>me be, mtf>17 1/2, 6’3”, 136lb>have severe ptsd from my parents beating my ass and breaking my shit all the time cuz they are alcoholics>develop severe weed addiction to cope>still perform alright in AP classes in high school and work both full days on weekends at two separate jobs>parents still call me lazy for some reason>parents voted for Trump 3 times>in Vermont>knew I was trans but thought there was no shot there would be any acceptance so I just stfu cuz they already hated me as a “boy”>finally work up the courage to tell them because if they said no I’d just diy cuz I’m on the brink of 41%ing>they let me start e >yippee I can get cucked by planned parenthood>mfw ptsd has my nervous system and digestive system so fucked I retain no fat at all whatsoever, I’m tired and flinching at random shit all the time unless I smoked the fuck out of a cart, and i’m a heighthon so I have to somehow fix my nervous system before e can do its mythical & fancy fat redistribution >fuck me
height isnt really the biggest issue. there's several models who are tall and still beautiful. i cant tell tho, have u started E or not yet?
>>451305616 dayson Halloween, very cutesy
>>45130675youve only been doing it for 6 days, so its not like it'll change u in a week. give it a few months and youll notice all sorts of nice changes in yourself. why beat yourself up so much?
>>45130541anecdotally estrogen monotherapy had strong anti-anxiety effects for mei had similar psychological symptoms which caused different physical/psychosomatic effects including chronic pain, and that's 95% gone now. it would come back in a weaker form at trough every week but i raised my dose and that doesn't happen anymore. it's not a cure but it will get better and it will make it easier for you to help yourself fix the rest of it
>>451306876 days until I start, unfortunately
>>45130736oh lol. well, that's good. ur starting now :) do u think u have a feminine physique otherwise? not including the height, i mean like limbs and waist and stomach. u prolly have a girly penis too.
>>45130708what dose did you start at? injections?subq? thanks
>>4513075134/27/35.518” bideltoid36” inseamand yeah. 3” soft 5” hard but I want it THE FUCK GONEbtw how did i do for my first greentext?ass?
>>45130751nta what is a girly penis? i try and limit or stop masturbating in hopes my penis maybe shrinks a bit on hrt
>>45130782if these are true u already have pretty feminine proportions. that's good anon. I wish I saw you irl, I'd flirt with you so much
>>45130786idk a small one? I hear atrophy sucksand to buy a hitachi magic wand supposedly
>>45130799took them an hour ago with one of those fancy ass soft tape measures for crocheting and I don’t think the monster Java changed anything
>>45130786it's not good to completely stop yourself from masturbating. but of course, u dont wanna touch ur penis. The best way is to get a chastity cage + learn to cum from anal only. the orgasms you experience will be much stronger, and ur body will learn to experience pleasure while staying soft. soon enough, even without a cage, you'd stay nice and limp and soft when aroused :) it takes time and practice. that's why good girls need a strong man to cage them and hold their key. so they can put their faith into him to train their tight little hole
does it help I drive a Subaru?
>>45130823im curious to know what ur type is. what would be ur partner ideally? physically and personality wise
>>45130837I’m good at fixing computers and I like working on my piece of shit 5spd Subaru too and just random technical shit in general so i feel like that’s malebrained but really just someone who doesn’t constantly hurt me, isn’t transphobic, I share some interests with in some capacity and can pin me down and violently boyremove me occasionally
>>451307584mg EEn weekly, subq injections. moved up to 5mg after a month and that fixed the trough issues
>>45130886mono?I went in secret and they wanted to give me 2mg e2 (?? Idk all the different types of this shit I’m sorry) subq injections weekly with 50mg spiro 2x daily but idk whether I should fight with them when I go back cuz my parents will sign this time
>>45130885I like cars a bit, not as much as you probably. nothing wrong with having more physical hobbies. as for that last bit... if you gave me ur disc I could show you just how well I can do that to you. You'd become addicted.
>>45130832so much work.. but i guess id be willing to do it
>>45130911it’s not that hard
>>45130911so do you have a bf or anything like that? or any strong masculine man in ur life that's ur type?>>45130936that's so funny, I'm going to pin you against the wall and make out with you until you feel my stiff throbbing cock pressed against ur smooth flat stomach.
>>45130944it’s times like these I wish I could get wet
>>45130944no everyone hates me and i live in a bumshit ass country in europe where the only lgbt folk are grindr sex pests
>>45130964Don't be so harsh on yourself. All you need to do is fall in my arms and forget about that. I'd make you feel soo good silly girl.
>>45130972i suppose it doesn’t matter how tall I am when I’m bent in half
>>45130990It definitely doesn't. If anything, your height would make u look adorable in the cute lingerie I get for you. I bet you'd look stunning. Have you ever cum hands free before darling?
>>45130998yesSponsored by bad-dragon.com
>>45131014oh that's cute. I bet you'd look so adorable riding my curved cock. it would fit so nicely in you. The more we fuck the more of a woman u become btw. its science fr. So in order for you to become a true woman, we'll have to have tons of baby making passionate sex
>>45131064picrel silhouette with amazing haircut forced on me by my dumbass parents
>>45131111yeah you'd look sooo adorable in lingerie. standing there all awkward and shy. I can already imagine it. ur such a silly girl. even with a lord farquaad haircut, I bet you still look adorable
Where'd you go i was reading that…
>>45131258hopefully I’d get successfully boyremoved after Anon grabs my hips and I get cock slammed in me until I can’t walk for the next few days and I forget what masculinity even isand we all came happily ever after
>>45131454Thanks for the bedtime story
>>45131472sleep tight
>>45131479you never responded to me when I said I'd put you in lingerie. What's your discord silly girl?
good luck with your transition op
>>45130905yes, monotherapyi'm not sure exactly how flexible planned parenthood is because i just do DIY, but you could at least bring up the idea of monotherapy. i know some trans women who are on EV monotherapy from PP but i'm on the other side of the country from you, might be different in your state
