I see girls as a sort of sex toy (for my eyes as I'm an incel). They're disposable to me. I'm not interested in them beyond looking at (usually drawn/animated) depictions if them on a screen. I don't think I even want to touch them.I only felt an intense, romantic fixation for individual guys. The obsession over every detail of his life, scrutinizing his features, desiring some sort of fusion or love that goes beyond time and space.What the fuck is wrong with me?
>>44942241assuming you're a cis guy, then you're gay and like sexually women only in fiction. You don't see women as a "sex object", if you only have a liking to 2d women.
>>44942267I'm a trans guy. Does that make it any different?
>>44942274not really, you're still a guy idk. Sexuality is weird and everyone's different.
>>44942241>What the fuck is wrong with me?nothing. you're based. women are only good for sex and not worth the mental illness that comes with it
>ftm loliconhow does this even happen
>>44942267he's a misogynist incel*
>>44943009Well, if you think about it, even if we're trans, loli and shota still represent a time before we hit puberty and our bodies were irreparably damaged.
>>44943009unironically autopedophilia is way way more common in cis women than you think >>44943082this is also true
>>44943245Trans men aren't cis women
>>44942241>I see girls as a sort of sex toyI do see cis women a bit like that, yeah. Moreso than I do non-op passoids. I don't usually get emotionally attached much to cis women. I'm not really into 2D animu girls though. It's cringe>I only felt an intense, romantic fixation for individual guysCan't relate. I'm the world's straightest man. I feel less romantic or sexual attraction to them compared to non-op passoids, cis women or even passing srsoids
>>44942241What is your ethnicity anon
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>>44944602I can tell, this is a very Yakubian thread
>they're disposable to me>all I do is look at themCope. If you had a trans girl in real life you'd treat her like the most precious thing in the world
>>44945463Shut up chaser, stop using random threads to vent about your fetishistic love for trannies
>>44945512I'm a tranny with npd
>>44945538I wish I had npd
>>44945576You don't, it's destructive to all your relationships and basically unable to be close with anyone. You destroy opportunities because someone 'disrespected' you and have a pathological need to frame yourself as the winner, as well as win, every situation you're part of. There's treatments but they involve lifestyle changes and I lack the humility or self control to implement any of them.
>>44942241>What the fuck is wrong with me?Probably you were abused or something like that. Which is very normal for the gay community. Also the image you posted indicates you're a pedophile, and the abuse probably happened when you were the age of the subject.
>>44945538>I'm a tranny with npdYou could have just said, "I'm a tranny"
>>44945595All my relationships are ruined either way since i have AvPD but atleast NPD is cooler. If anything i wish I had BPD most of all, since atleast normies actually like them and treat them with empathy
>>44945463>you'd treat her like the most precious thing in the worldi have done this and still disposed of her maybe more than once i don't like thinking about itwhat would you say about that then?i don't necessarily agree with the rest of the post though i'm just saying that it's easy enough to think "it's ok that i don't have a relationship with this person anymore" or for something like that to happen
>>44945463Trans girls are just girls with a fun little flesh dildo.
>>44945605I was never sexually abused, but as a child I had no sex education, and I would just sexually engage with younger girls who I am sure believe I "raped" them now. I didn't understand what I was doing, but it felt nice.
>>44945862least raped rapehon
>>44943301one of them takes exogenous Tand wants he/him pronouns
>>44945624BPD is even worse because it's like NPD but with more depression, debilitating levels of guilt, and worse coping mechanisms, though they're basically the same thing. A lot of narcissists are diagnosed with borderline because an npd diagnosis is considered too mean, especially for women, and vice versa for the higher functioning borderlines. >>44945611most trannies are not narcissists, they can be very selfless albeit in very autistic ways. I'm an autistic narcissist.>>44945624Those people still love you though. When you discard someone they oftentimes get a very clear idea of the fact that they meant nothing to you and you will never see then again. It's pretty isolating underneath it all.>>44945634>I have done this more than once and still disposed of her>I don't like thinking about itWhat I have to say is that you obviously feel some sort of deep remorse for it or you wouldn't be posting. While it's possible you're seeking validation for your shitty behavior, this is unfortunately something that will never go away. You will only develop more of a conscious, feel more guilty, and want to explore these thoughts deeper until you can reconcile your attraction to trans women with the cultural norms you have internalized about us or it will destroy you. I recommend a therapist.There is probably also a reason or trigger why you have done this that could be rooted in your own trauma, autism, or narcissism. At some point you get the ick and you seem to understand it's not usually the tranny's fault, but you once again need to think about why it is you do that.>>44945845how's the porn addiction going
>>44945973your reply kinda misunderstands my post but you make some good points at the person you thought i was in writing it - i'm trying to get into therapy although i'm not sure what it can do for me. i hate myself and all but when i left that person i was writing about they were not treating me in an acceptable manner in our relationship anymore, i believed i was being domestically abused and my memories of it are shaky now
>>44942241>I see girls as a sort of sex toy (for my eyes as I'm an incel). They're disposable to me. I'm not interested in them beyond looking at (usually drawn/animated) depictions if them on a screen. I don't think I even want to touch them.i felt this most of my life but it slowly morphed into gender envy
>>44942241This is hillarious poonlarpYou have never had sex and are a self proclaimed incel, seeing women as disposable sex toys isnt even an option for you loser
>>44945973>they meant nothing to youThey mean everything to me though, The more i care about someone the more i want to flee out of fear of saying something that will make them hate me. Im not sure you know what AvPD actually is.
