> almost no signs of being feminine in childhood> some maybe signs of dysphoria in childhood/past> severe agp> masturbate exclusively to feminization and other degenerate stuff since 14> fall for the bait> troon out at 23> convince myself I have dysphoria sometimes> did i take my fetish too far?I'm 1y into HRT and idk, I like my body more, but I feel like HRT might've made me more miserable than before. Everyone gets that "I couldn't cry before hrt, because I had derealization", but that didn't happen to me. I could cry before hrt easily and cry easily after HRT.How do I figure myself out? It was cool in the first couple of months, then I also realized that I don't look like a woman. Then I started boyfailing more and more and now I'm really scared that I only pass to normies and any other person can tell I'm a tranny. I feel this constant hum of discomfort and feel like something is stuck in my gut, my guess is that it could be actual reverse dysphoria or internalized transphobia, idk which tho...
I just feel good about incremental progress. Which i do get. However slowly.
