Late 20's manmoder2 months HRTNo matter who i talk to online, I feel so misunderstood. My whole life upto now was a cope.Midshits make me feel sneedy for existing without the possibility to pass one day.Lateshits seem to be either on the verge of killing themselves or detrooning, and right now im neither of those and don't want to go there again.The only other people who understand why I was repping for over a decade are sneedhons who make me feel even more misunderstood, or passoids who are obviously faking it and only talk to me so they can feel better about themselvesI feel more lonely than ever. IRL is pointless because I'm not gonna honmode yet and making connections as moid feels hollow.
I love you
stop talking to trannies and expecting compassion + get used to being alone + drugs + get a boyfriend asap + stop being a sneed
Yea got in this trap too. 3 mo HRT. But apparently I pass as a youngshit on chat.That's why I still come to /tttt/ to anonymously vent about transition issues.
>>45206767honestly that sounds like good advice, thank you.>drugsI just quit weed because it stops me from effortmaxing. I like psychadelics but haven't had any in a while. What do you recommend?
>>45206845whatever helps you shut down the best. It's NOT gonna get better for a long time.>>45206836you are here forever
>>45206963There are worse fates. I kinda like it here. :^)
>>45207046I guess that means you have the mental fortitude and delusion to actually make it some day
It's not that bad nona, I started at 26 (34 now) and pass or not I know I'm a hell of a lot better off than I would be if I'd kept repressing.
True end game of transition is realizing it would have been better to rep, roid, and lift>T. 11years hrt midshit w/ 60k of cosmetic surgery
>>45207358nah, I think it would have been better to HRTrep and never come out tho>t. 10 years hrt midst with idk$ of surgery
stop hanging out in places that cause you misery and give you brainworms and you'll be fine
>>45206742Hello twin, we are in the same boat. I, for once in my life greatly desire to live, but my lack of hope for the future keeps dragging me to suicidality. What mindset did you adopt to become "neither of those" as you say?
>>45207358I guess the only good part about being lateshit is that I can 100% guarantee that any more repping would've made me kill myself, so I will never get to that moment
>>45207500Might've been the LSD, finally trooning or failing my last attempt. But I no longer see suicide as something positive, as an option I have to escape the pain. Now all I feel about it, is cowardness for not enduring life a bit longer. I know I'm gonna be disappointed in myself for never finding out wether life becomes better at some point. I don't really have any hope either, but I don't wanna die feeling dissappointed. It felt so freeing before and that's why I wanted to die.
>>45206742I'm the same as you sis, i also started in my late 20s, repped hard. and now i can't know if I'll ever "girl"mode or even honmode.might snap and either cut my genitals due to dysphoria or rope at any time.
