This is going to be more or less of a vent post but idk where else to get this out. M/Bi/20s I have never felt comfortable in a monogamous relationship. I feel as if there is something incredibly wrong with me but whenever I am in an exclusive relationship I feel as if I am being strangled. Over the years I have looked for advice on many of the non-monogamy/poly communities on reddit and have gotten advice from friends who are/were in non-monogamous relationships but nothing has really helped. If anything I have gotten far more judgement from them than people I know who are not interested in that kind of relationship. I have only been in one "healthy" non-monogamous relationship and that was in high school, and that relationship ended extraordinarily quickly due to both me and the person I was dating having wildly religious parents. The relationship I was in immediately after started out as an open relationship and things were going great until my partner closed the relationship without my input. I was also exposed to porn rather late in life as well, and didn't regularly consume porn until I was nearly 16 years old. I have had these feelings since I was 12-14. I'm tired of being judged or being told that there is something wrong with me without anyone telling me how to fix it. I'm just so tired.
