Ive always felt like a straight tranny, or just at least that Im only attracted to like very masculine men. Ive never had any psychological attraction to women and only a short period of physical attraction to women and twinks which ended as soon as male puberty wound down. Ive always thought women are more aesthetically beautiful, i mean who doesnt, but women have never made me feel the way men do. recently however, i have been having multiple dreams a week in which I do intimate things with women. Not sex or even kissing but just like cuddling in bed. i dont know what to think of it. ive never dreamt of my bf even though i think about him while im awake way more and about way more intimate things than just cuddling (were long distance and have only been together in person for a few weeks). i dont want to be a troonsbian, i hate my rape stick i wish i could have bottom surgery now even though ill probably never psss. but i cant shake the feeling that it would be kinda nice to cuddle with a girl, with my boyfriends permission. even more so if it was a girl and I both cuddling him. idk what does this make me, am i a faketrans rapehon troonsbian now?
