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Acta non verba aut aliquidI need to stop browsing this board for a bit because I now have an 80 book backlog
I read this diminutive and delightful short story by Carson McCullers earlier. I think some anons here might resonate with and enjoy it.1/3
2/3>>25323562
>>25323562>>253235633/3Hope you all enjoy! and hopefully I don't regret making a new thread for it.
When reading, are you able to actually hold the descriptions of clothing and appearance for multiple characters in your minds-eye throughout a scene? Sometimes it's just too much detail. I especially have trouble keeping any facial description in mind. Something like nice grey suit or tattered factory uniform is all I can do at most. Again, this is for multiple characters interacting in a scene, when the author describes the appearance of each.Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying the descriptions are thus superfluous and unnecessary -- there's still concerns of rhythm and atmosphere, of course -- but yeah, rarely do the author's own descriptions of appearance hold for longer than a page.
Repentance is rewarded like everything childlike, with all the hyper-contingency of caprice, because it is spontaneous, because it is disinterested, and beyond the dignity of the person: its sine qua non is its own dissolution as finality. That is to say, humankind in general is dignified only because the individual self-annihilates. Nothingness, as Heidegger put it, discoursing over Being, is also a function of humanity—which he called Dasein (Being-There)—because it is transient. This peculiarity of its nature is intolerable, and that is why it manifests itself in tearful, purifying repentance. Human beings become human by becoming another person, like a prudent act of transmutation, only this change is substantial, and this idea unfolds, but not like the flesh which is tenuous in Merleau-Ponty and the phenomenologists. To digress a bit: the enchantment or bewitchment of our language is permissible, though some say that their struggle is anti-philosophical, a magic act; but if take on principle that we have an identity, we take it seriously, and enough have already done so not to continue denying that the concept has a value worthy of being defended. Do we postulate what is most valuable as a mere postulate, or as something fleeting? If anything, we are willing to fight to make it stay, and the most valuable thing, if we believe in eternity, can only be the eternal. In the end, we remain in ignorance: we will know who we are after death, and then we cannot answer our critics; we will have passed into the perpetual domain of necessary facts, unless Oscar Wilde helps us, from heaven and free from imprisonment. But repentance, like transfiguration, is eternal. Then the drama of life begins with a wail, and finds its climax in weeping.
>>25323604I see.
>>25323608>I seeSure you fucking do
If you hear a sound, don't turn around.
>>25323614I did read it but I'm nervous to spend time parsing it because of the fear it may be AI slop. Such is the state of the internet today. Sad.
>>25323617I may not raise my heart beingWrong, and if God raise it upIt would escape my body whenIt should stay in my chestWhere it belongs. OppressionLong but stands upon us calm.We watch and wait, or weep who can,And have seen injury.For a great decade’s devastation.Bereavement is but time’sConsolation, waiting anxious forSome special visitor sublime,To greet the day, we’ve still expectedSome kind of true reward.
Happiness seems like the hardest thing to write because when people read fiction they want excitement and drama, not happiness, and the joy of another (even if fictional) annoys them. We'll accept and immerse ourselves in all kinds of described misery and torment but become fedora wearing cynical critics as soon as things go well.
>>25323628Hence why the fundamental genres are comic and tragic -- you either need a downfall, or comedy. Just straight slight of life happiness ain't entertaining nor didactic.
Animation guy, please stop raping me thx.
>>25323649"Nice" little Pepe meme they have of it n /pol/
>>25323632It's still sad, and I worry about what it'll mean for a world without true struggle.
I want to contribute something of quality to this board and to /his/. An effort post to make up for my shitposting
post something funny, to confirm it.
Prove to me I'm not a schizo
>>25323554When we studied the causes of the early migrations of the white race southward and westward, we found that these movements resulted from intense pressure exerted in the northeast by countless hordes of yellow people. Even before the arrival of the white Hamites, Semites, and Arians, the Finnish Tsunami, encountering little resistance among the black nations of China, had spread among them, carrying its conquests and consequently its intermingling far and wide. Given the devastating and brutal nature of this race, there was necessarily excessive plunder. Subjected to merciless dispossession, numerous bands of black people fled and dispersed wherever they could. Some reached the mountains, others the islands of Formosa, Ni-phon, Yeso, and the Kuriles, and, passing behind the masses of their persecutors, came in their turn to conquer, either remaining pure or mingled with the blood of the aggressors, the American lands abandoned by the latter. There, they joined the yellow stragglers who had not followed the great migration.This is from the so-called grandfather of fascism btw. To mark it in his own words, nothing beats the energy of the first creation. His essay is a far too under-appreciated goldmine of comical quotes so hilarious that they put the unironicness of the work in question.Primitive crudeness had permeated every aspect of the Celt's customs. Like the Iberian, the Etruscan, the Thracian, and the Slav, his unimaginative sensuality commonly led him to gorge himself on meat and spirits, simply to experience an increase in physical well-being. However, the documents tell us that this habit had an even stronger hold on the Gaul the closer he came to the lower classes (1). The chieftains only half-indulged in it. Among the common people, more closely assimilated to the slave population, one often encountered men whom constant drunkenness had gradually led to complete idiocy.(1) Am. Thierry, Hist. des Gaulois, t. II, p. 62. This love of drunkenness should not be confused with the vigorous consumption that the Arians, Greeks, and Scandinavians prided themselves on. For the latter peoples, it was solely a sign of strength in heroes. Nowhere is there any allusion to suggest that drunkenness was a result of it and thus seemed excusable.
>>25323554I'm so fucking annoyed today. Everything is annoying me right now. Even things I usually like, or things that should piss me off only annoy me. I'm annoyed that people kill people. I'm annoyed that politicians are corrupt. I'm annoyed that fast fashion exists. I'm annoyed that people read Colleen Hoover books. I'm annoyed that people fist-fight each other in the street over a new children's toy every month. I'm annoyed that we're destroying the environment. I'm annoyed it's not raining right now. I'm annoyed, I'm annoyed, I'm annoyed.
I think an economic crash would help me lose weight.
>>25323726'zempic no diffed being a fatty
>>25323554I had a traumatic anxiety/panic attack 8 months ago and have never felt the same since
>>25323772what happened uwu? Did the pervert in the park have a present for you in his pants??
>>25323772Man up pussy, hit the gym, read a book, take a shower, walk it off.
