>wake up>agamp thoughts>coom>they go away >”all done with those thoughts forever yep”>random trans related shit shows up on timeline on IG>”fuck it would be nice to look like that”>”could I really do that? I hope”>agamp thoughts back hard>coom to imagined agamp scenario, sometimes pirn>thoughts gone>back again for some reason>loopwhat even is there that I can do?
You should transition while not horny, your horny-self will thank you for it later.
>>45025219I used to do the same thing, so I got on HRT and then it killed my libido and all the urges went away. Now im just a girl
>>45025226If it goes how I want, absolutely. It seems like it will be peak pleasure.>>45025246Yeah I mean my libido is just so strong that it might be an quality of life improvement to have it lowered.
>>45025219>>45025226Horny is just a part of life. Cooming is like a drug that shuts your brain up for a moment, and then it all comes back. I experimented with nofap and dressing fem at home, even before i cracked. You actually need to go through all the mental shit instead of shutting it up. I'm on hrt rn and probably above average horny since prog, but i coom only like once per week or two at most.
>>45026221Did you have a similar background?
>>45026488I was into cd since childhood if that's what you mean.
>>45025219I need Hunter Schafer
>>45025219i kinda wish i was agp or agamp... my life is so boring i'm not rly hsts either i'm just a retard who needed boobs to not be dissociated 24/7
>>45027763And I thought I was alone
You can hide from your inner self when you're not horny, but when you are horny the real you has to come out in order to be exaggerated in the fantasy
>>45030409that is a genuinely scary thought
>>45030409:(
>>45025219>they go awayTrender
>>45031891I did not ask for this
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>>45025219if you're anything like me then the thoughts will eventually persist even when you're not horny and you just start getting really sad all the time instead>>45030409this is a very accurate way of looking at it. you're basically losing your inhibitions when you get horny and your real desires come to surface
>>45025219>>45025705>If it goes how I want, absolutely. It seems like it will be peak pleasure>libido is just so strong that it might be an quality of life improvement to have it loweredSounds like you got nothing to lose if you troon. If you end up low(er) libido, it's still an improvement and if your agp gets supercharged, it's also an improvement.I got to go through both and the shifts are wild.
>>45032285Huge no to the pants but a soft yes to everything else :-|>>45032443Oh no I’m kind of sad a lot now. >>45032821Seems asymmetrical in my favor then? I guess unless I end up super ugly.
>>45032934>unless I end up super ugly?% of it is luck. But a lot of it is effort and discipline. And money for surgeries. And mentality too.I never told myself I'm "really a woman" (because I'm not) and was very honest to the guys I dated that I did it for the fetish.Patience is essential too. Though that's helped in the first year on E because the horny goes way down and tempers your impatience.
>>45032959Yes I don’t think I’d ever tell myself that either. I kind of feel like I’d be how some of the Thai transwomen who claim ladyboy status are. I wouldn’t just tell that to the world but I would basically accept it as is.How did the guys take it? I feel like some might even like that a lot
>>45033712>How did the guys take it?Some were disgusted by it, but most either didn't care that much or found it very hot.If you're a normal adult otherwise, most men will assume you're some form of AGP anyway, but unlike in online discourse, people IRL don't think it's something bad.>feel like I’d be how some of the Thai transwomen who claim ladyboy status are. I wouldn’t just tell that to the world but I would basically accept it as isSadly, in Europe/North America, ladyboy isn't quite accepted. I wish it were, but it really isn't.Once I started passing even partially, most people preferred to call me Ms Nona and having the "actually I'm a ladyboy" convo got tiresome really fast. Even my bf's (now husband) parents preferred to address me in the feminine even though they always knew their son as gay and knew from day 1 that I'm not a woman.Eventually the friction got too much so now I'm legally Mrs. Anon (I took his name through marriage). He still needs to fuck the boy out of me regularly, tho.
>>45030409I think this is complete bullshit lmao your horny self is very far removed from the real you
>>45025219I went on hrt and it didnt kill my libido at all but it made me stop being ashamed of it
>>45034228To add to this I have AGP but I started talking to girls and I feel more like a man who wants to have a gf so this board is literally just full of shit
>>45034256only if you're pornbrained
>>45035026Wdym only if im pornbrained?
>>45035133The pornbrained brand of AGP is not true AGP. However you can be true AGP and be a coomer.
>>45034256>>45035739This. Dating girls as a man made no sense to me, always hated performative masculinity and having to follow scripts, and the lack of communication. Since hrt it's just chill.
>>45035739I basically have an attraction to just living as a woman and that is basically how far my AGP goes I never even get off on the idea of having sex as a woman I dont watch porn
>>45036070This gives me hope because dating girls as a guy genuinely is appealing for me and what people describe as dysphoria hasnt showed up yet even with the handful of dates I have ever been on
>>45036084I don't watch porn but I do imagine having sex as a woman. Living as one, too. Everything about being a woman is hot.
>>45036212I have the same fantasies minus the sex but its fine, I just saw with talking to actual girls and in my day to day life I want to be a man
>>45036108From what i hear, people who aren't really trans have a hard time with the hormones, it just messes them up. I take hrt and manmode (don't have the looks not to), but i've still liked all the effects it's given me. Except for the whole safety thing.
>>45037707Well good thing I wont even get to the HRT then
>>45025219>I want to be a hot girl, or at least a passable one i'm not picky>hmm maybe I should coom in case it's just horny>coom>I still want to be a girlNo I dont think it's that but idk
>>45025219You have gender dysphoria
>>45036070Any success I ever had dating as a guy just seemed to serendipitously fall into place. It happened more often than not but every time I’d eventually lose interest. I think being horny was doing the heavy lifting.>>45036212In my experience imagination works way better than porn.>>45038222I just feel like I’ve been told this is a fetish and transition is a mistake >>45038495:-|
>>45040390>In my experience imagination works way better than porn.I always had "specific" taste in porn, not exactly what an average guy would be into. Spotted the fakeness right away, and when the woman wasn't into it. 1yr into hrt discovered f4f audio scripts and holy fuck. First time had a literal flood, didn't even know it was possible.
>>45041122I never watched regular straight porn. At no point in my life did it work for me. It was trans porn sometimes but most of the time imagination. I was and still am someone who enjoys solitude.
>>45040390>this is a fetishIt is. Nothing wrong with that though.>and transition is a mistakeMay or may not be a mistake. That's the part that sucks. One can't really know until one tries.
