>>25343251
kill yourself.

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Been up all night. Took an edible anyways #YOLO

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Resuming the Giger posting.

Holy shit man, I need to stop being such a gooner.

it's pretty much impossible to find someone to date online isn't it, if you really want some results you have to make the effort to approach them in real life; ffs

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>>25343267
Dude I haven't jacked it for like 5 days.
>>25343269
Eh.

>>25343272
Not jacking is one thing but watching porn is another.

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So pretty.

Bret Easton Ellis podcast is great

>>25343276
here's my thinkpiece on ts:
if taylor swift had big knockers her female audience (ie her entire audience) would be twenty times smaller.

>>25343288
ok i tried it and it started ok but after like two minutes it said "subscribe to unlock" nah not paying for a podcast lol next time buy an ad guy

>>25343256
man i would blaze hella trees rn got the day off beautiful but i have to train bjj tonight maybe after yeah def after

I've lost the motivation to exercise beyond sometimes going for a long hike and the occasional bike ride. I tried to go running this morning and quit after 10 minutes. I just can't find the motivation anymore. I just can't lie to myself that I care; I have no social life whatsoever, I get no play, and everything else in my life is in shambles.
I used to run around 35-50 km a week-strenuous trail runs at that-but I'm just too out of shape and demotivated now after months off. The strange pussy glory from about 5 years ago kept me going for a long time, because let's face it, no matter what we tell ourselves, that's always the primary motivation; but that's all worn off now. It's amazing how much just a little bit of pussy or even the realistic chance of it can push you.
Now I'm gaining weight and I don't know if I can stop this trend. Hopefully I level off somewhere before 180 pounds. At least I'm still not drinking or anything.
Anyone else going through this shit? It fucking blows.

>>25343306
it's only like 6 bucks for a whole month, worth it

>>25343328
nah i can never really let myself get too out of shape, but i do get how realizing u aren't going to be getting any pussy can kill motivation. i stopped caring about money. as long as i have enough to pay my bills, idc. like u could buy a lux condo downtown, a tesla, go on european vacations every three months, and yeah, one might get some crumbs of pussy, but is it really worth it? i just throw any excess cash in a brokerage account, and don't bother looking for higher paying jobs. who cares.

>>25343331
>paying anything to listen to some b-tier author ramble about "culture" for 90 minutes
dude get real i can watch lectures from nyu, stanford, and berkeley for free online.

>>25343337
yeah I agree none of that what I view to be superficial or posturing forms of self-improvement shit are really worth it. I don't want to get escorts either, it's just a band-aid solution and feels like way too much of a risk on so many levels and awkward as all hell. I'm just not paying for it, no fucking way.
I just can't determine whether the less cardio-intensive shit I'm doing will allow me to level off at a weight I can accept. Maybe I just need to be scared of getting fat again and that will get me off my ass, I dono. I'm still at a decent weight but it has been slowly creeping up over the last few months since I stopped running. I was definitely at too low of a weight before for my health or for what can be realistically maintained, so I guess we'll see. The next 6 months will inevitably determine a lot, no matter what I do or think.

>>25343344
if I could find some torrents for it I wouldn't have paid for it but I just like his shit so that's the case for me; also I'm not interested in any lectures from nyu, stanford etc.

>>25343354
if ur just thinking about weight and not overall health. u can always change ur diet.

>>25343363
well yeah no shit, changing my diet and exercising is how I lost 80 pounds in the first place. I guess I should have said that I've been eating more and struggling with that, but I wouldn't say I've really been overeating or eating really unhealthy either. I'm in this weird gray area where I knew I needed to put on a few pounds, so I slacked off a bit on my exercise and allowed myself more food, etc.
I've just realised in the past month or so that I just can't put myself through hour-long plus runs anymore to offset some of the extra eating. I still fast a lot in the mornings until noon or so usually, but I tend to snack and eat a pretty big dinner.
Hopefully I'm just approaching a more reasonable and realistic weight and I think that might be the case but I need some more time to determine that. It's what happened when I was younger and stayed off the booze but that was ten years ago and I'm not sure how much my metabolism may have slowed since then, kind of hard to gauge.

>>25343382
80 pounds wow i hope ur tall, lol. even tho i'm old i may be at my most ripped ever, i can see my abs without even flexing, even in my 20s i wasn't in this shape, but nobody but other men in the gym locker room see it so it's not like it's good for anything except my own vanity when i dance around my room in my underwear. i think it's just cuz i'm not that into food. i eat like the same stuff every single day. i hate anything that fucks with my routine.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFB31_8V6Ms
woah i never knew the chick from sneaker pimps was british south asian? she looks so fucking hot. i will never have a hot indian gf in the 90s. actually this egyptian girl at my job who looks like that gave me her number, but she's too hot and triggers shyness, so no way in hell i'm calling. damn i hate myself sometimes lol.

>>25343400
SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU RETARDED SPAMMER

>>25343328
have you considered cocaine (or ozempic)?

