Okay so blogposting time.I have a bit of an issue. You see.I started mood stabilizers recently and like theyve been working really well but the thing is theres a couple issues.Like for one. What about if being miserable was just actually that I was really deep? Have you ever considered that? Have you ever considered that I might just be a really deep bitch?Two. I cant sell out as well. I have all these needs and wants now. I keep wanting to like. Go to the park and shit and wanting to go outside or do things like sewing and stuff and like. No thats bad, Im not sitting in bed bedrotting waiting for my boss to call me in because I have nothing better to do. TO THINK that before mood stabilizers I was even considering becoming the PRESTIGIOUS role of retail manager. Smh.Three. Like. I started going out with a couple guys and like. Theres this really cute sweet guy I like a lot but Im realizing the abuseslop giga red flag fascist guy might be more my thing, yknow. Repeating old dynamics and stuff and like. I dont like that I can have feelings for men again.Four. Ive been talking a lot more like a faggot again and like. I feel really grossed out that my fagcent came back and I dont know if its just internalized misogyny or actually gross my friend said its just misogynyI DISLIKE THAT IM NOT ABLE TO SELL OUT AS WELL AND LIKE HAVE NEEDS NOW