Historians are just glorified pimps who prostitute the defenseless past to the abuse of the present's sovereign.
>>25323777>what happened uwu? Did the pervert in the park have a present for you in his pants??no something involving death and someone close to be was murdered, and I heard about it and then I had three weeks of horrendous anxiety where I could not stand or even stay awake for weeks, then I had a panic attack because I kept trying to monitor my feelings. I went temporarily blind during the panic attack for about 10 minutes where I did not see anything at all and started vomiting everywhere and shaking so much and sweating I got dehydrated, the last 8 months I have had over 60 symptoms of anxiety, it went from maybe a 10 down to a 8.9.even to this day I just feel "off" and cannot relax, its like I was changed overnight>>25323783boomer tier advice that is only slightly beneficial, really not even advice just trite platitudes
>>25323823Who killed your friend?
>>25323825It wasn't a friend but a family member and they were stabbed to death and almost decapitated, I don't want to say more because I don't want ppl finding the case lmao. but I legit changed my personality over night after that initial buildup of anxiety, I've never felt anything like it, I really wouldn't wish it on anyoneI had such great plans desu, my friend I met in Uni who lives in Saudi Arabia was going to let me stay with his rich ass family in jeddah for months and we were going to have a good time, now that is gone and I have no desire to travel. I got a job offer that would have had me start in October last year and I would have took home 95k after taxes, starting and would have made up to 120k in five years.I am now obsessed with loss and dying and before my anxiety attack I never wasnow I gained 140lbs in 8 months and work as a night delivery driver writing Star Wars fiction
>>25323838>It wasn't a friend but a family member and they were stabbed to death and almost decapitated,this also happended to me but I just said "maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan DATS CRAZY!" and got some snacks to calm down.>now I gained 140lbs in 8 months Sounds like you got some snacks too... Hmmmmm maybe try opting for the quality stuff. Good snacks cost premium for a reason!
>>25323849um okay
>>25323853Another good deed done. No need to thank me, helping other people is its own reward :)
I just want to get back to my people
>>25323838Why didnt he just shoot him?
Static ip is being held hostage with a permaNot sure what the play is while moving to another location
I just wanna fuck
Im retired with autismbux but I wanna leave that income for rent food and indexfunds. Gotta use my time to find a way to get moneyI need to learn a way to make like 1.5k dollars a month online, so I got travel money.THIS IS PARAMOUNT TO MY MENTAL STABILITY
>>25323912sell your bussy
>>25323923my badussy? Feel like those degens take whatever hole they can get and give it out in equal desperation. Aint no money to be made there.
i'm annoyed that this week there were no good new music released. that FEAR album by the guy from unknown mortal orchestra is ok but it's basically just 20 minutes of guitar noodling, ok if super high, but nothing remarkable. that horsegiirl album is mid, probably a banger or two but do u really want to listen to it all to find them? i do not.
You haven't lived until you've worn nose strips to bed>>25323560I have similar issues
I think we're fished for.
Well you can’t be nice to guys because that’s gay, and you can’t be nice to women or else you’re hitting on them, so I end up being mean to everyone and hating myself for being too stupid not to be who I’m supposed to be
I HATE THE ANTICHRIST I HATE THE ANTICHRIST
Battlestar Galactica is surprisingly bad.
You are about to witness the strength of street knowledge
>>25324041Monies?
Midwits always lose.
>>25324058Losewits... always mid
if i dont touch my penis in a sexual manner today, I will consider this a day filled with glory.
I'm scared of midgets rising up and taking over the world.
How about you just tell me what I'm doing that annoys you.
The pool training session of my SCUBA course was yesterday, I need to be able to swim 200 m nonstop and it quickly became apparent that my swimming skills lack a certain level of competency. I was able to pass the float test without a hitch surprisingly and one of my instructors bet I couldn't do two laps swimming on my back (I managed to do so). They seemed pretty surprised that I seem to have less trouble swimming on my back than I do on my stomach, I dunno mang..Anyhoo, there's room for improvement. They said my entry dive was the best they'd seen in a long while and that I don't appear to be afraid of the water which is good (I used to swim a lot more when I was younger than I have in the past 10-15 years)Apparently they've trained people who have been far less comfortable in the water than I (some of which were terrified to even put their faces in the water apparently)Anyhoo, it was fun. I had forgotten just how appealing swimming was (it's definitely far less tiring than terrestrial exercise is many ways)Oh well, there's room for improvement. I passed the online test the same day with a score of 45 out of 50 correct too. My instructors are two pretty cool dudes, one is a seven foot tall British dude who works for our local parks and rec and the other is an American certified cave diver.I'm probably just going to have to get a seasonal pool pass and try doing laps in-between classes. I was anywhere near as wiped out afterwards as I would have initially expected. (guess I'm in better shape than I thought)This is pretty fun boys, never would have thought ten or fifteen years ago that my autistic ass would ever embark upon such an endeavor.I thank God for this opportunity.
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IjrVTRiscEholy shit what a jam
>>25324209Thanks for that boring blogpost nigger
>>25324246Why don't you cry about it some more, BITCH?
>"Don't be that fag that that extracts the archive and watches the pictures with windows image viewer"Why is this frowned upon with manga? Don't dedicated comic reading programs do the exact same when they open a CBZ or CBR file?
Manga isn't literature.
ff7 rev, RE veronica, stellar blade 2, star wars XCOM
>>25324258A list of absolute S H I T
Which hero could survive the stock market tanking 40%
>>25324246>Write Your Thoughts Thread>NOOOOOOOOOO, NOT LIKE THAAAAT!!!Why don't you just commit suicide?
>>25324260I will play and enjoy SW XCOM and you will seethe impotently.
>Being a Star Goys fan in 2026Why haven't you just killed yourself already?
I reconnected with an old friend. We texted for a few days, said we should meet up soon, then they stopped responding. Now I'm alone again. I wish I were normal.
>>25324271i'm an XCOM fan first THOUGH
>>25324267the guy with a lot of "dry powder" to buy bargains. i'm still eating good off dividends from some reits i picked up for a song during the 08 crash. i say let it rip, let's goooo
>>25324251>>25324255I guess the metadata is lost and you can't track progress, but like...organization isn't a problem and unless you're senile you should be able to remember up to which chapter you read a manga. Plus most digital releases of manga join tend to two-page spreads into one PNG.
Stop making me come to terms with how bad of a person I am.