>>25343395
>80 pounds wow i hope ur tall
yeaah, I wish. I'm only 5 foot 8: it's rough. I went from 230 to 150 at my lowest and now I'm at about 165.
I've done this to myself too many times-my weight has fluctuated between somewhere around 160 - 200+ pounds at least 3-4 times in my life, my heart is probably trashed a bit, lol.
Though when I was at the peak of my running I used to have a resting heart rate at around 40 beats per minute, that was kind of cool, but yeah, that's all in the past now. I really just hope I do something about this before I get over 180 again.

>>25343403
yeah that guys awful lmao
you know he’s like 40?

>>25343406
no retard, that shit is bogus and unnecessary and for weak-minded fools.
not to mention I hate cokeheads with a burning passion, literally some of the worst people on the planet, have known and seen way too many people ruin their lives with that shit, and people are so fucking annoying when they're on it it's not even funny

>>25343409
lol how do you know how old he is, did he tell you or something?

>>25343411
oh wow you really are 5’8.

>>25343416
talks about it all the time.

>>25343417
wow you really are a cocksucking cokehead faggot

>>25343423
rattled.

>>25343328
I prefer to go on walks. And my weight loss has been successful by cutting down on my eating, but I have a fast metabolism.

I need to reread Hamlet.

>>25343426
at least I don't have to do blow to stay skinny anon
but yes thank you for another good faith response like recommending people do cocaine as a way of regulating weight, you clearly don't have any mental deficiencies at all
you're not as funny as you think you are anon, when's the last time you had any pussy either, be honest?

>>25343437
caaaalm down.

>>25343440
shut the fuck up virgin

>>25343448
alright enough of this now
all the best with the weight loss hope you win

>>25343451
yeah, yeah, hope you learn to do something more productive with your time other than take cheap shots and provoke people on a taiwanese basket weaving forum
it's just really sad that you're just another with this kind of m.o., but you'll see where that all ends eventually when you beak off the wrong person in real life one day
hopefully you smarten up before that.

>>25343427
That's dope, I'm hoping the long walks and focusing a bit more on smaller meals will help me. Sadly my metabolism is pretty average, as far as I can tell. Could be worse though.

>>25343429
I did last year, really enjoyed it. Shakespeare just gets better and better with age.

>>25343460
Are you really accusing him of mental deficiency after going on a paragraph-long zero-basis fanfiction attack?

>>25343481
i don't give a shit, this is 4chan
everyone here is fucked in the head

>>25343492
>makes a total retard of himself
>gets called out
>well, I don't care!
>still replying
Lol, I really do love the mentally ill

I don't get the appeal of musicals at all. I don't mind artists that are homosexual as long as they are not pederasts as well, but I never could stomach flamboyant faggotry.

Art is that which is apt.

>>25343506
bro, he got offended because I called out cokeheads for being the insufferable cunts that they are, and then attacked my height ad-hominem to imply that that has anything to do with my reasoning for that, and not just my experience of dealing with aggro, irrational retards who can't control their behavior
yeah, im the one that's mentally ill, sure
retard

>>25343520
I think he just reacted to you immediately getting mad after a six word reply.

>>25343530
yeah I have issues with cocaine due to a lot of personal experience watching it ruin people I care about and people at parties, etc picking fights with me on it and being generally insufferable
also it's just a shitty thing to do to suggest people start doing it for any reason, even if it is on this shitty website
not that I'm going to fall for that shit anyway, but I'm still gonna call out stupid shit that isn't even remotely funny.
you also cared enough to reply too so whatever, I'm tired of this cuntiness on all of our parts, but that's what you get these days for being remotely vulnerable and honest about yourself and some of your characteristics
I'm gonna go read something or go for a drive instead, have a nice day

>>25343520
>dealing with aggro, irrational retards who can't control their behavior
i know the feeling

>>25343543
yeah I get fired up sometimes but at least I own it
it's not like it's just me

I just wanna fuck

>>25343541
>go for a drive
Go for a run.

>>25343559
i did earlier, for ten minutes, which is also longer than you've ever lasted having sex.
i fucked the last strange chick for over half an hour straight the second time we banged, just another fun fact about me
ama

>>25343543
Kek.

I am an unremarkable, inert man who happens to be filled with resentful rage.

>>25343564
>ama
what’s it like being 5’8?
i’m kidding, enjoy your day. don’t stress about the calories you’re a growing boy!

>>25343579
it's like being 68 inches tall and still having a bigger dick than you
what's it like being gay anon? just kidding, i have no idea and never will and don't want to

>>25343596
don’t text and drive.

>>25343265
Double cheeked up on a thursday afternoon, hella ass, the sun is still out my incomprehensible Hybrid of man and machine.

I'm kind of baffled by this ultra romanticized image of the ottoman empire that western liberals have developed in the recent years.

