>hook up with a 6'9" giant because of daddy issues >agreed to just do oral because getting ass fucked scares me>giant suddenly mounts me and I'm being ass fucked>was too scared to tell him to stop so just let it happen>he cums in me>next few days my asshole literally feels like it's leaking, I am disgusted by myself and feel emasculated>have to spend hundreds on pep so I don't get aids>nearly pass out at pharmacy because of all the stress and lack of eating/sleepingThis is it then? I get a bad roll and end up a faggot so now I have to deal with this shit? I don't want to pretend like this is what I'm suppose to be anymore. I know this shit is fucked but I can't make my brain stop. I'm just going to stick with fictional men from now on. I'll probably end up being one of those guys who marry a fictional character. As I watch my straight friends get married and live normal lives, I'm stuck like this.
>>45125928anon you got raped.
>>45125928Anon please go get therapy and file a police report
>>45125936I wasn't raped, I could've told him to stop if I wanted to but I was a pussy and just let it happen. I've done it with other guys who tried it before, but I was a bitch this time. It's entirely my fault.
>>45125970Thats still rape anon
>>45125928Your thinking about it too much like gay thing bad gay bad and beating yourself up over that when in reality it's just the danger that comes from hooking up like that, the hooking up is the what carries that risk, but don't just go the internalized homophobia route because your literally just gonna make yourself feel worse about it, I'm sorry you had to experience that but do try to have a more positive outlook toward yourself
>>45125970that's literally rape first please stop blaming yourself and second see if you can talk to someone about it
>>45125976How? I let it happen, I could've told him to stop at anytime. The guy took it slow and I didn't resist in any way. If I had just set a firm boundary before we met it would've never happened. I just told him I "typically stick with oral," not that I never do anal stuff.
>>45125998Ok what reply do you want people to have in response to the situation you experienced here. Is the goal you wanna be like degraded/insulted about it and don't wanna say it, because literally otherwise the situation was still rape as in that you didn't consent to what was done to you(rape)(like that's just literally what it is my guy idk) you can even go to a clinic/hospital and have a rape kit done and choose not to like disclose their identity or press charges if it makes you feel safer they can just make sure your body is physically ok inside and out
>>45125977>Your thinking about it too much like gay thing bad gay bad and beating yourself up over that when in reality it's just the danger that comes from hooking up like thatYeah you can get STDs from hooking up with the opposite sex too but gay sex is uniquely dangerous and risky. My asshole literally feels torn and I was disgustingly sick yesterday. My body is giving me every indication that this is something I shouldn't be doing. I know I shouldn't be a fag but I can't stop it.
>>45125970This person is right op>>45125987This is the classic silence does not equal yes. I'm sorry this happened to you
>>45126022I honestly didn't expect anyone to call it "rape" I just wanted to vent about how I've been told being a fag is normal all my life yet this is what it's actually like. I don't care that he fucked me in the ass, I care about the fact I let it happen. Its only relevance is that I had never done anal sex before and so I had never dealt with the consequences of it. Having to go through the public humiliation ritual of buying pep so I don't get aids, feeling completely emasculated and pathetic, that's what I actually care about.
>>45125928I mean, being gay isn’t normal, but what you experienced is a normal part of having sex with men yes.Women experience the same shit daily. Just replace AIDS scare with pregnancy scare and it’s the same thing.Why do you think women hate men so much?
>>45126029Genuinely you need to rid yourself of whatever christian guilt you carry. Also file a police report and see a therapist.
Again your doing the thing where your turning it into about being gay vs just that you can make better and safer decisions about how to engage in intimacy with other people.... You can literally have gay sex in safer ways and you deserve to be able to have that safe peace of mind with who you are intimate with, not all gay sex = YOUR GONNA DIE YOU JUST GOT GIGA EBOLA AIDS CORONA VIRUS19 HANTAVIRUS *explodes*Not saying you have to have gay sex either or straight sex or likeJust fucking do whatever, just know there's always safe ways to do things if you choose to go about it the safe way and with people you trust
>>45125928Frigid bitch
>>45126111What did he mean by this
>>45126085Well, it was rape, yeah. That doesn’t mean that being attracted to men is bad or wrong. It just means that a lot of men unfortunately turn out to be rapists. Women get raped too y’know. It’s not a problem that’s exclusive to gays.You can work to mitigate the risk by getting to know someone first and assessing whether they’re trustworthy or not, instead of doing random hookups.
>>45125928this isnt a symptom of faggotry its a symptom of hooking up, dont do that
>>45125928You can like be gay and not hate yourself for what happened to you op, pls at least go to a clinic and possible therapy and just be more careful about these interactions
>>45126092>Genuinely you need to rid yourself of whatever christian guilt you carry. Also file a police report and see a therapist.I'm not christian, my family was never religious and were okay with me being gay. Being a fag is still disgusting completely devoid of religion. And I do have a therapist, but there's no way I'm going to tell her about this.
>>45126218>I do have a therapist, but there's no way I'm going to tell her about thisWhy
>>45126218Is this just fetish posting?
>>45126270At this point probably>Taking no advice>Insisting on gay=disgustingChud or fetish posting call it
>>45126241Because it'd be extremely humiliating to do so. That's why I'm posting about it anonymously online instead.
>>45126285>Taking no adviceBecause the advice is completely unrelated to my main point. I don't plan to file a police report or take a rape kit because I wasn't raped. I need people to tell me how this is suppose to be normal or somehow make me not attracted to other men
>>45126431Do you really think that this will be the first time that therapist has gone through this shit with someone?Do you feel like your therapist is not trained to be completely understanding and non judgmental? You literally pay them to be that. That's what they are there for.
>>45125928You ain't gon get no marriage n "normal life" n shiet if you be fuckin dem niggas off da streets n apps cuh. They be some diddy bluds out dere fosho, not just fo battimans but dem straighties too mane. But gawdam dem normie fags n dem "community" aint nuttin but sex n dat fetish shiet mane. Yo be best doing sum hobby you like n shiet like dat, den you might gon meet some real nigga dat click witchu type shit.
>>45125928He broke you in good did he cumhard inside?
>>45126085You are letting your shame get in the way of sticking up for yourself and GETTING HELP. he was not nice to you, or else you wouldn't feel torn and in pain. You CLEARLY did not want anal nor were you prepared for anal. Anal takes time to train and prepare for. Stop blaming yourself and go get a rape kit so they can see if you are alright (make sure nothing is torn, actually check for all stds). You sound downright traumatized by this so you'll still need to get the same kind of help mentally as well.you know you need to talk to someone or you wouldn't be here.
>>45126445What you went through isnt normal because you got rapedMost people would've warmed up to anal firstThere probably would've been boundariesProbably would've used a condom so you wouldn't have to worry about AIDs as muchMaybe take PrEP firstMaybe get an STD panel firstThey wouldve done safe sex shit first
>>45126445>I wasn't rapedWhatever helps u sleep better bro
>>45126445I don't think anyone deserves to tell you why it's normal or not anyways considering you are the one that decided to do this lol, like literally just bait thread atp
>>45126085Trannies are trying to push feminist drivel onto gays, but it just doesn't work.
Like very genuinely op it seems like no answer is going to satisfy you here, sorry you got raped, are taking it out on yourself
>>45126085>I don't care that he fucked me in the ass