>>25324277I wouldn't count on it, but this is getting ridiculous. A market shouldn't be pumping on the verge of a black swan event.
Comic books and asian comic books (manga) aren't literature.
>>25324279No. Change your evil ways.
>>25324285Anime/Manga website. Feel free to leave.
>>25324271>being rude on the internet in 2026Why haven't you tried being nice to other people already? :)
>>25324293Nah, nope. Shan't. Feel free to blow your brains out in frustration at my continued presence however.
>>25324299Because (You) make me fucking SICK.
i'm gonna be completely honest, drum solos suck. and say ya but moby di.. no it's too fucking long and baroque.
>>25324293He's right though. Comic books aren't literature.
>>25324305Nobody cares about drum solos. Only guitar solos truly matter.
>>25324304sometimes a little bile gets rid of the vile :))
>>25324309nobody cares about bass solos, but ppl will pretend to enjoy drum solos.
>>25324316Nah, nope. I disagree.
>>25324321recommend me a slammin bass solo pref from a boomer rock band not some jazz shit but i'll take it also i'd even accept nu metal cringe if it goes super hard like korn or whatever
>>25323721Yeah, I just keep having more and more days like this. Every attempt to go outside just annoys me more because everyone has a look of unintelligence/fear plastered across their face and people are unreachable, impossible.Reading sometimes helps but I can't read all fucking day and I don't care for movies or almost any of the slop on youtube to even use as background noise. I'd go out on my bike more but if I do that too often it would get stale as well. Shit's just brutal, man.
>>25324331>nu metal>cringeAh, so you're a fucking FAGGOT. No reccs for (You) then.
Maybe I'll just go play the out-of-tune hobo piano that's a town over. Not like it matters anyway. Maybe I'll at least annoy a few normies
platos allegory of the cave about ultimate reality of outside world and Bodhidharma staring at a wall to reach enlightenment, to be detached from the outside world and focus on the inner self seem to contradict each other
>>25324396You thought there was only one answer?
>>25323554every time I look at my spice rack on my kitchen table I get Scarborough Fair stuck in my head
>>25324435Every time I stare at the complex math theorems I'm solving on the hallway blackboard outside of a random classroom at the university I'm janitor at in Boston I get Elliot Smith stuck in my head.
Turns out a woman wasn't the thing that would fix me... I feel the same and even worse in a way... At least when I was alone I was alone.
>>25324459Only thing worse than being alone is being alone in a relationship.
>>25324459Yeah, true. I still don't feel bad about fucking my old friend's ex-girlfriend, who was also one of my ex-girlfriends best friends. We're not friends anymore, obviously. But yeah that was almost 5 years ago now and I'm lonely and tired of people and trying.
I have to decide whether to move back to my hometown or to stay where I currently am And I only have a month to decide And I’ll probably never see you again either wayAnd I feel awful about all of it
>>25324468Try to do anything other than go back anon, trust me on this. There is nothing nostalgic about it, even if you think you still have friends there. It won't be anything like when you were younger and you'll feel like a complete and utter failure (and worse if you don't already). This is especially true if you're from a shithole small town. Just try to go somewhere else even if this whole planet is cooked.
I'm not mentally ill enough to enjoy lit anymore. It was pretty nice a few years ago when I was depressed. I want to go back to being reclusive and depressed... I enjoyed it in a way, and was doing some writing then too... now I feel healthy and there are people in my life who care about me and want to hang out with me all the time, so I can't stay locked in my apartment drinking and reading and living on the internet. If only I could find it in myself to not care for these people who care for me... If I could ignore them I could go back to being depressed and stop pretending...
>>25324486Literally who?
i played diablo 2 resurrection for about an hour. it wasn't fun. grim dawn is just such a better arpg, makes diablos seem so shitty. i want to smoke weed, but i'm going to go for a walk instead. then i will read maybe.
>>25324494I haven't smoked weed in 2 months now coming off being a chronic and it's just so hit and miss. Some days I feel a lot better mentally and physically and some days I just can't stand the boredom and nothing like going for a walk or a bike ride will work.I thought it would make it easier to talk to people eventually but I'm still isolated as fuck. I don't like videogames anymore either.
>>25324396No. The material world is made of shadows, the "outside world" is only accessible through contemplation on knowledge that you already have access to before you ever experienced the material. They're consistent with each other but strictly speaking both wrong despite being closer to the truth than just accepting the senses as the final authority.
>>25324486Don't worry you'll probably fumble it again or get sick of all the fake friends and performative bullshit required to maintain all those relationships and become alienated again one way or another. I mean I genuinely hope it works out for you but I've been through this cycle a few times, I think I've lost all hope of ever getting out of my isolation ever again.
>>25324497yeah i can't get into any games really. except maybe overwatch cuz it's competitive and social, but solo autism rpg stuff just kind of bland. weed seems so fun when u listen to pothead music, but when u actually smoke it's just not that good. i should just read to be honest.
Have you read this book? Is it worth the time?
>>25324504Yeah I'm reading more and it really does help but I can't read all day or as much as I try to talk myself into. I just get tired or glaze over but it is nice feeling like I'm retaining and thinking with more clarity about what I read now that I'm not blitzed out of my skull.Every time I smoke again after a break it's mostly dogshit agreed; I just get paranoid and munch out and its only fun for the first few times until my tolerance comes back but I keep smoking because I'm a shithead with an addictive personality. It just has to be all or nothing for my sanity/finances these days anyway.
>>25324506buy an ad
I miss you so much
>>25324516I’m having sex with her
>>25324503Do you want to get out of it? I want it back, but feel too tangled up with this person.
>>25323554
>>25324529I’m not talking about a her, but whatever.
>>25324506I listened to it one night on audiobook on YouTube when I was going through heroin withdrawal. I quite liked it.
>>25324516I just blew my wad deep inside his boipucci. He doesn't even remember who you are.
>>25324516You are so persistent and crazy, it's fascinating. I wonder when you will find a moment of lucidity and realize what a headcase you are. You've been doing this for months... You need to see a therapist.