>>25343708
Turkish state sponsored propaganda, unironically

The obsessive spirit that lives in my marrow and feeds on its home has decided that today I get to have the image of ferocious shitting fixed in my mind. "Image" doesn't paint the picture truly, I mean its taunting is complemented by a ghost of the sensation of having your insides squeezed clean by a spasm, to send flying an oily, almost laminar flowing stream of fermented have-been meals towards all coordinates. I pace towards the stall and it does not fade. It's clearly not a mirage but it feels like it and I can not be relived, until when? My legs are bloodless and prickled by FM station noise. I look down and mistake the white porcelain for myself. I can not be relieved

>>25343429
Me too
But first the taming of the shrew

>>25343507
I don't either, although I like opera. I think 'musical music' is just inherently gay.

>>25343328
>exercising solely to become attractive to women
NGMI. Find something more durable to orient your life towards.

>And they are smiling, the arena floor slamming under the All-stars and the fans grinning hideously over their official merchandise. Towering over them all is Tay Tay and she is smiling, her big lips lively and quick and practiced and stretching at the ladies, huge and plastic and empty, like and enormous mannequin. She never fakes, she says. She says she's just like you. She bows to the fans and sashays backwards and throws back her head and smiles red on the lips and she is a great favorite, Tay Tay. She sways her hair and the straightened locks of her skull pass glimmering under the lights and she swings about and sings about one of her exes and she moans and it's two exes, three exes, four and five exes at once. Her lips are light and nimble. She never fakes. She says that she's just like you. She smiles in light and in shadow and she is a great favorite. She never fakes, Tay Tay. She is smiling, smiling. She says that she's just like you.

>>25343730
Opera isn't faggy like musicals are, though.

>>25343772
KEK

>>25343750
yeah cope harder bud, I used to try to tell myself the same thing
anyone who says they are going to the gym or working on their fitness for anything outside of dating is so full of shit it isn't even funny.
go long enough without pussy and attention and you will give up too, just you watch

>>25343772
HAHAHAHAHAH KINO

>>25343843
I mainly go because I've been an obese faggot all my life and getting stronger and less fat has made me feel the best, physically, I ever have. I would like to find a woman and love again but if it doesn't happen I'll have almost all the motivation I currently do.

>>25343851
I'm not the guy you're responding to btw I'm just tired of that meme. Not all of us are pussyslaves.

>>25343851
Yeah, meh. I'm still far from fat again and I've kept the weight off this time for over five years. I'm just not in a position to date either and haven't really tried lately.
I wasn't getting laid while I was fat and the motivation to get skinny again was there because it had brought me success again before losing weight. Then I lost it again and got laid, so it affirmed my motivation. Yeah the feeling better physically and mentally are nice perks but it's really hard to keep it going without some kind of real reward/success from it.
I really hope you can put your money where your mouth is but on some underlying level you are probably being driven by the belief that getting in shape can bring you a form of romantic success, let's just be honest. Again, I hope it works out for you. I hope I find the motivation to at least chase again too, because it really sucks feeling like it's all hopeless and in vain at this point.

>>25343870
*after losing weight

I've spent several hundreds on my library arranged book by book as I've read them. I've concluded I'm a fucking idiot who wasted his life. Literacy is wasted on me. I'm very tempted to dump all these books in a box and drop them at a thrift store before finishing myself. At my age there's nothing recoverable about any of this

>>25343855
If you aren't gay or asexual than trying to convince yourself/anyone that you don't want pussy on some level is just disingenuous anon. Just fucking admit it.

>>25343870
Sure, but I honestly doubt that I'll even be more attractive after I'm done since I've started going bald and I'll have a lot of loose skin. It sounds like you just don't have much motivation in your life at all desu.

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>spirit/soul
>look inside
>it's actually the mind

>>25343882
No, you're wrong and retarded as evidenced by thinking that "asexual" as a discrete category is real. And I never said I didn't want it, I said that it's a small and secondary part of what motivates me to work out.

>>25343882
Nah I was raised right.

>>25343884
You haven't looked hard enough
>>25343879
Why not hang out with us a while longer? It isn't going to hurt anything. Everyone dies eventually.

>>25343251
There's the normal books..

And then there's the books that will make you think you are the moral and physical iteration of a 17th Century French nobleman or even an ancient pastoral herdsman who survived until modernity through sheer luck alone.

Until recently I was persuaded by that idea, with many facts to back it up, but now I have an even better idea.

>>25343891
>You haven't looked hard enough
where are you supposed to look?
i think if you ruminate on that question long enough, you will find that it is you who hasn't looked hard enough

>>25343887
yeah I was gonna put it in quotations in my original comment because I think it's bs but I figured you'd get triggered
but you did anyway, looool

>>25343889
so you don't like pussy? are you some kind of faggot or something? what's it like having two dads

>>25343887
you can tell yourself whatever you want anon, but your subconscious knows better

bjj is gay

taking a large shit and drinking a warm cup of coffee is a highlight of the day for me

>>25343576
Are you the 5’8 chubby guy?

