I really don’t want to transition, as I feel I will result looking like a monstrosity but to know that I can do so is taking a toll on me. I like my privilege, my family, my girlfriend, my friends, in a summary, I like my status quo; to transition is to lose all that I have in hopes my mental state can get better, but is just an unfounded hope, that in most cases, without astounding amounts of wealth, it cannon be sustained in ground levelled mind.If I were to be schizophrenic or have religious paranoia I would think my spirit has been kidnapped by an eldritch being and my thought were being flooded by unnatural and unholy ideas, that would end on my demise.However is am neither of the aforementioned, the only to blame for these thoughts is myself, and I not know what to do right now. I know that to repress is to die but in a uglier and more slow way, but to transitions is to subject myself to public desecration and to become a pariah of society as whole.
>>45120772>I like my status quoThen what are you doing on 4chan ? Shouldn't you be on Tiktok or Instagram right now?
then manmode. or... you know
>>45120772are you under the age of 22 ? If so, you’ll be fine
>>45120898I turn 22 in a month what do
>>45121041>>45120884
>>45121051Ive been drunk the past 3 days and peed blood at one point i think im good for now.
>>45120804Because people here are at least, more grounded in reality than the people in reddit and twitter. Instagram and Tiktok only value trans people as long as they are physically desirable, so if you are not as rich or lucky, they will despise your existence.>>45120898I am turning 21 next year, my fear to take action comes from the fact that if my family knows I am transitioning I will cause a schism, and I wouldnt be able to finish my degree
>>45120772yeah
>>45121088they won't notice if you boymode, people are shockingly imperceptive
>>45121088Seconding this >>45121155Been on estrogen for 2 years, started laser hair removal, and have b cups and my family refuses to notice. Hell, I've even had my grandma explicitly touch my bra while hugging me and she didn't even think about it. I'm not a case of "estrogen doesn't do anything" either, the average person just doesn't pay attention to shit. Live your life, you'll regret it if you don't
>>45120772>>45121088hrtrep till you finish your degree.get on duta yesterday.bring up the topic to your gf ("as a joke"; "as a fetish" - whatever works) and see how she views things. you might end up pleasantly surprised.>to transition is to lose all that I haveyou might actually be wrong at least in part on that.
>>45121404I am already on duta and minoxidil, but I am trying to lose weight before I start taking e (if I start) to make the weight cycles necessary for fat redistribution.Also I have already talked with my girlfriend in January about this, and it went catastrophically wrong. Her ex boyfriend was a trans man without hrt, and I thought she would be a lot more accepting, however she told me, in summary, that she didn't want to be with a non passing trans women, that she didnt signed for this, and that at least her ex looked like a man before being with her.I dont want to lose her, but I also want to be myslef more fully even if it is only for myself to see.
>>45121505dumbass if you start e then lose weight it makes fat redistro way easier
>>45121064For the love of god moidman the repping is going to fucking kill you. Just get on hrt already I'm begging you.