>>25324533Yeah, but unfortunately I haven't met anyone I like or can have a decent conversation with in ages and all my old friendships are trashed after I got sober or came to the realization that they were shit people. Bridges had to be burned, and while there may be the chance that some people have changed and I could re-connect I'm disinclined towards giving anyone from my past another chance. I'm also not really in a great position to put myself out there at the moment, coupled with my cynicism and inability to find others who want to do something other than party/get fucked up. Truth be told while it could be a lot worse and I've put a fair amount of work into myself, I'm really not that attractive of a person in any way. I moved to a new place about 6 years ago after quitting drinking and I haven't made a single friend. To put it into further perspective, I'm still pretty fit (though its starting to slip) in spite of being remarkably average and I haven't had sex with a strange woman in almost 5 years now.
>>25324544I have a therapist????
>>25324544I’m not crazy????? You are, you don’t know anything about anything
>>25324546Does your therapist know what you do here?
Half the time I think some of you are my WiFi sensing boogeyman trying to fuck with me.
>>25324551That’s none of your business????? None of this is ANY of your business and you are the crazy one????? Leave me alone I hate you
>>25324545maybe you're better off alone...
>>25324555Yeah yeah... I can't help it. You ruin these threads for me bc I can't help getting you riled up. I'm not even trying right now. I know a lot about you.
>>25324551You don’t get to pass judgement on my life or call me a headcase???? YOU are the crazy one and nothing you say means anything and you have no insights to offer and no one even wants to hear you and you need to leave forever???????
>>25324558I HATE YOU LEAVE ME ALONE I HATE YOU???????? LEAVE ME ALONE I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU YOU DON’T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ME I
>>25324560If I left forever I bet you'd still be here missing me when I got back.
>>25324563I don’t miss you you are my enemy and you aren’t the one I’m talking about I hate you v forever leave me alone?,?????
>>25324556Maybe you're right, but can you tell me why you think so?I genuinely want to here your thoughts, maybe I can at least have something to reflect on, or at least wrap my head around why I can't change. I'm not trying to be combative, I kind of get it, but I don't know if I can just resign myself to that fate just yet.
Are we frens
>>25324573Sorry, idk. I'll let you know if I figure it out. I think it applies to me too.
>>25324590Yeah, I get it. I think it's just that I can never really reconcile completely why I'm such a failed normal person. Like there are some obvious factors, clearly, but I came so close at times to having it figured out that it's not as simple as it seems. Like if I'd never had any friends, relationships at all or was a virgin it would probably be clearer at this point. And I don't have any obvious mental conditions or defects, yet, I'm just fucked either way. I watch other people interact and go through life and I can tell I'm just lacking the confidence and consistency they have. I also find people seem to not really know how to deal with me and seem to defer to dismissiveness or condescension when conversing with me. Like I find almost every conversation with others strangely patronizing for some reason. I'm probably just a fucking loser. I just wish I knew how to stop being one. I thought being sober for a long time would help but it really hasn't. Maybe I'm just a dry drunk, I dono.
I dreamt that there were tiny, mouse sized versions of all large animals running around. I noticed that this included a tiny dragon which is irrefutable proof that full sized dragons once existed but humans killed them all.
Why do I miss you when all you did was hurt me and make me sad
>>25324614I’m literally fucking him in the ass r/n
>>25324614>>25324615I really don't have a horse in this race but I really think you two should meet
>>25324615I FUCKING HATE YOU STOP LYING AND NEVER RESPOND TO ME AGAIN
>>25324618I never want to meet any of you I hate all of you leave me alone?????
>>25324619don't worry bb girl I'm here, I miss you too but my secret mission is more important than any of us
>>25324623I FUCKING HATE YOU THERE IS NO SECRET MISSION AND I HATE YOU AND YOU AREN’T THE ONE I’M TALKING ABOUT AND YOU NEED TO LEAVE FOREVER AND BE GONE????? I HATE YOU LEAVE ME ALONE
>>25324625Wait for me baby, you're the only thing that keeps me going in this strange hostile place. Gonzales didn't make it, he lost hope and they got him.
>>25324636I HATE YOU FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE THIS ISN’T FUNNY I HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU STOP
>>25323554It seems to me like our perception of time and reckoning of the present seems eerily akin to how we listen to music: when we listen to a song we somehow perceive of the piece in some kind of greater totality, or at the very least we rely on some sense of suspension and anticipation of the notes that have been and the notes being played and the notes that are to come. Our appreciation of its beauty and form hinges on some kind of simultaneous grappling with past, present and future; the slippery flow of temporality beyond the ungraspable and unincarcerated now. Because without this each present articulation of the now would merely be a series of amnesiac tones hovering in the air without referents: the wandering dementia patient in a fugue. Query: Are my memories (and yours) just a melody and harmony of moments arranged? Have they been composed, or are they improvised? And how quickly is the piano falling out of tune?
She sounds cute
I will be attempting to climb a mountain next week.
Everything I do in public lately makes me anxious, embarrassed, and regretful when I get home and think about the day. I've either gotta change my behavior or my mindset.
>>25324661Same, but I feel like everyone else is cooked too and that the problem is becoming intractable.
I hate when I find out when a cute girl is Christian. It's like getting cucked by Jesus.
>>25324701>jesustraining wheels
>>25324614>>25324619>>25324625>>25324638>>25324625Shut the FUCK up Kimberly you DUMB, SELFISH FUCKING BITCH! I'M NOT COMING BACK CUNT! YOU FUCKED UP!
Me IRL
I now have enough money to put towards the life insurance license application. I'm away from home for the weekend however so I'll have to boot up my 'puter on Sunday evening or more likely Monday. That's the very last step. We're all gonna make it bros. God bless you all.
They don't know what causes this.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bat_bomb
We're in the buildingWhere they make us growAnd I'm frightened byThe liquid engineersLike you.
Stop trying to convince me I’m a tranny.
>>25324861Okay, TRANNY, YWNBAW. by the way; Those bolt-ons? Fucking GROSS honestly.
A host of bait threadsToying with retarded shit I mewled on while my brain was turned to mush in a psychotic stuporI swear the scope of his daily agenda is framed by my hysteria.
>>25324707Friendly reminder: Kimberly cheated on you, never loved you, and probably is with some other guy right now. Enjoy dying alone :)
I’m not going to have sex with you.
If you stopped posting KEK porn would you die?
If I truly stopped caring, I don’t know if you’d see something sensitive that would embarrass me or if I’d break out even worse shit.
This banana vape tastes identical to Juicy Fruit gum.
I might have gotten bored eventually, but you’ve kept my attention.
