>be me>have always been attracted to women>at 16 i come to the realization that i want to be a woman, but i didnt really know about trans people and transitioning was not even something i considered for a moment>by coincidence a friend starts trooning out when im 18, offers to get me estrogen>"ill never transition because im a 6'1 heighthon and passing is impossible for me but sure i want the effects of estrogen and i dont want to age as a man so ill hrtrep for the rest of my life ig">i start occasionally passing and it feels wrong and like im pretending to be someone im not>i get introduced to lesbians and more trans people in my muslim hell hole, they call me by a name i randomly chose and it feels wrong, im just pretending and putting up a facade in front of them, im secretly not trans im a man who wants to be a woman. the lesbians dont even see me as a woman theyre just nice enough to treat me like one of them, only the sneeds actually treat me like one which feels horrible>i hate being a man but i dont feel i am a woman>my attraction to women and watching porn makes me want to rope but i still get horny>extreme apathy, i feel nothing for others and am incapable of loving them, even if they love me>cant process emotions or put them down on paper (im sure you can tell)>doesnt know anything, is always confused>cant think about the future or consider long term effects before making life altering decisions>makes random post on website in hopes of being able to organize thoughts and conveying felt misery but fails horrendously what can i even do to be able to exist with myself? or is roping the only solution for me? what am i, am i what they call an agp man? i dont think the term describes me because ive never fantasized about *myself* being a woman (i dont even have a conception or mental image of what thatd look like) but i dont know.also how do i casterate myself so i have literally zero libido? t is already nuked
>>45128475>what can i even do to be able to exist with myself? or is roping the only solution for me? what am i, am i what they call an agp man?don't rope, just don't, it will get better. also maybe go to therapy it might help you>also how do i casterate myself so i have literally zero libido?orchi
>>45128570thank you nona getting an orchi will be the first thing i do once im out of this country. unfortunately no money for therapy but ai suffices
>>45128871np senpai you're gmi i believe in ya
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