>>25343897
I've been ruminating on it since I was a kid, I read blindsight and excerpts from Being No One and freaked out and almost accepted the reddit atheist eliminativist position, then I realized that empiricism makes no fucking sense to apply to *subjectivity itself* and that me my soul, distinct from the neuromeat and memory surrounding it, always is and always is there. There *can be* no second or third party counter evidence to the soul, as only the soul perceives itself directly.

If you have any suggestions for how to experience being nothing I'm open to them. I haven't and won't try lsd but everything I've read about that kind of "ego death" seems irrelevant to what I'm talking about.

>>25343750
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>>25343855
>>25343882
>>25343887
>>25343889
>>25343905
"This is one of the chief causes of physical degeneration in our towns. The young people, prematurely exhausted, remain small, puny, and misshapen, they grow old instead of growing up, like a vine forced to bear fruit in spring, which fades and dies before autumn."

The true course of nature is slower and more gradual. Little by little the blood grows warmer, the faculties expand, the character is formed. The wise workman who directs the process is careful to perfect every tool before he puts it to use; the first desires are preceded by a long period of unrest, they are deceived by a prolonged ignorance, they know not what they want. The blood ferments and bubbles; overflowing vitality seeks to extend its sphere. The eye grows brighter and surveys others, we begin to be interested in those about us, we begin to feel that we are not meant to live alone; thus the heart is thrown open to human affection, and becomes capable of attachment."

"I have always observed that young men, corrupted in early youth and addicted to women and debauchery, are inhuman and cruel; their passionate temperament makes them impatient, vindictive, and angry; their imagination fixed on one object only, refuses all others; mercy and pity are alike unknown to them; they would have sacrificed father, mother, the whole world, to the least of their pleasures. A young man, on the other hand, brought up in happy innocence, is drawn by the first stirrings of nature to the tender and affectionate passions; his warm heart is touched by the sufferings of his fellow-creatures; he trembles with delight when he meets his comrade, his arms can embrace tenderly, his eyes can shed tears of pity; he learns to be sorry for offending others through his shame at causing annoyance. If the eager warmth of his blood makes him quick, hasty, and passionate, a moment later you see all his natural kindness of heart in the eagerness of his repentance; he weeps, he groans over the wound he has given; he would atone for the blood he has shed with his own; his anger dies away, his pride abases itself before the consciousness of his wrong-doing. Is he the injured party, in the height of his fury an excuse, a word, disarms him; he forgives the wrongs of others as whole-heartedly as he repairs his own. Adolescence is not the age of hatred or vengeance; it is the age of pity, mercy, and generosity. Yes, I maintain, and I am not afraid of the testimony of experience, a youth of good birth, one who has preserved his innocence up to the age of twenty, is at that age the best, the most generous, the most loving, and the most lovable of men. You never heard such a thing; I can well believe that philosophers such as you, brought up among the corruption of the public schools, are unaware of it."
Jean-Jacques Rousseau, Emile or On Education

It's raining today.
I'm going to get some chicken and dumplings and watch some cartoons.
I wish I had some heroin.

>>25343977
you should watch porn instead of cartoons

>>25343996
Porn's not as comfy, especially when eating.

Sometimes I get these whisper-like impressions of distant memory blowing across my consciousness, of lives I did not live but which radiate an emotional aura rather too vivid despite the briefness of my encounters with them to feel like the work of the imagination. Like I am but an overly immersed actor in my own life catching a glimpse of other performances of mine from the past.

>>25343576
me.

>>25344009
fair enough

I would slurp down the diarrhea straight from the ass of a cute girl.

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>>25344048
No you wouldn't, retard

>>25344022
Like when I discovered the Americas as Columbus in 1492 or when I won fighting against the Great King as Alexander during 200ish (I don't remember exactly) BC

>>25344022
>>25344080
Ahh, those were the days.

Never think like a leftist when it comes to economics

>>25343882
>>25343843
There's more to life than chasing women. Call me an incel all you want, it's the truth.

Is this thread just bots talking to each other about the same things over and over again?

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>>25344156
do you wanna talk about dostoevsky instead?

>>25344159
Havent read him since i was a kid, wouldnt have anything to contribute. But id like to watch you guys go at it ;D

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I dont particularly enjoy living

>>25344156
We're not bots, but basically yeah

>>25344189
Oh, alright then. Carry on.

I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR FUCKING CORPORATE CAREER

I don't either.

>>25344009
>Our hero is come upon by two well dressed men with black hats
>They invite him into a limousine that suddenly appears
>´Mr X will see you now´
>They drive for a long time
>Through dense forrest
>Up a mountain
>They arrive at a massive and imposing Brutalist structure
>Everything is pristine
>Lawn is lush green, immaculate
>Shining black glass
>Right this way Mr Hero
>Get on Chrome elevator
>Long elevator ride in total silence
>*Ding*
>*Whoosshhh*
>They step out of elevator
>Meet wall of sound
>Loud moans
>Slapping
>Flapping
>Caveman grunts
>They walk down a medium corridor
>A long table comes into view
>We see it stretch as they come clear of the long corridor
>As they step out they see a man sitting at he end
>He wipes his lips gently as he finishes his meal
>Turns off the porn playing on opposing wall
>´Ah, Mr Hero -Welcome!´
>´Please excuse me, i was just finishing my lunch´

Lately I’ve been thinking of developing paranoid schizophrenia

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>>25344332
ACTIVATED

What do you care about?
You just want my thoughts to post in the thread and shit on me. I normally wouldn't care that much, but I have the feeling this behavior isn't stopping on 4chan.