Kwabaroony
Gonna go get my chud ass some pancakes
can we have another nietzsche threadhowbout another ewhore threadactually let's have the same theology threads with the same exact talking points that's better
>>25324934It’s going to take a minute
All narrators are unreliable
A friend lost someone close to him and is now venting in our group chat. I hate having to come up with sympathetic messages since it clashes with my style.Why can't people be emotionally numb like me, I mean its not that hard wtf
>>25324959Send him this gif and say "Why can't you be more like this!"
You and I both know it’s more than that
>>25324934Janny applications are open, anon
>>25324968He already is one
>>25324625What are you talking about anonette? Come back to bed and cuddle with me please.
>>25323554It seems as though 70% of Human Beings turn completely insufferable if they are made to toil to get anything.God forbid one is new at anything, some Old Guy who's been raped in the ass by Older Guys who were themselves raped by some now deceased even Older Guys is going to come out and make the experience miserable because he enoys seeing you suffer.
Just realized I haven't seen any porn on this board in ages.
Real.
>>25324999The Bible addresses this and provides solutions
Chewing my cud.
I wonder if it would be worth my effort/time to make vector and pixel art to go along with my short stories. Partly to help them stand out and partly to give me something to keep working on a project in another way when I feel mental burnt out with writing.Like I am really shit at art so it would be a learning process, but I was absurdly shit at writing until I intentionally practiced regularly. Combining the two means more attention, which means more feedback, which will help me get better faster and motivate me to do bigger projects. That said it could backfire by just adding shit to do on my already stressed mind and limited time.Also would mean really committing to getting comfortable drawing with a mouse. Which I am not looking forward to.
>>25323554I'm struggling to find the purpose of my life.I worked hard on this youtube video for 24 hours, and I have 3 views.I wrote his book, and 4 days later, it has 8 views.I made this game, and it has like 5 plays after a month of release.The few people I talked to daily, have ghosted me for months.Most social interactions I get are making a thread on this site and maybe getting 2-4 replies.So nothing matters.
Everyone on this website is so mean and horrible now and use bad English and are just morally dead and seem to be in a death cult where they want only bad things to happen. I miss pre 2016
>>25325122im guessing they're mad about the megababies and the fact they aren't a megababy
>>25325123I don't know what that is
>>25325125a megababy is a younger person that has a found family with a bunch of adults (generally online) and experiences greater life success and satisfaction as a result of the greater amounts of direct attention and care directed toward them
>>25325131Makes no sense. Stop talking to me.
>>25325122>>25325132lol
>>25323554When I was in high-school my math textbook would always open a lesson with a simple excercise asking you to realize the operation you'll be learning about in that lesson before you learned about it. Naturally you would provide a wrong answer and then continue the lesson. I assume this is because of some didactic value or whatever. I, however, would skip these because I think being forced to conduct a task you are set up to fail in is pointless and would only make me feel bad.
>>25325122Look at where you are in, the place we all are in. This is a penal colony turned into a death camp
>>25324999We love hazing and we love hurting people more than we do getting the job done. Human shit, my laborers eat, and I like to rub their noses in it
I actually have a wide breadth of knowledge I dont even know I know and have not written down that I know. So i forget i’m not stupid, and often find myself surprised people dont know this stuff
I literally live on the same fucking world they live on. Wake up, brush teeth, eat breakfast, leave house, jump in car, leave driveway, red light, green light, red light, green light, red light, green light, red light, green light, RED LIGHT, GREEN LIGHT, RED LIGHT, GREEN LIGHT, work, work, work, work, work, work, work, work, WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK, leave work, red light, green light, red light, green light, red light, green light, red light, green light, RED LIGHT, GREEN LIGHT, RED LIGHT, GREEN LIGHT, make it home, jerk off or fuck if you somehow have a partner, go to sleep, repeat. HOW ARE THEY HAPPY WITH THIS?
>>25323554I hold the (wrong) view that I have impeccable self-control. No one else thinks I do, but that is because they think my constant faux pas are a product of me not being able to control myself, while I consider the fact I haven't stubbornly ruined my life over pointless nonsene or gratuitous violence (as I constantly have an impulse of doing) an achievement.I wonder how much of a difference being aware of oneself's inner machinations affects self-perception. Much, I assume.
>>25325151Not going apeshit is indeed a victory
Them don’t understand them don’t understand them don’t understand true vulture my man
>>25325122I want everyone to be happy and fulfilled forever but I can't accomplish that nor can any of us. I'm not smart enough to write happy things and make them interesting enough for people to engage with, so it seems the only value I can provide is to try and criticize bad things and recommend good when relevant. Sometimes I look at cute drawings of happy animals and cry because it's an impossible ideal, at least for this world. I also post self indulgent bait and bickering too much, and if I'm being brutally honest I am too damaged a person to ever really fit in with a community as happy and gentle as the kind I dream of.Also what >>25325144 said.
THEM DON’T UNDERSTAND THEM DON’T UNDERSTAND THEM DON’T UNDERSTAND TRUE VULTURE MY MANGONNA BRING THE SUBCULTURE, GET RANTHROUGH LIKE THE HOLE IN YOUR HEAD
>>25325122Such is the price of anonymity. Letting people be 100% honest with no consequences is both a curse and a blessing.
i want to be more than a civilizational dead end
I stayed up all night and am not going to be able to get any sleep today and I have to go into work at 10 PM.
Atlas by BattlesGenres: Experimental Rock, Math RockIndustrial Rock, Avant-Prog, Dance-Punk Revival, Dance-Punk, Math Pop, Krautrock, Neo-Psychedelia
Going to hang out with some girls later. Let's see if this gives me some good stuff to talk about.
>>25325191This article seems predictable, at first glance.
>>25325245Yeah it's pretty much just a list of right-wing personalities
>>25325112(You)I'm sorry to hear all that, anon. Which of those did you enjoy the most?
I might try and spend the entire weekend at the downtown library. I'll be the guy reading Pynchon, Wallace Stevens, and Murakami if anyone wants to join me and say hello!
There's something about my facial aesthetics that makes me a 9.5/10 specifically to Hispanic women. Someone should do some kind of study on it. If only I had the same effect on white girls or I was more into Latinas.
do you think sonic ever cries about the fact his fists don't have spikes on them?
I need to work for a large corporation. Small businesses just screw you over personally rather than systematically.
