>>45222484
did you at some point add me on discord and spam a lot of images about bmws?

>>45222515
no? what??

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>born 200X in the uk
>diagnosed autism age 3
>bullied for 15 years. no friends
>realise im ftm at age 17 after enbycoping (never came out thank fuck) for 5 years
>come out age 18 to supportive parents, change documents and start process to get HRT
>accepted into top uni for computer science
>begin uni under new name, still not on HRT but pitypassing because poonfidence. making friends is much easier as a moid even a nonpassing one
>start HRT age 19, luckshit and passing after 3 months
>various uni shenanigans (break a rib, join a cult, leave a cult, nearly fail first year)
>diagnosed adhd, take year out of uni to titrate meds, end up quitting the meds after spending way too much £££ because the side effects are ass
>parents divorce, mum gets awful boyfriend whatever at least he isnt too transphobic
>return to uni somehow stealth even other trannies dont realise im a poon unless i disclose
>getting good grades, job applications going well
>still no partner but ive gone from being a hugless kissless incel to a hugless kissless volcel (i accidentally visited a cruising spot and had to turn down a hot twink bc it's illegal for trannies to have sex in the uk...)
my life is objectively pretty good but i still want to rope and dont have a dick :/, which is why im here ig

>Born around nearly the same time
>Father with autism who is present only for a few months a year, hated me because i look nothing like him since i am mixxed (despite my siblings looking like him)
>Mom is a religious nutjob with multiple mental disorders
>Names me after her dead brother
>Her favorite from my 2 siblings (1f1m) since am the only who looks like her (mixxed race issues)
>Every single day since i was 5 makes remarks about how am too much like a girl (helping her and never going outside/growing my hair out sometimes/face narrower than her's) and always wishes i was born one despite me being the tallest one in the entire family
>Doesn't help that I've been dysphoric even when i was that young but never did anything
>Never even said anything of this sort about either of my siblings
???????????

>>45222484
>born male to two 18 year old fedora tipping atheists in 1999
>figure out I have something fucked up with me sexually by like 8 years old. Don't really know how to process it so I just assume I'm gay and start repressing it by being homophobic.
>the internet and personal encounters expose me to trans people at 14.
>realize I'm one of them, horrified
>start gaycoping, once femboys become a thing start femboycoping
>dysphoria is tearing me apart by college
>confide in transphobic friend, because I know he'd talk me out of it
>continue repping
>get boyfriend at 22
>tranny thoughts go away entirely
>until like 5 months ago(now 27 years old)
>sudden constant agonizing psychic pain as I see male aging ravage my body
>embarrassing breakdown makes me realize I am probably going to kill myself if I don't do something about this
>Ugly lateshit ogrehon but I guess it could be worse. Boyfriend hasn't left me despite his protests to my trooning out. We still love eachother very much

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>assigned baby at birth
>conservative, catholic, low income
>father screams and physically abuses me for acting like a girl and stuttering
>mother lets it happen
>sisters dont acknowledge it
>become withdrawn, severely depressed
>grade school
>cry a lot
>bullied for being "gay"
>"friends" dont even like me
>start crossdressing in secret
>puberty hits
>sweaty, tall, angry
>start working out obsessively & develop eating disorder
>high school
>parents get divorced
>do well in classes and extracurriculars
>get job, get gf
>college
>poor, anxious, depressed
>break up with gf
>cut off all "friends"
>graduate, move across country for work, get new gf
>depression
>crossdress again
>break down completely, give in to trans mind virus
>relationship barely stays alive
>3 years later
>hrt, post orchi, post ffs
>managed to make 1 friend
>still dont pass but a little less depressed looking in the mirror now

kinda bleak when I lay it all out there. if i had more courage, i would have killed myself a long time ago

>>45223036
mines very similar

>catholic family
>catholic elementary school
>bullied for seeming gay
>parents divorce, mom remarries
>go to public high school
>bullied for being gay but do very well in classes
>epiphany of trannydom
>get gf, unfortunately shes evil and lowkey rapes me
>awful depression spiral for the rest of hs
>cut off everyone and break up with gf over summer after graduating
>get huge crush with this new cute guy i met at college
>start diy
that was a year ago and not much has happened since

Here's a life story. Im 30M.
> middle sibling product of divorce, mom alcoholic (no FAS thank god)
>raised by dad past 5 because mom ran out on a DUI, dads sister and grandma help.
>by 8 he remarries a trailer trash abusive woman, adopted by moms grandparents.
>not much of an improvement, grandpa physically abusive until late teens when I threaten to kick him down the stairs if he tries to come up to hit me, he then mellows out until his death later.
>high-school get gay feelings for a cute ginger kid in theater class, full on glee gay boy, lisp everything. Repressed, for now.
>Out of high school, immediately thrust into community college. Eat shit first semester because all my classes were online and my professors wouldn't respond to my emails. No longer covered by pell grant as a result.
>get wageslave job, making 7 dollars, biweekly paychecks to cover cost of next semester--immediate derailed by grandma's health failing her.
>drop out, quit job, care for grandmother while grandfather does nothing to help her, increasingly hangs out with neighbors.
>Grandma dies a few months after, in home hospice care in the living room surrounded by family she points to grandpa and calls him the stupidest man shes met. Immediately run up to my room and sob for hours as the nurse covers her and makes the call to remove her.
>year after get my shit together through spite and hate of this useless old fuck, get a cheap 6k car and leave him. Meet guy, become his bf.
>years later asshole dies, house left to sister and I, move mom in from a sense of care. She brings an alcoholic welder in who constantly harasses me and my bf. Get in a fight one day, choke him out while hes drunk screaming at us, gets up to pull gun, bf calls sheriff's.
>sheriff's keep him for 5 minutes before letting him back in the house, taking the firing pin out of his gun and doing nothing else. Immediately forced to leave house with bf out of fear.
>live with bf for 4 years after, broken up with on christmas.

>>45224061
damn I didnt know we still had gay guys on this website. ur story is nice. how are u now

>>45222484
>like 12 years old
>Say fuck in front of my pillhead grandma
>She beats me with my mattress

>>45224096
Im more bi now than gay, still kicking. Sister got in contact with me about selling the house about four months ago. I miss being in an actual relationship and I feel thoroughly atomized. The only family member I am positive about that's alive is my dad and I found out not long ago hes probably not my bio dad because my mom was a cheater. I still love him. I got a lot of trans friends, one who sends me shitty posts from here pretty frequently. I kind of stay here to pick yalls brains and get a more formative understanding of what she's saying so I can be mad at her proper. I probably treat her more like a sister than my real one.

>>45224096
Also I appreciate your care for it, thank you for your kindness.

All of you have incredibly boring lives. My life is interesting but I've learned not to share anything about myself because it makes trannies seethe.