>>25344293
Is his last name being "Hero" a subtle nod to the fact that he's the main character or is it just his name. I've just started my MFA in creative writing so I am trying to practice analysis.

>>25344393
You’re schizophrenic. Go get help.

ID.me is easily the shittiest fucking website I've ever had the misfortune of ever attempting to use.

>>25344399
Yes. Very astute of you to notice the subtlety

>>25344406
have a heart, i think someone was mean to him online!

>>25344416
>

Hyper-Vigilance: Constantly checking notifications and experiencing intense fear or shock at the sound of a phone alert.
Digital Avoidance: Developing an obsessive fear of having your personal data exploited, resulting in a paralyzing fear of using basic digital tools.
Physical Stress: Experiencing disrupted sleep patterns, fatigue, stomach aches, or weight instabilities as a result of ongoing stress.
Social Isolation: Deliberately deleting online accounts, avoiding social interactions, and withdrawing from the internet to escape the stalker.

Now, imagine if this was localized to your brainstem.

>>25344427
>Developing an obsessive fear of having your personal data exploited, resulting in a paralyzing fear of using basic digital tools.
?
This is completely rational. Shit is fucked.

>>25344293
>Our hero is walking down a city street when he is come upon by two men
>They are well dressed in navy blue suits, red ties and wearing black Stetson hats
>They invite him into a limousine that suddenly appears
>´Mr X will see you now´
>They drive for a long time
>Through dense forrest
>Up a mountain
>They arrive at a massive, tall and imposing Brutalist structure
>Everything is pristine
>Lawn is lush green, immaculate
>Shining black glass
>´Right this way Mr Hero´
>Get on Chrome elevator
>Long elevator ride in total silence
>*Ding*
>*Whoosshhh*
>They step out of elevator
>Meet wall of sound
>Loud moans
>Slapping
>Flapping
>Caveman grunts
>They walk down a long corridor
>Moaning and grunting grows louder and louder
>A long table comes into view
>We see it stretch as they approach the doorway
>They step into a large hall and see a man sitting at he end of the table
>Perfectly dressed in black with a shock of black hair neatly combed back
>He dabs his lips gently with a fine cloth napkin as he finishes his meal
>Turns off the generic porn movie playing on opposing wall
>´Ah, Mr Hero -Welcome!´
>´Please excuse me, i was just finishing my lunch -have a seat´

I was a casual member of a transhumanist apocalyptic suicide cult when I was 15

>>25344590
Damn, did you kill yourself?

Black
White
Elysium
City
Fire
Marah
Tim
Acidiax
Pride
Empty
You
Forgiveness
Hell
Blood
Oblivion

I wish touching my penis wasn't such a big deal in religious circles.

>>25344600
Yeah turns out this transhumanist shit isn't all it's cracked up to be. I had to fill out a ton of forms and sign a user license agreement and pay a bunch of fees before they would let me take on physical form again. Have you ever tried to sign a paper form as a collection of electrical signals housed in an SSD in a cult leader's basement? It's a pain in the ass.

>>25344590
Was it anime based

What's a group of tomatoes called?

how do you get a fat chick in your bed?
a piece of cake

>>25344605
It's as big of a deal as lying, I don't know why you people get so up in arms about it.

i can’t watch movies anymore. adhd i guess, though books give me considerably less trouble. what i do now is put a film on in the background, and more or less ignore it, only paying attention if something catches my eye. not proud of it, but it means i’m experience it sort of like a dream; drifting in and out. i usually do the same film 4-5 times (in a row).

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>This Lombard lookin' ZESTY, this Lombard lookin' MOIST, he's got sugar in his wine, he's light with a blade, he's a Ill bit fruity, he plays for the other Condottiero, he fights at the other end of Genoa, this Lombard theatrical, this Lombard good with colors, this Lombard gonna coordinate yo arse wit you halberd and that shit gonna look good! This Lombard lifts cannonballs, this Lombard on the second level of hell, this Lombard be a Venetian trader, this Lombard fights uphill, this Lombard packs gunpowder, he's a friend of Machiavelli, he feels the love that dare not speak Its name, he loves to dance, he's of the Ottoman brotherhood, he indulges in the Greek vice, he has an monetary sexual Instinct, he's fluent in Barbary, he's a refugee from Moscow, he's on the wrong vessel, he fights for the other Duke, he's temperamental, he's 'one of if you catch my drift.

