ive never had sex.am i really supposed to mimic the enemy now. and become infertile in the process, as if anyway.am i really that ugly as a man.it's nothing i had any control over.what the hell is up with modern women?i've lost attraction to them. my libido is half dead.a depressed anger.cruelty on top of cruelty.the cruelty of rng dumping me in the wrong, obsolete, hated, mismatched gender.and the cruelty of the opposite gender.and the cruelty of balding.whats the use in being intimidating and large if a gun or three guys with a knife could be enough to beat me.and besides, i can't even bare to stab myself with a needle. the idea and the sensation of sliding it in my flesh is repulsive, and forcefully inputting viscuous liquid in it is even more so.i just wanted to have a family of my own.
>>45113299do your shots and go fuck some random guy/girl off discord ts not that serious
>>45113323are you insane.
>>45113333i dont think so
>>45113341if you are willing to check, you may observe that the quads agree with me.
>>45113352im gonna touch u
>>45113299Dang. Yeah. You can't just "turn off" what you saw living as a man. You can, of course, just transition and lump all those thoughts of misandry as just you envying women and now when you experience the same treatment you get to have the same with a mysogynistic flavor so you can pretend it never even happened.I haven't had sex either. And what used to be an obsession with feminization and femdom and pegging and humiliation that gradually turned into resentment and sadness. I realized slowly, over almost decades, that I just envy women. I want to feel that way with someone and then still be normal and have a family. It's sexual, but it's also more than that. But, I am, in fact, male. I usually don't care, because I'm in my mid 20s and can still put the issue of getting a family and actually living life off for later. And I know that later will never come. I'll, at this rate, never get a gf or career and be able to foster my male identity and prove to the world and myself that I belong somewhere. And I'll never truly have the kind of intimacy I desire either way. I see it this way: yes, I'm a guy. Yes, I'm masculine. But to the rocks, bricks, and roads, I am feminine. To the mountains, the rain, the cold, and the heat, I am feminine. To death, I am feminine. To my life and my job, I am the one who has to go through it and feel it. I can indeed attain belonging, even if I'm not really there and am just pretending about who I am. Even though I'm male, my body is still just as human.I just really hate sex. I just gotta figure out how to get past it when I finally get my ducks in order.I intend to never troon out. That person not who I've put all my investment into. There's more of me in my male persona than there ever could be in my genuine person.>>45113333>are you insane.Affirmative. They are. Sex is not a casual matter.
>>45113611cute post anon. thank you.
