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>one half of my childhood was feeling stuck inside a house in FL with mom who, pushed me away, beat me when i cry, barely took care of me, scoffed at my curiosity of the outside world.
>parents divorce at 10 and up until i cut her off at 20 she excused all of it with her depression and tried love bombing me into reconnecting with her.
>right after divorce thought would get along better with dad after not talked much for so long. turns out hes a total control freak with similar past trauma (and hints of repper behavior) zero clue how to parent.
>found out im a girl during hs and started diy at 19 because i learnt FL is a shithole for trannies. opened up to my dad who screamed at me later guilt tripping me to hugging for making him feel like shit with this news.
>felt so done with where i was at. met two older transbians online and took a plane to move in with them to OR then couch surfed before landing in a homeless shelter.

now 21 and thought i was going to sunshine n rainbows when moving to portland, but nope it's just another shithole to be apart of. everywhere i go just turns to shit or is already shit. currently unemployed with 7 months of experience and job market sucks ass; never had time nor financial support to pursue a career where i was from (neet). and i'm surrounded by nothing but bpdemon they/hefabs, cis fake allies, druggies and homeless blacks who've threatened to rape and kill me. currently dating a cism who'll help get me out of here and live with him as a wife somewhere else rural n safe.

after experiencing (everything?) I feel utterly battered n done with cisciety pilling me and it's problems. i don't care about the midterms results. i don't care what normies think of trannies nowadays. i don't care about so called "moral" faggots. i don't care. i'm going to boymode, i'm separating myself from cisciety to focus on building a life with my love interest. you guys are cool tho.