Repressor General: Piano EditionQOTT: What music do you like?
>>45304665>QOTT: What music do you like?ambient
chiptune, ambient, vocaloidmy schizo theory is electronic music warps your brain and gives you gender dysphoria.
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>>45304665>QOTT: What music do you like?the shrill cries of my agonizing enemies
>>45304665>QOTT: What music do you likeLiterally anything as long it is good; reggaeton, classical, rock, goregrind, j-pop, rap, hip-hop, metal, romantic, bachata, etc, I'll vibe to it.
>>45304665>qotthyperpop, noise pop, digicore>>45304705i can confirm your theory
I have a tab open with some beautiful women in it and occasionally I look at it and go "holy shit she's beautiful" and then I feel really terrible (but I don't close the tab)
>>45304807Same but with men (pooner), I do close the tab tho, but then I search for the content again which I feel like it is pathetic as hell.
>>45304888My life feels pathetic in general.I do hate myself sometimes.Also nice trips
>>45304665>QOTT: What music do you like?ya know tis only ma musec i jes gid de guittawr on ma lap an i gid de blooze outta ma sys'sim an das de musec i like ye know but aw buoy do i rmember ye goode ole mississippi johnny hawkeye aw lawd dat mane had fengers like a spider i wish i cooda play like im but now he sleapin wid de angews lawd rest is sole
im supposed to be grateful that i can be a neet comfortably but this is the worst fate. i want to feel like a person but i have autistic retard written all over my face so everyone infantilizes me. this isnt fair. i need to gather the courage to end this shitty existence.
Has awareness of what society thinks about you ever been useful for you? It hasn't for me. I want to go back to being oblivious. I was happier.
grindr is a humiliation ritual
>>45305098my parents just yelled at me and called me a disappointment and said they should have kept me on a tighter leash.between this and ai making everything i know how to do useless, im so fucking over it.
Anyone else wish someone else could make the choice to transition for you.
>>45305750i don't, transitioning me would be cruel at this pointi just want to be content with being a male but i can't even have that
>>45305750You obviously should transition as soon as possible.
>>45305791pinkpillers GTFO we reppin in dis muthafucka
>>45305791I have difficulty making decisions. Not just in this area, but in every area.
>>45305649btw dont believe anyone who says your body stops masculinizing at 23 or earlier my neck got so much wider i had to make a new notch in my strangling belt
>>45304665I wrote a piano melody im very proud of recently. All my music is sad
>>45305098i think the only option left is to rebel, when i was a kid i was set up to believe that all you have to do is follow the rules and you get a middle class life, a house a job etc. Where is all of that? Instead I repressed what I really wanted in the hope that I would get over it and things would work out, people joke about John 50 but it would be so much better to be John 50 than to be him without any life success, without anything justifying his sacrifice. What am I going through all this pain for when I open tiktok and see teenagers living more than I ever have or will?
>>45306168vocaroo?
>>45306210"john 50 without the success" yeah…god im in so much pain. i wish i had died ten years ago. ten years from now ill wish id killed myself now. nothing that i want is possible for me. all i have to comfort me are fantasies. i tried strangling myself and i didnt have the guts to follow through. im so fucking pathetic.
>>45306281>god im in so much pain.yeahmy mind keeps going "but what if you regret it?"idkshoot me
if ya got rep ya got style...yer johnin an yer reppin all de while...if ya got rep ya got class...yo clappin all em trannies in de ass
Is it pink, repgen?
Iwnbaw and also is too late for me to even try. But anyway I end up completely obsessed with tranny thoughts, and I has been obsessed for like 6 years at least.Why am I such a retard and still going around the same thing in circles?, Why can't I forget about this and focus on something else?.I don't even like women's bodies that much. My ideal of beauty for anyone other than myself is masculine. But even so, when I look in the mirror, when I speak, when I have to get dressed, every time someone says my name, I feel an unbelievable dread because I see and hear a man.It does not make any sense, if I supposedly like moid bodies then why i hate being one?.I literally cannot thing in anything else. All my internet activity boils down to tranny places and issues.
FFS and SRS make you a surgeon's idea of what a woman is supposed to look like, not an actual woman. They can't make you look like a natural woman. They're for people who are content living a fake plastic life.
>>45306607Life in plastic, it's fantastic.
>>45306698 But gravity always wins
i want a boyfroemd
>>45306875But who would date us
>>45305750yes a man will if you give yourself over heart, mind and body even as his kept side thing he'll keep you in a separate apartment and it'll be your refuge from cruel world and everything and everything will be easier holding his arm like going outside and socializingbefore long you'll forget your old self and remember nothing but happiness but nvm that's too optimistic
>>45306885idk. who would eevn befriend us. i want a baoyfriend but i dont evcen have frends
>>45306890being someones abuse goblin is the only way i could ever be in a relationship
>>45306890Kind of hot. Kind of. But it's too degrading for my tastes.
john40 but with a life in shambles on 2nd year of hrt
>>45304665Link to the previous thread OP.
just saw a photo of me crossdressing from 2020hit me like freight train
>>45307161no. if you want to go visit old repgens there's an archive available.
drank 1 coffee, 3 chicories and 1 cuppa tea today
>>45307222was she hot
>>45307352I drink like 4 espressos a day.
>>45307423i just wanted to say it because i usually drink more tea than chicoryi just want to say something
>>45307435me tooi drink a lot of coffeeim not braggingim just adding on to what you said
went out shopping with some friends last night and its torture seeing all the things i could never wear or use or buy, all while towering over everyone who cancursed to be an ogre
I'm not in such a bad spot as many of you because I think if I can just get a girlfriend, my dysphoria will go away.
>>45307597I have one girl who is interested in me but her attention just made me realize being a boyfriend would be unbearable. maybe you are better than me though
>>45307119degrading? did you hear about the whole apartment where you can just be fem 24/7 and go wait for him and go out do his chores thought some people here liked being housewives
>>45307385nta but i look at them from last decade and the brainworms were real too bad i have wrinkles and shit now
>>45307597if you can plap you are in the clear
>>45304665take your HRT, retards
things were way better when i thought trannies were something entirely separate from me and i could laugh at them and not care would only visit this board for few mins to get the latest on agp then fuck off to my hobbies etc give dysphoria an inch and it takes a mile
>>45307717That's if you can GET plapped you are in the clear.
>>45307762no for a normal life
>>45307748You can't actually transition it's just photoshop.
i'll tell you why therapy doesn't work because you think just going there is enough whereas it's only a start
>>45307738Hey nona.