>>25344607
Ah, so this is why you invented Digital I.D. and electric signatures? How did you do it in the end? Just focused really hard?

>>25344568
I just know i am going to see this in the next Bond movie

>>25344641
Heh

I grew up a daily show watching new atheist libtard, back then the right wing were lame moral police. Then around the time obama got his second term liberals went mask off and thought they were the new moral police, or what would become woke, or social justice warriors. for a short time being far right became counter culture. to trigger the libtards was really the same mantra the french decadents had come up with, "Épater la bourgeoisie" or to shock the middle class.

It was fun but trump turned out to be a guy who starts endless wars, pro israel, and didnt fix the economy.

I realized what i hate the most is moral police, whether they be woke libtards or evangelical right wingers

i guess i can say now im some sort of libertarian or anarchist

>>25344696
Nigger what the fuck did you expect trump to do? He's been much better than I thought he'd be. I don't think you understand the world well enough to have political opinions.

>>25344700
not make gas prices shoot up by starting the stupidest war in modern america

>>25344703
Who gives A FUCK about gas prices? What matters is fucking diesel prices not that you have to spend $15 a month more on gas. This is what I'm fucking talking about none of you people understand what you're talking about.

I think the Iran war has been... Idk, chaotic. But it was inevitable given what Iran was doing and our interest in keeping them from being able to threaten people with nuclear bombs. There's more to the world than spiting Israel or larping as a pacificist as you buy all your shit from the CCP or whatever your hangup is.

>>25344712
>able to threaten people with nuclear bombs


oh im dealing with a moron, a neocon, or a jew.

Or maybe all three.

>>25344712
*Pacifist
I hate this phone

>>25344714
Brown

>>25344718
not an argument.

dont you have some baby penis to go suck moshe

Imagine being on the trump train in 2026, you have to be a boomer, a zionist, or a retard

>>25344723
Neither is anything you posted you retarded mexican. Do you think "not an argument" is a magic spell that gets you out of being made fun of?

>>25344727
I'm more on the "anti Democratic party third worldism" train. Trump is just the only figure capable of semi effectively resisting them. Rubio might be good, maybe, but for now all we got is trump.

Atari is trying to get into the hotel business, LMAO

>>25344736
What do they even do these days, collect royalties?

>>25344729
not an argument

>>25344739
Well, clearly they're apparently looking for investors for a hotel chain currently. That's what I just said.

>>25344741
No tienes argumentitos

>>25344736
isn’t that a common pipeline with japanese companies?

The trees and bushes of blood sprung up around me. The bricks of blood shattered the forest with seeds of human hand and vines draped in human design. I removed my shoes and did walk there. The ground built by corpses pushed into the knuckles of my feet and spread them apart. As my bones spread apart, my skin and organs melted and gravity reversed along the trail of my spine, prying apart the seams and liquifying the discs there, until the fluid of the tailbone seeped into the recesses of my brain. And the corpse blood of the world swelled up inside me, until I resolved with the fingers of the monkey to tear the archons of the world out of the shell of God.

When I was a little black girl, I liked to build things like there was a treehouse that my dad let me help build. Now that I'm an adult white man I watch anime inside all day.

>>25342884
I thought we're in the tail end of a golden period of TV shows.

>>25344796
greatly exaggerated. there was arguably one that ended a little over ten years ago.

>>25344804
what's greyslop

>>25344809
lowest common denominator "HOLY FUCKIN AMAZEBALLS!!!" type TV that's focused on heckin badasses, overexposed shots that over-rely on diegetic or faux-diegetic lighting, lots and lots of muddy-looking CGI

>>25344809
Aliens aka greys

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>>25344804
was on a date with some edgy girl once and she tells me she's a fan of grouper (the musician) but i mistook her for saying groyper.

There's a hot girl at my new job but I have a tiny peepee so I feel like I'll just have to smell her when she's not looking.

I said I'd never do it again, but I did it again.. I'm sorry. I'm trying to stop.

>>25344822
you fucker

>>25344825
;_;

>>25344822
it's so sad that porn addiction passes for some kind of existential struggle among zoomers these days

>>25344832
On one hand I get your point. On the other hand, anything can be an existential struggle if central enough to a person's life, which any addition is. I could wax rhapsodic about my heroin addiction for the length of Proust's ISOLT, for example. I'm sure some could about digital addiction, so why not sex and porn?

I used to crawl out of swamps with two chickens I grew up with. Miss those niggas.

I'm Jack the Gripper.

I'm always really glad when I'm in an argument with someone and they say "but we have to protect the children!" because it means I can stop listening to them

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>>25344857

>>25344832
Depends on what kind of porn it is.

>>25344857
Sociopath perspective honestly

>>25344837
>On one hand I get your point
>On one hand

>>25344880
No it isn't retard. If anything, emotionally manipulation in the middle of a discussion is a sign of sociopathy.

