I am 19 yo youngshit(?... started at 16 so most my highschool i function as a woman), I pass really well but fail in everything else, every aspect of life I am a loser. I feel so extremely dumb it's crazy. I can't really take care of myself, I am diagnosed with autism but really feel like it was kind of glimpsed over, forward to today I am failing all my classes (I am still in high school, I am repeating a year), I cry when guys try hitting on me, I count on my fingers in whats supposed to be calculus, I still kinda play with toys, I mostly feed off frozen food, I don't know how to tie my own shoes or ride a bike and I need help with everything, having stuff be explained to me 2 times slowly, I have a handwriting of a 5 year old and can't even draw a circle, I can barely put on makeup which took me like a year to even sort of not lool horrid. I actually think I should be without a doubt instutiaonalized and put in special ed. I would most want to sit in bed all day, cuddle with my plushies and watch tv. I am not even sad that I am like dumb, I accept it (heck, internet poisoning even made me somehow fetishize it) but I feel like I need a tiny bit more help.. be honest nonas am I pathetic, would you take care of me? What to do, I really feel bad asking my mom to help me with everything, I believe she loves me really much but she already has to deal with me being a tranny fuck up that no one would want to bring to this world so most of the time I shut up. :(
Institutionaliz only serves to get the crazies out of sight, it won't solve any of your problems and might in fact only make them worse.
idk youre just 19 like sure you should've learned some of those things earlier but I've met people in their 40s who are exactly like you and those ones are truly pathetic, dont give up, at least you started hrt early
