before i used to fantasize about having a nice girlfriend and doing things for her and being with her. i know thats also a narcissistic activity but at least it involved an imaginary person that wasnt me. now i just think about how great it would be to have a boyfriend taller and more dominant than me that would treat me like a girl. i dont think about nice things i can do for him or what he might look like, hes just a faceless man and theres not much romance involved. just narcissism fuel that makes me feel wanted because i have no confidence in myself and need others to validate me. from a nonromantic standpoint, constantly deciding if im going to get on or off hrt and trying to "actualize" who i want to be has made me more neglectful of family and friends dealings and struggles.
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