>>25325292>*shoots you five times in five different nonvital areas with a brand new Seekins SP10M, leaving you to bleed out slowly since all service personal is occupied with a fake bomb threat I called in earlier*
>>25325305Fuck off, Shadow.
Gonna graduate today and all I can think about is how big some of my female classmates butts are.
I don’t believe you
>>25325323Nah you fuck off. You are not even good enough to be my fake!
>>25323595I dont have any visualization whatsoever. so, i dont fucking know.Sure wish I did. My mom told me she "sees a book like a movie" as she's reading. Must be nice.
>>25323595I avoid visualizing the characters and settings and I prefer writers who so the same. They should be shifting with mood and we should be dealing primarily in ideas and thoughts
>>25325281I enjoyed all of them the same amount. Which wasn't that much. I enjoyed the sense of accomplishment.
>hazingWhat? I’m now a member of a fancy kekoldry club or something?
do you think the schizophrenia code language can be properly understood?
>>25325375What is this in reference to
>>25325331What a minute you’re not filming your own mind movie?
>>25325383Yes, schizophrenia is simply an overload of mental associations, everyone has some, some have many, all does have meaning
the man who plants a seed builds a village at the same time
>>25325390So he multitasks who cares
>>25325389has anyone... has anyone done it?>>25325394it's just a taylor swift soundcheck
drinking beer, listening to Nine Inch Nails
>>25325399Yes, for individual schizophrenics. They dont all speak the same language
I choose this path, how can it be hard?
>>25325411>They dont all speak the same languageunless this is the kind of thing where every schizophrenia is different or incommensurable, i should hope that there is some kind of generality undergirding everything. if not, i'd still just focus my attention on the specific coded language delusion
Is there a way to stop suicidal thoughts?
>>25325473NTA but your best but is probably studying Corpus Linguistics and somehow gathering a huge dataset of schizophrenic writing from various individuals.I was interested in the question your asking for awhile (probably from a different angle) but moved onto something else.The generality is sorta covered in this book.
>>25325496
>>25325497>probably from a different anglewhat angle? if you wanna share. i mean i kind of have in mind something like indexical ordering but with higher order communicating socio organizational imperatives... but that is kind of beyond the pale for me. and also like you said i'd most likely need data which i don't really have much access to
>>25325496doing something you enjoy and/or having a goal
>>25325473i mean if you are serious about it you should read psychology papers
>>25325497what did you learn from this book?i have schizophrenia so i'm interested
>>25325504>indexical ordering but with higher order communicating socio organizational imperativeI don't know what that means unfortunately.You know how with synesthesia the senses and perception become mixed and sometimes you see colours when listening to music, or smells can give you tactile sensations?My theory is that the part of your brain in moral decisions are took can become intertwined with sense and perception the same way it does with synesthesia. Especially if you've had to change core belief systems throughout the brains development. Like being told a dove is gods symbol of peace and thinking that every time you see a dove then having to go to the mind of one who just sees the dove as an animal without the moralistic storytelling aspect attached to it. Or if the belief system that you were raised within had some form of transcendence in it even though the belief is gone the mind may still be aiming towards some form of transcendence without being within that religious story structure anymore. Which can lead to psychotic thinking as the mind craves ascendence but with nothing to ascend to it just starts inventing randomness. Or having a desire which is impossible to fulfil (unrequited love for example) you may start to fulfil it in imagination and then lose contact with reality as reality doesn't shift into the emotions you've experienced through the imagination. So there's the disconnect between the feelings your body and mind have felt without the events actually occuring in reality. That's where the hallucinations take place since like with synesthesia there's some cross wiring in the brain in parts that are usually separate.So it's not an excess of dopamine like some psychiatrist seems to believe but neurons firing together with connections which which should be redundant due to new belief system but the brain doesn't adapt to new beliefs.None of this is properly scientific though and I've dropped it. Kinda hard to properly explain something I lost interest in 4 years ago or so.Basically I think they'd understand schizophrenia and psychosis way better if they start studying synesthesia properly.Hopefully you understand some of that if it even makes any sense.
I'm banned from making threads right now
>>25325562Good.*spits in your direction*
>>25325540I've only read the introduction. I should probably read the entire thing since I recommend it so often. But it's quite long and my interest is elsewhere now.I do recommend it though if your schizophrenic. I think the author in his introduction mentions that one of the risks when your mad is describing your madness through the lense of a 21st century psychiatrist, which I agree with him is a bad way to view yourself but that's often how schizophrenia and all that is discussed. This book gives an alternative but reasonable perspective on madness, if it doesn't remadden you during the process of reading it.
>>25325546oh, yeah, i get that. i think i am still arguing about a college paper i had to write once
>>25325566I'm putting up 5 frogs as soon as I am able
>>25325569i dont think you know what the word madness means. schizophrenia is just a mental condition you learn to live with. if you knew anything about life you'd know real lunatics are outside the asylum.
>>25325505I haven't had a goal since I graduated highschool.
>>25325603you can make one up
>>25324396Parmenides speaks of this in his poem. He doesn’t say to shun the sensory world but to “correctly evaluate” (Dokimos) or believe in it. You just have to accept that the world of change is a minor part of a different whole.
>>25325607whats your goal friend?Inspire a nigga
>>25324894Why not?
Its taken probably 10 years but I'm swinging back around to being a plain center-left liberal.
>>25325663finally realized communism is fucking dumb? yeah it's part of growing up.
>>25325666No, I understood that when I was about 21.
>>25324892You act as if I wasn't fully aware of that and already well over it, LMAO! Nice try, whore.
when i listen to pothead music i want to smoke the fuck out of some weed but when i actually smoke it's kinda mid i just lie in bed paranoid as hell or brain on a loop like meh
going to bed is my favorite part of the day in fact i might just get in bed rn idc
>>25325676The fact that you keep bringing that shit up and seething in rage about it proves you’re far from over it. She’s living rent free in your head. Sad!
You’re mentally ill, not me.
>>25325695based
>>25325704No one said you were mentally ill?
>>25325699Didn't read. Stop posting the same shit in every single fucking thread and I won't have to reply to your pathetic ass.Fucking disgusting gay boy.
>>25325699You're MAD, lmao.
>>25325712Rent. Free.
