i dont even know what is happening. my gf (transf) & i (cisf) have been constantly fighting and shit for what feels like weeks. Im really depressed and try to not make that her problem, but then she'll pry and try to help even though its unhelpable. this started after i had a huge tantrum over how i'll never be a man and how much i hate being a woman, and now she exclusively refers to me with masculine terms and calls me a shortened masculine version of my nickname. I don't know why shes doing this and I've tried talking to her about it, but she says she doesnt even realize shes doing it and that im clearly still depressed and hung up over something. I know I'll never be a man and im trying to accept that, but her constantly masculinizing me and threatening to buy me a binder makes that difficult. I know she thinks shes helping, but I seriously cannot be a trans guy and I know I'll never be the man i wanted to be even if i was. I dont want her to feel bad i know shes just trying to help but she doesnt realize shes a youngshit passoid whos hrt was funded by the government when she was 14 while im almost 20 now
>>45037943>almost 2019 is practically youngshit for ftmsyou could make it if you wanted toim not saying you need to transition or whatever, only you can decide that, but know that you totally could right now and you would live a happy and fulfilling life as a man
>>45037993ive got irish and hispanic heritage and considering that with my bone structure its already permanently set and far too curvaceous for me to ever pass as a man. My midface is also incredibly short and my tits are bigger than my head. i have to accept that because of those things and financial instability im ngmi and i need to accept and be okay with who i am
>>45038024We really need to figure out brain transplants there are so many people here with bodies youd kill for and theyd kill for yours imagine if you could just switch bodies
>>45037943you know he/him lesbians have been a thing for a long time right? just embrace it and be like one of those studs
>>45038024OP is literally me holy shit.
>>45038149i thought i was a he/him lesbian for a while i was fine being like. a gendefuck loser but its like in the last year and a half my brain has developed and ive realized im probably just a bisexual trans guy. Not that i'll ever actually be that but in my head lol
>>45037943take your HRT, retard
>>45038122yeah i try to remind myself that most women would kill for my build (excluding my face) and that transitioning would be getting rid of a good thing for everyone. like me transitioning would be the equivalent of making a beautiful cake and flaunting it to everyone before smashing it on the ground and serving everyone a walmart sheet cake instead
>>45038406If you're committed to repping just do what I do and larp in your head as a man piloting a woman's body like it's some kind of Freaky Friday scenario. It sounds insane but it keeps me from laying down in traffic.
>>45037943HOW TALL ARE YOU?
>>45038445im 5'7-5'8
>>45038450POON OUT.
>>45038024Why are ftms always built like a paleolithic venus idol
>>45038473height isnt the only thing that helps someone pass & this is considered very short for a man lol
>>45038537oof
>>45038537height is the most important thing for men by far, and it isn't very short, it's just short, but okayish
>>45037943please try testosterone at least for a bitan angel cries whenever there's a situation like this w a romance between a tranny and a repper and the repper doesn't hope
>>45038414That’s kind of how I feel about having been a muscular, broad shouldered, square jawed, just the right amount of chest hair, lean mean fighting machine Chad in my youth and now in my 30s I’m this smooth soft squishy in between man-woman thing that hides under sweatshirts (manmoder). I was a handsome young man. But too autistic and traumatized to make any use of it. She’s taken it back but in moments of anger my (cisf) gf has said I was blessed and wasted it
>>45038913the 'handsome'est cis man doesnt even begin to compare to the most ogreish manmoder i wouldnt worry about it. at least youre actually taking steps to become who you want to be instead of completely repping like me. as for your gf i'd beat her ass for that holy shit
>>45037943You could just take testosterone while still calling yourself a woman? That's definitely a thing, especially for lesbians. Then if you get giga lucky you can always transition later