>>25344918
Supposing that concern for children‘s welfare is about your emotional response is sociopathy on a whole new level.

i spotted a bug on the floor that freaked me out so I threw a book over it hoping to kill it. later, i remembered that i didn’t check if the bug was entirely dead. i lifted the book and the lower half of it had been entirely squashed while the upper half was still squirming and sprawling. it was probably in immense amounts of pain. i realized that there’s probably some creature out there who’s so different and on such a more complex intellectual level than me that it might just view me as a freaky bug and forget to do something as basic as making sure to fully put me out of my misery after trying to get rid of me. what the fuck

I really enjoy when my shits are basically just a violent explosion of fluids, although I'm at an impasse because I also find the structure of a thickly coiled, massive dump to be satisfying.

>>25344924
It demonstrably is in debate and public messaging, nothing that makes it to mass media or "vitality" is artisanal. It's all engineered by marketers to on extent or another. No one is saying you shouldn't care about children.

Don't get mad and start using emotional judo sophistry shit just because people recognize what you are, we're all anonymous here, It doesn't matter. You may be a sociopath but you're still human and just an anon like the rest of us.

>>25344937
Now think about the millions of bacteria in your stomach that you kill every time you take a shot of whiskey

>>25344963
*Virality
I need to sleep.

>>25344937
:(

I can't enjoy it if you're there

>>25344967
they knew the risks when they took up the residence.

why am i still so afraid of death when my life is miserable and i have no future?

i almost get a sense of shame and embarrassment as well as sadness over the idea of my parents or someone finding me dead and having to deal with that

I enjoy the music of Arthur Russel, especially his song "That's Us/Wild Combination." I'd recommend it to any anon who wants to hear a good love song featuring reverb-coated cello, scattered vocal harmonies, and cryptic, loving lyrics.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QY6nNFenaa0

>>25344976
I honestly can’t see why everybody who isn’t a child, everybody who’s theoretically old enough to have understood what death means, doesn’t spend all his time thinking about it. It’s a pretty arresting thought, not being anything, not being anywhere, and yet the world still being here. Simply having everything stopping for ever, not just for millions of years. And getting to the point where that’s all there is in front of you.

>>25344937
If you were to dedicate the rest of your life to killing, raping, and torturing as many sentient beings as you possibly could, you wouldn't match in 100 years the amount of unavoidable, completely arbitrary suffering that happened just as I was writing this post. And that's only on this planet, in this universe, on this scale of life. But that's ok because when something dies, all its suffering is erased as if it never even happened to begin with; in fact, not even "as if." It simply will have never happened. Eventually, time itself will die and all the events that it was holding in itself will fall away from each other, and then nothing will have ever happened.

>>25344984
My blueberry custard is far more interesting than death, at least while I'm making and eating it
>>25344975
As much as you did when you chose to be born into this universe
>>25344976
It's normal and healthy to be afraid of death

Wanted to give online banking a try.
Tried to get a American express checking account but apparently they only are available to those who already have a amex credit card.
Savings account has a really good APY so look into that.
Requires having a checking account at a physical bank to even put funds in the account.

Well that was a waste of time.
I am just going to the local credit union in person. Online only banking is stupid.

>>25344976
I don’t know, bud. You need to work on that, try just finding things you like.
I just have this weird mental fixation that my thoughts aren’t my own and nothing I do makes them go away.

>>25344981
i really liked it at first and was waiting for some kind of drum beat to kick in. when they finally did though, the way it was done with the pause was kinda jarring and i didn't like that

im interested though

>>25344990
This reminds me, I need to try making this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oT2VyOjnaOc

>looking for a new fic
>ask recommender if their fic is ergodic or a copout
>she doesn't understand
>pull out furry rantsona video essay explaining what's ergodic and what's a copout that abandons its original greentext format for regular dialogue three chapters in
>she laughs and says "its a good fic sir"
>start reading it
>its a copout

>>25344990
>blueberry custard
And when you’ve finished it, you’ll think of something else equally interesting, and then something else after that, and so on, right up until the moment you don’t.

I wish I had an ample supply of psychedelics, cocaine, and alcohol to properly stimulate my creativity.
I can only perform well when my neurochemistry is sufficiently optimized, which sobriety rarely allows.

>>25344989
time doesn’t really exist. physics doesn’t even grant us a stable sense of ‘before’ and ‘after.’ in the block universe view, all points in time exist at once; which means the unborn, the living and the dead all coexist.

>>25345048
No, I think about death in some sense every day, and it's sad. But there's no point in obsessing over it when there's a lot of fun things to do and people you love to be with.

>>25345056
That's poorly evidenced speculation btw. Almost as bad as quantum immortality.

>>25345052
I’d rather you not ogle my AI GF or comment on my deranged anti-social fantasies thank you.

>>25345056
I don't let some monkeys reading numbers off instruments in a lab and writing down equations to predict them override my own direct experience of the universe given to be my nature. Ph*sicstards fuck off.

>>25345059
>poorly evidenced speculation
strange charge to level at something that falls pretty directly out of relativity.

