Finally admitted to myself I was trans a couple months ago and I’ve been more miserable than ever since. A lot of it is that i genuinely (correctly)believed I was trans at like 12/13 and then was too scared to come out to get on blockers/HRT even though my parents would’ve gotten me on them had I came out and then I convinced myself i wasn’t trans and repressed for like 7+ years, fully dissociated from my body, and now that I’ve finally admitted to myself I’m trans that ability to dissociate has vanished and not only has that been brutal but also I’ve had to come to terms with the fact that I could’ve been a youngshit if i were simply not just a coward and avoided this torture altogether.I’ve legit been avging 8+ drinks/day for the past month and it only seems to be increasing no matter how much I try to stop. And also like I failed the fuck outta uni last year— to the point I had to get a doctors note to not be kicked out. And then this year I’ve been having the same issues with being too sad to do shit and keep skipping/missing stuff it’s 4wks in already Idk what to do (though I am on HRT (5mg EEn/wk) but idk what to do beyond that)
>>44961408stop drinking and hit the gym
>>44961535You’re not wrong about the drinking part (that said I’m already trying and just don’t have the strength) but how does the gym help? I obviously don’t wanna be muscular cuz mtf
