anyone else feel like a HRT bishounen instead of a woman. i just cant convince myself to believe im a woman
yeah except I'm not pretty enough to be one, that's why I accept I'm a tranny but still just live as a man and call myself a manmoder and use he/himit's comfier than trying to insist to everyone else and myself that I'm some specific stereotype or set of standards that I physically clash with
>>44974742Me, but that's what I want. I have to larp though to get my surgeries covered by my insurance though.
HRTwinks are legit. Better than being a manmoder or a hon. But yea if you're binary mtf then ofc its cope
>>44974798the thing is im unsure if im a binary mtf or not. i feel like i only feel this way because its a far easier goal than passing and lets me excuse having some masculine features
>>44974742no because bishounens are cool and cute and i am neitheri barely even consider myself a person to be perfectly desu but hopefully one day i'll have enough self-respect to see myself as a woman
>>44974746this is kinda how i feel. i had a friend tell me i should come out so i did and now i feel like im being egotistical and like im claiming im a woman when i don't really have the confidence to believe that.
>>44974742in my head thats what i am but when i look in the mirror im like an ugly 30 year old guy with tits and it harshes my mellow.
>>44974742my goal
>>44974971My body just looks like some flubby onions boy, my face is almost bishonen tier I just need my browbone and nose nuked.
>>44974742I know this is a cope for me because if it weren't one, then I wouldn't have even bothered to ask such a question. The biggest sources of dysphoria are specifically things I can't change, while being an hrt bishounen is actually doable. It's better than nothing.
>>44974963you could instead "come out" as non-binary or gender non-conforming
>>44974742I can't tell myself that I'm a woman either. I havent even talked to a ciswoman in years. i cope by saying i'm nonbinary.
>>44975100i think i should've done this in retrospect
>>44975129probably not too lateyou don't have to do it the same way as anyone else
>>44974742I feel like a poser around other trans women when I try to claim to be the same as them. They're real women, and I'm something lesser.
>>44975179Same
>>44974742>anyone else feel like a HRT bishounen instead of a woman.You aren't beautiful, and you're also not a woman. There's a reason you can't convince yourself otherwise.
I had a major split recently and basically now identify as a cis male on HRT Convincing yourself to believe stuff is just a matter of behavioral reinforcement and if you like to play with these things there's a deep rabbit hole to go down
>>44975751>I had a major split recently and basically now identify as a cis male on HRT
>>44975728i get told im beautiful but i cant convince myself of that either
>>44975021yeah same, i fantasize about what id look like with ffs even though i have no intentio to present as a woman, mental illness sucks
>>44975179yeah i hate it, i feel like they are thinking im a fake tranny and want me to go away, i feel so humiliated interacting with real trans women, my entire life is fake
>>44975771Basically like, you're never gonna have nice things as a tranny especially wjen you're a fuckup drug addict with poor mental health...Also being transphobic and paranoid is in style right now... once you start nooticing you realize the evangelical christians are going to turn the US into a despotic prison state controlled by AI and kill everyone. Might as well just get my kicks while I can.
>>44974742It can be fun if you enjoy self destruction.
this just occured to me but how would i explain being a HRT bishounen with breasts
>>44975874You're still a troon though.