>>44946503kill yourself you are unlovable and a drain to everyone you talk to fucking freak
>>44946554Awww, did your ex have AvPD? This must be what its like for bpd people when random losers start screaming about bpdemons and saying their unrelated bpd ex “abused“ them lol
>>44946705thats a lot of words for sending a video of your hanging corpse to your parents who dont care about you be sure to make a name or trip and carve it into yourself before you hang, livestreaming it would be better but its up to you. die for mommy
>>44946738Please keep having a childish meltdown, its so funny. Were your hands shaking with rage when you typed that?Were you holding back tears?Do you plan on writing more whump fanfiction about me?Please tell me more!
>>44942241>What the fuck is wrong with me?You're a pedo posting depictions of little girls, with red knees. You're also gay. So your sexual attraction is for men (ok), and little girls (not ok). Do you also like little boys? A pedo bisexual. In other words, kys.
>>44946785yes nigger whatever you say nigger kill yourself, nigger. pooner nigger. wadasfsfd awaaah i want my mommmy rape rapre mmomy i want my mommy nigger rape
>>44946816im a cis male>wadasfsfd awaaah i want my mommmy rape rapre mmomy i want my mommy nigger rape???
>>44946816waaaaaaa unngig gigigngingingingingi nigger niggger nigger niggger wwaaaa h nigger tranny poonner nigger waaaahd ghuisgh98rseg8s k niger whatevery ou say nigger kill yousrsef nigger
>>44945973BPD is not like NPD.Please don't speak of things you know nothing about. One is fear of abandonment. The other is using people.
>>44946830waaah nigger nwaaah nigger waaaahhhhhh mommmmu daddy rape me rapre me rapre me kill oyursdelf nigger hateveryu say tranny nigger kill souerself
>>44942241i feel similiar to this as an mtf
>>44946834>NOOO im one of the good cluster Bs! im not like yall evil mean people! normies plz accept meThis is why i hate people with bpd
>>44946177If the following post was you: >>44945634 then you were being vague, and your story seems to change dramatically.My impression is that you might feel bad for breaking up with someone in a messy way, and also that you might miss her. I can't help you with this, you have to help yourself and it will be hard to think about. That is why you get a therapist. They can help you figure your feelings out about this and grasp what actually happened but you need to be honest with both them and yourself. You should also select one with care, most therapists are kind of bad and the ones that are good tend to have specialties which you need to work with. One thing that is relieving is that you can always go back and reconsider different narrative you've told them without feeling like you're a liar and a horrible person, they are trained to accept that will happen and any competent one will be able to work with that.You could also not do that and continue to have volatile relationships, guilt, trauma, uncertainty, and whatever else that contributes to life being worse. Personally I find it unhelpful to not conclusively know the reality of a situation beyond my own ephemeral feelings about it, and it debilitatingly contributes to indecision to dwell in the different possibilities of how to frame it.>>44946503>I do miss those people>Im not sure you know what AvPD actually is.Erm, I'm not sure if you have the best reading comprehension because my use of "you" here was not literally about you. It was the hypothetical you. I was referring to myself. Naturally.What I'm telling you is that those people still love you, they miss you, and if you explained to them they would probably be accepting. You might not even need to explain, some people are just like that.>>44946816Serious question: when did you first become interested in fetishistically covering yourself in shit?
>>44946834>One is X>The other is YStop using ChatGPT. It makes you retarded.
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>>44947167I don't use it. You're a moron.
>>44946857Mmmm.... I see a narc, triggered at his theory (him), getting marked as wrong.
>>44947591If you actually think that BPDs are incapable of using others and NPDs are incapable of fearing of abandonment as primary drivers of our behavior then you're more narcissistic than I am. The only real difference between BPD and NPD is that BPD is less neurologically capable of cognitive empathy, it is for all intents and purposes a low functioning form of NPD.>>44947608That person isn't me lol, but I'm glad you finally got the opportunity to make your one joke. You must have been waiting a long time for that one
>>44945634It's whatever; I am not even upset. We are just disposable abuse sponges to most men anyway. And then everyone gets upset when we eventually learn this and give up trying to date.>>44946852Just don't forget you are a toy to most people in our society too.
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>>44947608I wish I was a narc, unfortunately i am not
