44938929I'll try this out tomorrow when I go for a walk, it might work ^_^
>>44939197Ty!!
>>44938639:<