Uh let's see what do I got here *rifles through memories*When I was 3 years old my 5-year old older brother was killed by a drunk driver at a school boss stop in Jupiter Beach, Florida. I'm told I was brought before a therapist to handle the possible trauma and the answer was something like 'it is impossible to estimate the effect of this at such an immature state'. Some decades later, my self-diagnosis - initial incident to catastrophic issue of total distrust across the board. Life will kill anyone and people can be just as cruel. It is not 'rejection sensitive dysphoria', to live is to be a reject. Actually I also remember my mother offered up once that she 'doesn't know' if my brother was walking in the road or not when he died, she said something like 'i'll never know if he was in the road or not when it happened' but I was told there was a chaperone at the time? Was this information possible or did she just not want to ask?
it's got nothing to do with you if one can grasp it
>>25325748You pushed him.
>>25325614I gave up on mine. I'm sorry but I can only blackpill now.
>>25325753Wasn't there but I'd take it. I'm known to be pushy or push people away
My mama said to get things doneYou'd better not mess with Major Tom
/int/ has me banned on sight
>>25325773
>>25325597>real lunatics are outside the asylum.Not entirely true. Since the hospital staff are in the asylum too.
>>25325770I've never done good thingsI've never done bad thingsI've never done anything out of the blue
>>25325773>who didn't want him banned?Come back when it's a board that matters
Should I go read at the coffee shop tomorrow?
What is it about 4chan that attracts all the miserable losers of the world? You're apparently ALL physically and emotionally abused, mentally ill, socially awkward virgin nerds with no money or resources whatsoever who come from dysfunctional mentally ill families that all fucking despise each other and your lives are ALL apparently soooo hard and difficult and devoid of any and all growth or opportunities or happiness at ALL TIMES and you all seem to have NUMEROUS massive fucking chips on your shoulders about any myriad of different things on a daily basis to the point of developing (joyfully I might add) rabid ideological beliefs.People like to always say "x board isn't one person" or "4chan isn't one person" but the vast majority of you motherfuckers all sound exactly alike and spout the exact same cookiecutter bullshit that everyone else here automatically defaults to spouting in ANY AND ALL conversation, discussion or argument.Is it the anime? Does the entire "fandom" of anime just naturally attract dysfunctional, jobless, relationship-less, dishygenic fucking lunatics? I can have a specific given conversation about just about any subject imaginable on this website and can almost predict with at LEAST 97% accuracy; the kinds of abjectly miserable, vicious, angry and resentful (and sexually obsessed to the point of derangement!) responses I'm liable to recieve at any given moment. Why are you ALL like this? There's VERY LITTLE to no variation at all in the general feel and attitude of any given post anywhere on this website.>Fuck you! Anime website! Go to reddit!Answer the fucking question.
Thoughts from my workout today:>hour one-ok i started late but it wont get too hot today it should be fine-random pissing rain out of nowhere. actually felt quite nice-passed several people out doing something or other on the trail I was on. they said something like 'how much farther?' and I fumbled the reply since it caught me off guard. they probably think I'm autistic (they're correct)-genuinely think long gentle incline hills suck harder mentally than big steep ones. only time I thought about quitting and going home was during a half mile long gentle incline that kept going up and up and up-[briefly exit my body]>hour two-I retract my earlier statement-FUCK the big hill out here never gets easier I was genuinely panting and moaning like someone just beat the shit out of me after getting to the top-now to go all the way down to complete the loop shouldn't be too bad since its all downhill-never mind it's steep as shit I'm gonna die if I roll my ankle and it's too steep to slow down-[complete blur]-ok nice I made it to the bottom now just the weird long straightaway to finish the loop-damn this thing is way longer than I remember-holy shit am I there yet?-if I could be any animal I would want to be a bird, like a dove or a raven or something>hour three-ok now just to climb the big hill part of the way to make up the time for the last hour-in terms of causes, the past is what propels the present into the future, by creating the conditions which unwind through the present. but in phenomenological terms, the future is experienced coming towards us, becoming the present for an instant, then rushing behind us into the past. maybe all I can really say that I am, phenomenologically speaking, is that instant in which the future becomes the present and has not yet receded behind me, and all memory and all the future are beyond my knowing in truth even if they seem logically accessible-I have disconnected from my body and it is moving on its own as I simply watch-nice I climbed the big hill again lets go back down and go home-avoided the mud and puddles the whole time just to stumble and step right in one and splash it all over myself. nice>>25325916gb2reddit
>>25325916cuz anyone normal would just be on instagram posting pics from the beach or on linkedin talking about their latest promotion/cetification/whatever. you really couldn't figure this out?
>>25325924>Instagram is real lifeYou really consider "everyone normal" to be a member of the cream of the crop top 1% of human beings, huh?
>>25325925>u need to be in the top 1% to post on instagraminstagram has 500 million daily active users, there are 8 billion ppl on earth which makes instagram users 16% of humans.
>>25325916This isn't a place for people like you. I find it amusing that you continue to post here when this is so blatantly obvious.
>>25325925everyone at my gym has instagram except one chick who's in law enforcement or sth so has to keep a low profile and me cuz i have autism.
Top 31. I wish I never lived2. I wish I was dead3. I wish I lived alone
>>25325938It's hilarious to me that you immediately default to this because I can guarantee I've used this website longer than you.
>>25325940I don't believe that at all. You're a fucking liar.
>>25325943whatever you say bro
I accept your concession
>>25325916>What is it about 4chan that attracts all the miserable losers of the world?The website made us this way.Chicken and egg
>>25325947touch grass dude god damn
>>25325921>>25325924>>25325930>>25325938Uh-oh! Insta-melty! Just as I anticipated! No answers, just seethe! You people are so predictable.
>>25325962k
>>25325962>No answers, just seethe!this literally answers it>>25325924but keep humble bragging about being a normie dude we believe u
>Write Your Thoughts >NOOOOOOO, NOT LIKE THAT!!! YOU DON'T BELONG HERE, REEEEEEEEE!!!!Interesting.
Yall fellas sure get feisty on a saturday night. Im guessing your plans didnt pan out, huh?
>>25325969KEK. They're SOOO fucking easy to piss off!
>>25325973>KEK. They're SOOO fucking easy to piss off!
>>25325916Notice how simply pointing this out sends them into a frothing rage? The answer is that they're comfortable in their misery and don't ever want to be called out on it.Think of it as a sort of hugbox situation. Digital crab bucket if you will. They enjoy being miserable.
