I can't voicetrain because I stutter and slur. My face still looks unquestionably male even after FFS. I haven't worked out my upperbody in years but my lats and traps are just as prominent as they always have been. I'm so psychically fucked that I can't even form a sentence when I talk to somebody who actively chooses to talk to me. I can barely talk to people on this board anonymously about things that I personally have experience with. I can't even manage to order from a fucking McDonald's without freaking out and crying. I want to get out and be normal. I want to talk to people and have life experiences, but I've been exiled like a leper.
