>>45162318
Try and fail
It’s all you got

accept that you should have stopped being a pussy over a decade ago and trooned. admit it like all reppers should. then you troon now and be a lateshit or you can rope. these are your only options now

>>45162368
>>45162388
I know what I look like, I know my family and friends. It would never work out. I need to erase the thought of what if I transitioned completely from my mind

>>45162448
nona on her deathbed (because you will die a woman): "i only wish... i had denied myself even more of the things that make me happy..."

>>45162459
Soulpassing tbhon

>>45162459
I'll never be a woman it can't happen not for me

>>45162448
>I know my family and friends
Cutting contact if necessary is infinitely better than repping. You will regret not starting at 31 if you continue on like this.

>>45162318
You have to give at least a little to survive. If you can't do hrt and surgeries, consider trying laser and maybe spend more time around queer people who are supportive of nonpassing trannies.

>>45162573
I can't afford to live on my own in this economy im just stuck here until a miracle happens.

>>45162578
I feel like denying myself is the noble thing because if I give a little ill only want more.

>>45162620
>I can't afford to live on my own in this economy
that shouldn't stop you from HRTrepping, like many of us also do

>>45162620
>noble thing
you stupid bitch, this is real life. it's not romantic. there's no such thing as "nobility" outside of made up stories. youre choosing to make yourself miserable in every way instead of giving yourself at least a little slack. if i were you, id cut everyone and everything off if there was no hope my current life would work out for transitioning and then find a different life somewhere else. it's difficult either way, but at least in one path, there's a hope that things can be better

>>45162645
And how would I hide obvious hormones effects?

>>45162668
Only obvious effect is the low chance of growing massive boobs. And guess what? You can lie and claim gynecomastia or just bind. There is 0 reason not to take HRT I'm secret of you're a repper to build up some girl skin and fat now, and then fully troon when you are able to.

>>45162388
Bullshit. It's gonna be hard learning to live as a man, but I will do it. I HAVE to. Even if I did, I would be a never passing cosmic abomination and always feel like a moid looking through the eyes of a skinwalked foid that was never real and even while made up, I'll still never reach her and merge with her. I can't even pretend to be the facsimile of the made up woman in my mind's eye! I am going to suffer as a traumatized failed gooner moid in this life (while still striving for improvement where and when I can ) and in the next life I WILL be rewarded by becoming a beautiful, happy woman. I will never kill myself, no matter how bad the pain gets. I will never troon out no matter how bad the pain gets. Besides, I have executive dysfunction and while that makes my life feel horrendous, at least it saved me from trooning.

You all just assume OP can pass right? being a walking hon comes with its own problems.

>>45162573
>Cutting contact if necessary is infinitely better than repping.
highly debatable.

>>45162690
>then fully troon when you are able to
if you are able to

>>45162653
Because being a homeless tranny would be suuuch a better option in a country full of maga idiots that hate us. That would be sooo much better than sacrificing my selfish desire to transition so I can at least have people around me still

>>45162697
a real man wouldn't need to write paragraphs convincing himself

>>45162709
Yes I know I'm a failed man. The universe doesn't have to rub in my face every single second. But I'll grow stronger. I'll get better than all of the motherfuckers that abuse me.

>>45162723
become a strong woman or die a pathetic man

>>45162742
It takes more strength to deny one's selfish desires rather than give into them

>>45162754
running away from what you are is the coward's move
you don't troon out of fear of losing it all
the same fear that keeps mankind from seeing what's over that next hill, staying complacent and stagnant. you're a coward. there's no bravery in what you do so admit it. at least there's more dignity that way.

>>45162822
>running away from what you are is the coward's move
Maybe there is more to OP than their Gender? Maybe they have other things in their life that have value and it would be foolish to throw them away to dress as a woman and grow tits??

>>45162822
The bravery and dignity lies in facing my problems that made me this way in the first place. I won't speak for all trans people but I know myself. I do not have a female brain, or inner essence. It is absolutely not an innate identity for me. Me desiring to be a woman had its origins in erotic fantasy. That's not the whole picture now, but that was the fucking start of it all. I'm an incel in every sense of the word. Surprisingly I don't hate women. It's been beneficial for me reading about their experiences and feeling empathy for their struggles. Yet despite that the mental illness known as gender dysphoria is trying to convince me that the grass is greener and changing my gender actually will solve most or all of my problems, instead of what it would do in actuality which is complicate my life and make it more difficult. Transness in my case would feel like complete identity death. Despite being a failed male, I'm still undeniably masculine in my being. Would I love a world where people like me got more support, sympathy, compassion, and yes even genuine love? Of course, and it's going to be hard dealing with all this pent up resentment I have for the way the world is, but I will fight with all I have to find happiness.

>>45162822
Yeah im a conflict avoidant coward what do you want from me? I just can't handle all the consequences and loss that'll happen if I transition. I'm weak unlike the rest of you trans people

>>45162704
Youre in the US? Almost every city or metro area has more jobs opportunities, has housing options, and more queer people than anywhere else. I wouldnt want to be a homeless tranny either, but there are other options besides your status quo and the worst case scenario.

>>45162318
take your HRT, retard

If it helps you there wasn't any chance of ever being a real women in the first place. Just kill yourself and hope for a lucky reincarnation.

>>45162922
How am I supposed to just move to a major city with nothing to my name and no connections?

>>45162853
90% of the time even if you take hrt for a long time, you are still going to be gendered as a man if you dont put any effort into appearance or voice training.

unless OP lucked out with genetics and already looks androgynous there is no reason to not take hrt. this is why i will never understand reppers. you can take hrt and still wait to socially transition. so just take the estrogen. any excuse not to is retarded

>>45162948
How am I supposed to know anything about your circumstances? You have nothing to your name, you're miserable and a reppressing tranny, you live in MAGA country, and what else? Because it sounds like you have literally nothing to lose and any alternative would be an improvement

>>45162668
>obvious
>>45162448
>I know what I look like
idk it sounds like these conflict. maybe you should just do it and you will be surprised and then angry at yourself for waiting.

>>45162697
>have executive dysfunction and while that makes my life feel horrendous
same. trooning actually made it my only real problem so its way easier to cope. its so much harder when your brain doesnt work and you also live in the dysphoria fog.

imkinda over trying to convince reppers. it didnt work on me but i also never made threads like this. like i only consciously repped for a week or so when i figured out it was an option. and i went so far trying to convince one that i literally did all the steps for them and they were still like nah.

so idk cause if i made this thread it would just be me screaming for you to convince me and give me permission to do what i already know i want