should i twinkcope or become a "cis man on hrt"?hrt for nine years and I pretty much under the current definition of midshit/lateshit and the older definition of youngshit when i trooned out (it was "under 25")never had the security nor the safety to consistently girlmode so I never girlmoded more than a month at a time before situation changes and then I need to HRTrep.seeing that i am probably never going to self-actualise because I never ever ever found a footing in life, do you think I should twinkcope and go cosplay twinks (as a cis male) instead of crossdressing or "crossplaying"? (I am 30 btw), don't suggest me to detroon, i can't bear the mental assault without hrt
>>44977642Hrt is awesomeSocial expectations are not
>>44977642it is nice in a way, for anxiety at least. i have been doing it for half a year now, with short hair and men's fashion. i hondmoded for 2 years prior to this and i dont want to completely die in public like i did then. i just don't know how im ever going to get into a relationship like this, having breasts and everything
>>44977678>>44977695sadly I don't live in the relative utopia that is the Global North western countriestried climbing the career ladder in hopes of getting transferred to a overseas branch so I can go via legal immigration but that option eventually failed.It was nice when I used to have the fire in my eyes, now it has been permanently extinguished.homophobic country with no future basically, but at least people aren't actively aware of trannies nor "cis man on hrt"https://www.reddit.com/r/indonesia/comments/1wwrlpu/a_delco_nurse_has_lived_legally_in_the_us_since/pdpt9gf/https://www.reddit.com/r/indonesia/comments/1wwrlpu/a_delco_nurse_has_lived_legally_in_the_us_since/pdq0cdc/https://www.cato.org/blog/why-legal-immigration-nearly-impossible
>>44977678>>44977695and I actually want to be read and perceived as a female, but clearly it seems like it won't be possible on this lifetime.
>>44977768>>44977808im sorry. i dont know how that is, i just know twinkmoding is an okay cope. i wont be able to get surgeries or anything like that i can barely get by. being an effeminate guy helps at least. i hope it can help you too if possible
>>44977642Lots of cis men on here have pussies or big tits, some of us even pass completely but we're too mentally ravaged to ever identify as women
>>44977964Desu perceived as a "soft spoken sensitive safe male" makes me die inside because in their mind i am perceived as a defanged ARAB (assigned rapist at birth) that continously have to take chemical castration drugs to prevent rapist thought relapse else I probably rape women with my mind's eye.
>>44978820these are not normal thoughts
>>44978832Perhaps the>that continously have to take chemical castration drugs to prevent rapist thought relapse else I probably rape women with my mind's eye.thought isnt exactly normal but the>in their mind i am perceived as a defanged ARAB (assigned rapist at birth)sure is a normal tranny thought that wants to be perceived as a woman and not some eunuch/"othered male"
