>>45113084
theres not much i can do but listen but im happy to if itd help. also a depressed failure who knew young but repped, ended up transitioning tho. i know youre not in a good position to but I couldnt imagine not doing it now. I havent gone to college but will be in jan and if i cant do it its over. I know its weird but maybe we could try to get through it together

>>45113084
you arent a manmoder if you arent on hrt

>>45113140
thank you for this, we can try to get through this together
i’ll try not to kill myself yet
fate will tell
>>45113152
fuck you, i know i’m a reptard, but i’m not going to call myself a moid - it’s not like i have a choice

>>45113254
hey, of course, i feel for you. im sorry anon. if you want, and absolutely no pressure, you can add me @ throwaway.disc for now. trying is all we can do

>>45113152
thank you i hate ppl who call themselves boymoders/manmoders despite not being on hrt
>>45113254
ur a man please stop making this worse for yourself

>>45113084
I was in your situation a number of years ago except I wasn’t a twink. My advice is to firstly do everything you can to not get kicked out if college. Talk to your advisors and stuff. You have to do this it is very important. In most cases it takes more than 1 failed semester to be fully kicked out of a college. You are a customer, after all.
After that, obtain diy. If you have to move in with your parents, hide things well and deny everything.

It’s easy to tell yourself that you’ll just kill yourself, but it’s hard to actually do it. People fundamentally do not want to die, even if they feel that they have no other choice.

“I’m going to kill myself anyways, so why bother?” quickly turns into years or decades wasted. Then you’ll be even more of a failure, even more masculine, even more suicidal, with even fewer options. That’s what happened to me at least. Never rep

fuck it iwnbaw
i’ll never live a fulfilling life, why bother
i’m a man and an insult to precious fragile real womxyn
i probably won’t live to see 20, sucks

>>45113387
Yeah actually this makes a lot of sense

>>45113387
Thanks nona, you might have saved my life
I’m on scholarship+financial aid so doing poorly can mean failing out, but I can talk to people and hope they listen
DIY is something I have wanted for a long time, but I’m living with Nazi parents that do room inspections; failing out would nuke my chances of moving out ever
I hope you get better someday, people like you don’t deserve to be hons

>>45113387
>>45113440
>After that, obtain diy. If you have to move in with your parents, hide things well and deny everything.
>I’m living with Nazi parents that do room inspections
your college very likely has resources for queer students, you may be able to get your HRT and injection supplies sent somewhere other than home. if you can store them on campus and do your injections there, there will be no evidence for your parents to find at home.

>>45113473
They’re like really sneedy though
will look into it
also hitlerite parents already know i’m a troon b/c I trusted a sneed when I was 12, and are already paranoid, but it’s a start

Hey nona, I'm in my senior year of college. I can't do much to help proper, but here's a temporary email address if you want to talk: naligi6694@playfine.com

>>45113823
How long is this valid for? Thanks btw

>>45113309
>>45113896
same here

oh and a note on picrel:
one of my lifelong dreams has been to (not a weeb) move to Japan as a woman… and i’m already 5’11”.
isn’t really relevant but it’s there so yea
also picrel is fetishized to all shit but it’s 4chan

get on hrt ASAP ASAP ASAP oh my god the test is RAPING your body as we speak

>>45113896
Until I deactivate the account; if you send me something I can give you my number / real email and suchlike.

>>45114634
fuck I know but my home, finances, and transportation are all currently controlled by paranoid Nazi parents
I’m sort of working on it i guess, i hope it’s not too late to make it

I know it's really fucking hard but don't kill yourself OP. If your parents control everything find any way to get hrt you possibly can. I was in the same situation, tried to troon out many times but was always blocked by parents getting called a disgusting crossdresser and a sexual freak. Knew since my earliest memories that I was a girl but never allowed to troon. At the age of 22 I told my parents that I would kill myself if I didn't transition and was finally on hrt. If you really can't get hrt secretly try what i did and show them how close you are to killing yourself and even tell them you'll do it infront of them. If your parents care about you are all they'll let you troon, but then again maga cucks are retards

>>45117382
Thanks nona
I live in the Disjoined Reich of Trumpistan, so they would get me Baker-acted and forced on exogenous testosterone if I threatened, but I’ll keep in mind
If I don’t fail out of college I’ll probably be out within ten or so months, and I could probably get away with it for that long, but if I get kicked out of my program everything goes up in flames
They tell me that they’re concerned for me, and have been nonstop harassing me about my slipping grades, but are willfully ignorant and disgusted by the thought of letting me troon even though they have talked to my therapist - it’s the usual ‘anti-woke’ constructive runaround

>>45117503
I know it's not possible for everyone but are you physically able to get a job? Maybe you could try get a shitty job while at college save up some money then be able to live by yourself away from your parents after you finish. I know working a wagesslave job is not fun but if it let's you live by yourself and get hrt your life will be infinitely better. That is what I did beacuse even after 'letting' me get on hrt my family were incrediblyabusive, and even though I'm living in a shithole boarding house I can at least be me.

>>45117093
>fuck I know but my home, finances, and transportation are all currently controlled by paranoid Nazi parents
for buying hrt you could just get an amazon giftcard and trade it for crypto, maybe you could keep the vial on you or smth? and theres like needle exchange points depending on where you live maybe idrk

>>45117628
the only thing I will say about this is that I’m <19
>>45117641
Interesting idea, I’m in the confederate south so no needle exchanges but I might be able to work something out