The thread formerly known as vent.What if edition. What does the future hold for you? Post a picture with your post if you have a good one.A thread to vent, have someone to talk to, commiserate, or just post into the void.A few things to remember:>If you think you know anon, but don't have decisive evidence, no, you probably don't.>We are all grieving in our own way. Please respect how people process their emotions.>Nobody here is your psychiatrist, therapist, doctor, or lawyer.Previous thread: >>44954328
>>45001620my future is looking so bleak. i wish i was born male. i wish society was more accepting of (or at least normal about) gender nonconformity and asexuality.im stuck living in a body i can at best tolerate with sexual organs that drive me suicidal if i think about them too much. i cant medically transition if i dont get diagnosed as transsexual, im too pussy to order t into this bumfuck euro country while living with family (and eventually with dormmates). it feels like my family views me as no more than a womb at times, constantly asking about getting grandchildren and the possibility of getting married. i cant stand the idea of getting pregnant, let alone being stuck in a marriage with some cishet chud. i wouldve killed myself a long time ago but a weird schizo prophetic dream about my suicide that i had makes me try holding on just a bit more.i dream of eventually finding proper community, or at least someone who would genuinely care and wouldnt use me, but everywhere i go i feel like a stranger. im too queer and weird for the cishets irl, im too geopolitically different for online lgbt spaces, im too asexual and probably aromantic for dating apps, im too much of a woke libtard for any politics circles, im too much of a "theyfab" for most here.
>>45002251you must feel so isolated, i hope there's something queer happening in your country that you feel comfortable with.
>>45002251What country?
i miss him SO MUCH it’s not fair it’s not fair it’s not fair how will i even survive
I can’t stop crying about how I’ve never had a boyfriend and how I’ve never had normal romantic experiences with men or been flirted with by men irl. It’s fucking miserable.
>>45002953do you pass? how long on hrt?
>>45001620i'm so tiredi want it to be overbut i can't kill myselfi don't want to do that to my dadhopefully when my mother dies she's next to me in hell if there's such a placeso she can watch what she did to me foreveri need a fucking therapist.
>>45002968Coming up on 8 years I don’t pass, people tell me I’m pretty but my lived experience is that that’s not the case based on how I’m treated by men. Men never approach me, flirt with me etc. nobody has ever bought me a drink while out. The men who like me on dating apps are all 6/10 at best. And then my friends all act like I’m the hottest woman alive and should have no problem getting men to like me.It’s miserable
>>45001620I hate that I was born male. I'll always be disposable and there's nothing I can do about it.
>>45003002>The men who like me on dating apps are all 6/10 at besti'm sorry but if you don't pass you probably can't expect to score any higher than that? a lot of passoids have to settle for that or even less
>>45003145I understand this conceptually but also I can’t be with someone who I’m not attracted to, like that just doesn’t work? You need to be attracted to your partner to have a good relationship with them!
>>45003157girl the rule of thumb is that people attract people that are basically on their level of attractiveness. if you're not very hot you can't reasonably expect to pull really hot guys. do i rly need to explain this to you? :/
>>45003183Logically this is how it is, but you can't help who you are attracted to. If brains made sense the world would look a lot differentNta
>>45003157you standards pass
>>45003189you might want to look into being less shallow. genderswap it and this would be like if danny devito demanded that only 9/10 models should be attracted to him
>>45001620I should have never looked into the abyss of gender crapI should have gooned abd thrown the tissueI am a fraudA fakeA xwris of a xerox of a xeroxI hate myself and that hatred mafe me thing I could love myself if I stole others valorIm so sorryI wish you live long and prosper
>>45003183Nah. Everyone has different standards of attraction and things they're attracted to. I pulled a literal objectively(like, by broad societal beauty standards) 11/10 drop dead gorgeous bombshell by just being my weird quirky self. She insists im beautiful but any sane person would know Im a 4/10 honbeast on a good day. There's apparently just something about the "tired middle aged tranny" look that drew her to me apparently?Make a pretty girl laugh and smile enough and you'll be the most beautiful thing in the world in her eyes.
>>45002863lithuanianot even like near the capital vilnius "annual pride parades and open queer communities" lithuania. but some random ass "<20k population everybody knows eachother" lithuanian town though
>>45003238I'm just playing devil's advocate, I personally don't think like this but I know that attraction isn't a logical thing eitherAlso Danny Devito has fucked loads of 9/10s so that's a bad example
>>45003183See that’s how I feel as well, but I think being a tranner makes that confusing as well. We have inherently lower value on the dating market.And then like, why do all my friends act like I’m insanely hot?I’ve also been on and off hooking up with this other tranner who I think is insanely hot and she also has trouble with dating men for similar reasons to me. >>45003238Okay first I’m not demanding anythingSecond it’s a fool’s errand to try and date someone you aren’t attracted to. It just can never work!! It’s not shallow to want to find your partner attractive.
>>45003300Also I posted in the soc rate thread if you want to see what I look like.
>>45003307I thought you pretty much always had people interested in you? Idk the old mtfg days are long gone so maybe it's been different recently
>>45003366Hihi it’s funny when people recognize me.I dunno, things are different these days. Other trans women have always been into me and still are. But men in the past were only really interested in me for sex, and now that I’m almost 30 all the attractive guys who want to fuck trannies can just fuck younger and hotter trannies. And I’ve never really had guys interested in me irl. I’ve only ever met them off dating apps, I’ve never been hit on or bought drinks or anything like that :c It’s a sad life sometimes
>>45003300>I’ve also been on and off hooking up with this other tranner who I think is insanely hot and she also has trouble with dating men for similar reasons to me.the uncomfortable truth here is that neither of you are probably very attractive. t4t is great for settling if you can deal with the cheating, competitive and catty nature of the relationship and poly stuff
>>45003473Let's both pretend we never saw each other so it's less sad we're still browsingI think most of the guys you're in to are probably fucking around still yeah or have settled down already. I hope you find someone soon though, you deserve that happiness
>>45001620I ought to have been forcefully aborted. i hate every aspect of my ugly retarded faggot life. I have nothing but purulent disdain for every aspect of my shitty hideous existence. The only way this could be worse is materially, but ontologically I doubt there has ever been a more odious being.
>>45003534LOL exactly our gen is too old to still be hereThank you though I appreciate it :3 I’m determined to find happiness even if it takes time >>45003528No she’s like genuinely really attractive! Like at least 7/10 if she were a cis woman
Back to hating being in my polyamorous arrangement because I'm not enough for one of my partners and the other has destroyed my perception of trust entirely, but I can't break up with either of them because I would rather kill myself than be alone (despite being the omela's child of our fucking relationship).
>>45001620future holds struggling more and more and never being allowed to have a loving relationship ever again
>>45003528i’m going to kill myself thank you for the motivation
starving myself because I want the last thing I eat to be the last meal we cooked together
bump
really drunk and vulnerable
>>45006410OwO
>>45006410Yea, me too.,,,
whenever i get a notification i always hope it's him. even after all this time.
>>45006410That'll probably be me later, desu
>>45006410>>45006438>>45006719Hey
>>45006723>preying on vulnerable people in VENTgen of all placesanon that's just low. are you indian or something
>>45006723>>45006421im ugly and old and my mouth stinks and i have sex with sketchy meni really want to get used again it makes me feel alive>>45006788an indian guy grabbed my ass once and i was into it desu
