Can't do this anymore. Im going to finally end it. It's been a life of disrespect and pain. Im sorry for those I've hurt in my life and I hope they're sorry to me. I've tried for a long time and can't do this anymore. I just need to feel warm again and I never will. I just needed a family or anyone who actually cared. There's no hope of that happening.
why this picrel
>>45122564he is going to cyberspace
>>45122599I have no pictures
>>45122417Don't give up. Don't kill yourself. Consider moving; a change of scenery.
you're welcome
>>45122758I am a man. I always wanted to just be me. All of this is wrong. Its just a way of tricking people into hurting themselves
>>45122417hell isn't warm it's cold
>>45122417if I'm still alive as a repper then you have no excuse, my existence probably sucks more than yours and I'm still not allowed to diestop being a bitch and just get drunk or something that's what I do when I want to die
>>45122863booze is bad and addictive.
>>45122894boo hoo nigga who cares
>>45122904do something you love
>>45122911I love drinking
>>45122918you're scum
>>45122942I know?
>>45122958
>>45122863I can pretty much guarantee my life is worse and less fair.
>>45123025I can pretty much guarantee you're wrongso stop being a pussy and deal with it, I'm not going to feel bad for you
do you really think you can compete with that repchad who burned his ass alive?just give up and live already
>>45123041Idk I think I'm probably one of the first people to be so thoroughly destroyed and humiliated. I was literally force femmed and then brain raped. Im being constantly tortured. Repping seems better than that. I should never have transitioned. I wanted to make what happened to me something good somehow and I fucked it all up.
>>45123141That seems like a hard way to go. I need to find painkillers. Morphine or something. Then I could. Idk though it's pretty inacessable and horrible. I've cried for help and gotten none really. None that would make my life like everyone else's. Admittedly I shouldn't have transitioned because then all the help went nowhere but hey I was deceived. I trusted people because I thought sex was sacred.
>>45123273Brain rape isn't real, you sound like you're overdramatizing having esex on discord or whatever. If you actually want to be a man you could just roid out easily, you're way less locked into being a tranny than I am into being a man. Quit the pity party>>45123290Even now you just continue begging for attention, it's irritatingif you want attention so bad and are within within a state of north carolina I'll drunk drive to you right now to give you gas station beer and physically beat you with spiteful moidrage if you want, serious offer
>>45123371You have no idea what you're talking about. I was conditioned drugged and violated. They destroyed who I was. They ruined my life and my mind and my personality. They gave me brain damage.
>>45123436How would I? All your posts are incoherent nonsense. You probably weren't anything special before and you aren't anything special now, join the fucking club. If someone actually drugged and raped you then man up and go kill them or something. Brain damage makes you more capable of doing that not less. Do you just want to feel like a victim? I wish I had someone else I could blame for my life but even I'm not that stupid.
>>45123484I was special. I was a genius. All tested and everything. Who knows what I am now. My life is ruined. I told everyone I was going to do it and I should. I can't live in a world where it's just this forever. I can't deal with lies. I can't deal with the loneliness and the homelessness.
>>45123522Sorry hopelessness, not homeless at least. Just familyless.
>>45123522You just sound narcissistic about how much you were worth and you think transitioning caused it when in actuality you arent special and never were. Being tested doesnt prove you're a genius, doing something extraordinary does.
>>45123522Yeah every other little nerd is a special genius, my mommy told me that too. Who gives a shit what you told everyone, isn't everyone around you an evil brain rapist? Lie to them who gives a shit, you could sneak them easier if they believe you. I'm alone and have zero hope for a future where I'll happy but I deal with it because that's what you do.>>45123534Wow I almost thought you had a real issue worth me feeling slightly bad for you over for a secondLots of people have shitty families, it's just less restraint on you
>>45123537No I think decades of my community abuse and deliberately brain damaging me caused both my life being horrible and me to transition.
>>45123567Actually when you're growing up in situation of extreme abuse you have a lot of restrictions. And yeah a lot of the people who abused me were people I was supposed to trust.
>>45123634So get rid of them and trust nobody
>>45123644Yeah, my life is hell. It's constant torture and loneliness. Thanks for the tip to continue being alone besides the people hurting me.
>>45122417Getting this back on track can someone please tell me how to kill myself quickly and with minimal pain?
>>45123769If ye wanted to kill yerself the method would likely not matter and ye'd do it regardless. Go take a nap or a walk Nona. Then decide if you wanna jump off a bridge or summ.
>>45123735So is mine, big deal. I'm a grown ass man so who gives a shit. Why would you make an exception specifically for the people hurting you, are you unaware of how utterly retarded this sounds?
>>45123769Just have a drink and go to sleep alreadyMy offer from before still stands but it's getting late
>>45123801Because the only people I can interact with hurt me all the time. Obviously.
>>45123831No I want actual methods I can do with what I currently have please. Or something easily obtainable for under 50 dollars.
>>45123837So don't interact with them? What the fuck are you expecting exactly?>>45123841I didn't offer to murder you. I would only murder the person who forced me to be a repper and regrettably I am not powerful enough to kill the demiurge yet.
>>45123841OP, how long have you known youve wanted to end your life?
>>45122863you are allowed to die. i give you permission. encouragement, even.
>>45123860You're deliberately trying to upset me. That's a pretty evil thing to do to a suicidal person
>>45124057Since they ruined my life
>>45124095I fucking wish>>45124142THAT WAS REAL ADVICE, but you know what fuck you. If a basic statement of extremely obvious fact upsets you then maybe you deserve to be upset. Do you want me to pat you on the ass and say you're so 'heckin valid for wanting to bitch out? I wanna blow my head off every single night. You're pathetic, you don't deserve death.
>>45124150im so confused over your story. did you drop lore in a previous thread that im missing out on?what i understand is: you are being digitally stalked by people online who want you to commit suicide (>>45123308), and they made you troon out and "brain raped" you? i feel like you should just take a break from the internet and not interact with these people. get law enforcement involved if theyre making threats or whatever.
>>45124254Presumably law enforcement is involved.