>>25325980>N-no! I-I'm NOT mad! LMAO
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MZR3LXuvbNUhell ya new oh sees album dropped
>>25325990Worthless, ear-raping noise.
I wanna try gay sex
>>25326033The Proust thread is up.Try asking there.
>>25326038You owned that fag kekaroo
>in today's moneyman that's a depressing phrase to hear used about a time when u were alive.
There is a mod being a generalized schizophrenic wackjob all day every day in the science fiction threads and you'll get banned instantly for criticizing/insulting xir.You've been warned.
>>25326038LMAO
>>25325916tits or gtfo imagine getting mad because a bunch of child abuse victims and schizophrenics don't have a sufficiently goku gettem attitude LOL>>25325981If you aren't trolling (i laughed regardless so ty) you are dumb>>25326058Everybody gets old, sadly
>>25326111Mad as FUCK lmao
>>25326137Keep saying it and it might become true
>subscribe to a bunch of retarded women on substack to get some traction>"sub and I'll sub ;) show me your le work">nothing
>>25326146People actually read substacks?
>>25326176good ones by subject matter experts, not ones by random whos
>>25326176Nearly none are worth reading at all, only reason I made a substack is because I needed some place to publish an article I wrote and where people might read it, I have no interest in writing more beyond this
>>25325044I have a very long way to go. Might do a set of art tutorials to grind up basic competency and create reusable assets that are all my own so I don't have to worry about licenses n shit. Once I got that far I will make cover art for each short story I complete. Then after that will try my hand at a few web comics and see how that goes.
You know my niggas, it is so fucking sad that whenever I am around my family I am sad piece of shit, miserable, pityable, silent and dead, but when I am drunk by myself, I live life, live it to the fullest and feel great. yeah i am a piece of shit. and you can change me., fuck
>>25325942You wished you never met another person. And I agree.
>>25326274>>25326281Any form of interaction is fun, you cause me nothing but misery and stress.
Every last awful thing I said to you was done out of entrapment.
>>25326301Many such cases. Do better next time.
>>25326298yOU ARE a fuckinFG NIGGA an i HOE YOU FUCKING DIE
So what anime should I watch
>>25326334Tsukihime
What do you guys think about the concept of dedicating yourself to something really unsustainable? For instance, surfing, writing, making music, skateboarding, being an artist etc. Would you rather be someone who dedicates themself to one or a couple of those things and inevitably kamikazes their life, or would you rather be a person who takes very little risk but lives comfortably and safely?
>>25326337Sure, after that?
>>25326334If you want something recent, I personally liked Sentenced To Be A Hero from the last season. It starts a little slow but the cast is fun. If you want a classic, I think Legend of the Galactic Heroes suits the temperament of the average /lit/ poster well. Also a bit of a slow burn, but the novel series it was based on was written by an autist obsessed with war history and it shows. Huge cast, but they're all unique and fun in their own ways. If you want something more modern and fun in a trainwreck kinda way, watch Code Geass.
>>25326338I think the person who simply does everything recreationally is the happiest.
>Watching animgay
>>25326341I’ve watched the last two, but I’ll watch the former.
>>25326334Lupin the Third
>>25326343That in itself is a kind of tragedy, no? That's like never experiencing love. For men especially, finding something they want to dedicate their life to is even more meaningful than love. If you dont have a kind of uncontrollable fervor for something, youre in a bad spot IMO. Obviously, if youre uncontrollably passionate about being a father or something, that's probably best, but that is not how most men are built. Most passions are destructive.
>>25326343Of course this statement true. Ever doubting this will only make you sad.
>>25326378so why try to find a woman that loves you? that will only ever make you sad too.
>>25326281The other guy wasn’t me. I don’t know why I post shit like I did. Anyway I like your response. Serenity now.
shaved my pubes todayan incredible mistakeitching without end
Men shouldn't shave their body hair
>>25326406It feels nice right until cock o clock shadow kicks in.
>>25326412I had a whole jungle growing down there. It looked kinda gross. I figured, what's the worst that could happen?
>>25326423Dick still looks like a baby carrot, doesn't it?
time for the NEW>>25326438>>25326438>>25326438NEWparsifal at the met edition
>>25325916Because the globalists incentivize dysfunction and punish ambition.
>>25326488>le globalist jewish overlords!That's your answer for everything.
>>25325916The successful people just don't post about it, that's all. The times I had a gf or multiple fwbs, I didn't mention it here. Now that I don't, I do occasionally. Simple as that I think.
Yellow Ledbetter is the only good Pearl Jam song. I sure wish Eddie Vedder would take those fucking marbles out of his mouth.
>>25326491It's demonstrably true. Try actually doing something, even if I simply try to be self-sustaining I'm shut down by legislation designed to favour the global markets. As soon as I had the tiniest semblance of success I was punished hard for it while my friends from school on welfare for made up mental illness are rewarded for absolutely refusing to even try to do anything.
>>25326513No fucking clue what you're babbling on about here.
>>25326517You have no clue about anything and never will even when spoonfed so just stop posting.
>>25326513Embarrassing.
>>25326513Alright, I'll bite. What supposed "legislation" stopped YOU specifically from being "self-sufficient"?
>>25326522Where I live it's illegal not to pay myself minimum wage which means I have to be profitable instead of just producing enough to feed myself.Meanwhile the global competition pays its employees less than a dollar a day which makes it impossible for me to be profitable.
>>25326526.... So you own a business?
>>25326526>Where I live it's illegal not to pay myself minimum wage which means I have to be profitable instead of just producing enough to feed myself.You mean for your own business? Yeah, that's not correct... also what the hell are you talking about?
>>25326528No but it doesn't matter.>>25326529>Yeah, that's not correctTell that to the tax man who took my house.>what the hell are you talking about?>I don't grasp anything on any level but I'm still gonna tell you you're wrong.
>>25326535So it sounds more like you didn't pay your taxes.
>>25326535>No but it doesn't matterThen what the FUCK are you fucking bitching about? Are you fucking autistic?
>>253259424. I wish it was the 60s I wish we could be happy
Asia is obviously the primary and most native continent of this world, because every other continent cannot agree on what Asia IS. No other continent’s boundaries are in dispute, therefore Asia supersedes the notion of a continent and most resembles Pangaea land, by virtue of its continued irresolution in the continental paradigm. Which is to say, you live on an asteroid.
I want to beat and rape children.
I wanna know everythingI wanna be everywhere
