I don't even know how I would go about finding out whether I had just mindfucked myself, or was experiencing real dysphoria.I am 18 now, and mainly felt this way when I was 12-15. I quite literally remember my life in fragments, I have blocked a lot out (maybe for external reasons, family life is a bit fucked). I do fully remember planning to transition once I was an adult though, at the time I was set on it. I don't know why but I began to hardcore repress it. Maybe it was because I gradually just stopped feeling anything, or I was living in the South, or I was a decently attractive guy so I decided I would settle with that.The last few years of my life have just been isolated, in my room, doing online school. I have begun working in the past few months, and I feel like I am slowly starting to stich my psyche back together, and this is one of the things involved in that. Sorry to ramble, I don't even know why I posted. Maybe tell me if you have a similar experience so I feel better, or give me advice, because I don't even know how to go about processing any of this.
>>45295365>I am 18 nowI don’t really believe you. But yeah it’s normal for shit to get buried in your subconscious
>>45295407I just hope whether or not it is genuine, it is at least resolved and not lingering in the back of my mind. >I don't really believe you.I wouldn't believe me either. It is just nice to be able to post, and be honest about my age finally.
