Crazy how being into feminization the second i developed any kind of sexuality fucked my brain over to the point that i actually thought i was a tranny and trooned out years later.And yet the eternal uncertainty persists and i still feel like ass daily. Weirdly tho i also think id felt as shit rn if i hadnt trooned out. But still, if i was a real tranny i feel like id either feel worse about still not looking all that female after a year on hrt, or id feel happier about the hrt changes i got.Instead i only get very minor and occasional bouts of happiness about it and maybe no dysphoria at all. The only constant is me freaking out over being a faketranny and that ill turn out to have just been cis and had no reason to do any of this. Esp scared of eventually just having turned myself into a weird moid with ugly conetits :/.On the other hand i dont think i have developed any strong "reverse" dysphoria either.It sucks being a non person that just saw the literal transitions into happier and better ppl trannies seem to get and somehow thought this might be it for me too. Im just trying to skin walk real trannies to be able to pretend im a real person and not a lifeless husk.
how long hrt
this is like the sixth “im a tranny but i dont feeeel like a tranny” thread in a couple days
oh>a yearfucking babytrans
>>45117522im lowk thinking it's the cruelty guy spamming the board. if it's not weird schizo shit it's the cats
>>45117522Most of those are me>>45117510I feel the same opI will die like this becayse as a kid I watched an episode of Disney Aladin where the princess turn Aladin into a snake man and they fucked or something abd it ruined my life ever sinceIt was either that or some other proto-furry, thinly disguised fetish animation.I know Im faketrans abd every time I detransition i end up back on becayse Im scared of losing my hair and growing more ugly as I age after ruinning my entocrine systemI also have so much shit to regret. So many things I did wrong tgat I cannot fixSo many things thst will end up killing me. Abd yet i wi have no release on the matter Only death will save me
>>45117510Why can’t you kids understand. There’s a level of commitment. I’ve been doing this for 10+ years at this point. Sure you can go back, you can quit etc, but at some point you just commit to the decision.Whether I’m trans or not no longer matters, I chose to do the sex change now I play this game as a woman, for better or worse. No save scumming, just commitment
>>45117640It sounds to me like you’re overly concerned with some abstract moralfaggot notion of being legitimate. If you really want to avoid masculinization and don’t mind feminization then just stick with that and quit fixating on this ghost of the mind.
>>45117810If you say that that means I should endure the masculinisation abd detroon foreverI shouldI just mske copes are reasons to seem normalIm not. Im tricking you and myself. Im just a fetishists who watched too much porn and sissy hypno and shitI hate myselfMisery
>>45117510>Crazy how being into feminization the second i developed any kind of sexuality fucked my brain over to the point that i actually thought i was a tranny and trooned out years later.This is a cope, tranny.
>>45117875By stick with that I mean stick with the thing that doesn’t make you miserable or even gets you off. Why does it matter so much whether it’s a fetish?
>>45117909It does matterNo real woman transitions for a fetish
>>45118012And why does being real matter more than your desire to not masculinize?
>>45118052It matters more to be real than to live a lie
>>45117522usually that could be me, but i actually held off for a few weeks now so yeah not me.>>45117525ok atp what even isnt babytrans anymore. also this doesnt really help u want me to grow more boobs before i decide to detrans or what?>>45117558Nah im not the cruelty squad girl.>>45117676Ig, but like how do i know if its the right idea to commit to or not.>>45117894I just needed some kinda bombastic statement to open the post :P. I dont actually fully believe that, i just do sometimes to increase my self hat.
>>45117510what makes me laugh is realising that even the successful trannies, the ones im envious of, still arent seen as women by normal people are are chronically single and also get misgendered. you cant win.
>>45117510You're just trans. I'm sorry