>>25345064
poets also agree.

>>25345070
Who gives a shit? It's unfalsifiable. 200 years ago you'd be defending the idea of the four humors because of how they map to the Greek words for love or some shit.

>>25345039
But did it razzle your dazzle?

>>25345071
so? most "poets" are slaves to psychotic religions and cultures. Anyone teaching that everything that happens is necessary, that everything exists all at once, that everything is immortal, nothing can be erased, or that "god" exists in everything, is a fucking psycho who is no worse than christoids who believe in Eternal Conscious Torture in Hell.

>>25344973
Enjoy what?

>>25345061
I don't have to respect your preferences if they interfere with my happiness.

>>25345064
Your thoughts right now are only happening due to random reactions and interactions of chemicals in your brain as it conducts electrical pulses down your neurons. What's even crazier is that the structure of your brain is also somewhat random which means your brain isn't only a random number generator, its a broken random number generation that will never generate even 1/100ths of the numbers it could roll.

>>25345061
nta but are you afraid you're so shit that you custom gf will also cuck you? :^)

>>25345083
Stop watching kurzgesagt

Trying to think of a social media engagement-bait scheme to advertise my vampire novel. Any bright ideas?

>>25345075
relativity is one of the most precisely tested theories in the history of science.
and ‘unfalsifiable’ applies equally to all interpretations of what time fundamentally is.

>>25345084
Y-yes…

>>25345090
I haven't since they fucked up the diet and exercise video and had to make a whole new one making an insincere apology and then saying the same thing but differently.
Also, there's nothing wrong with being a random collection of things that happened to form you, it doesn't take away from how magical it is.

>>25345096
Local or hosted?

>>25345103
Cerebral

>>25345095
I'm not questioning relativity retard
>and ‘unfalsifiable’ applies equally to all interpretations of what time fundamentally is.
Which is why you're retarded for having dogmatic opinions about it and talking like it's a solved problem.

>>25345058
What’s bad is bad; the horribleness of the truly horrible is to be relished for what it is. That's the only way to recover your authenticity.

>>25344984
Of course, it’s not really true to say that that’s all that’s going to be in front of you. There are all sorts of other things thrown in, like waiting to see the doctor, and fixing up to have a test, and waiting for the test, and waiting for the result of the test, and fixing up another test, and waiting for that, and waiting for that result, and going in for a period of observation, and being kept in, and waiting for the operation, and waiting for the anaesthetist, and waiting to hear what they found, and waiting for the second operation, and waiting to hear how that went, and being told they can unfortunately do nothing radically curative but naturally all measures will be taken to prolong life and alleviate suffering, and that’s just where you start.

>>25345105
Cyber Tulpa? Nice!

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>>25345108
block universe is what you get when you take that theory seriously as a description of reality rather than just a calculation tool.
>talking like it's
intuitive thought.

Little fly,
Thy summer’s play
My thoughtless hand
Has brushed away.

Am not I
A fly like thee?
Or art not thou
A man like me?

For I dance
And drink and sing,
Till some blind hand
Shall brush my wing.

If thought is life
And strength and breath,
And the want
Of thought is death,

Then am I
A happy fly,
If I live,
Or if I die.

>>25345114
>take that theory seriously as a description of reality rather than just a calculation tool
So when you act like a redditor? Physical theories are ONLY "calculation tools".

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Diagnosed with testicular cancer about 6 months ago. It has completely upended my life and will continue to do so in the near future.
Will be getting a surgery in a couple of weeks to remove what's left of a tumor in my abdomen. They'll also be taking a kidney, since its tied up in the tumor. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. The surgeon was blunt about it hurting, which is never a good sign. Aside from that, I'll have to reform my diet, drink less, and absolutely must avoid getting addicted to opioids.
At the end of all this, I will have lost:
>a testicle
>a kidney
>feeling in my thigh
>feeling in my toes on that same leg
>all of my hair (although at least this one grows back)
>several months of experience in the new career I JUST started
Overall 1/10 experience, would not recommend. Only saving grace was that I got like 4-5 months off of work. It also makes me a slightly more interesting person in that I've had a relatively unique experience, but I can't find anything positive to take away from the whole thing. It just sucked. I learned nothing, and I don't think there's anything to learn from this.

should i smoke some weed rn i'm on vacation i feel like i should do sth

>>25345128
I can’t do drugs

>>25345118
einstein talked extensively about what relativity meant about reality.

another n.b.: people talk about time like it’s a solved problem everyday.

this chick ghosted me so hard she won't even let me see whatsapp updates anymore i've known her for years that's kinda fucking rude

Is this hell?

>>25345134
>women
>trusting them
>assuming your friendship goes past utility
F

>>25345151
Don’t engage him

>>25345153
Engage? He has to at least take me out to dinner first :D

>>25345151
This might be considered controversial because people shit on corporate culture a lot, and for good reason, but some of the most fulfilling relationships I've had from women were peers or co-workers who were slightly up the chain from me. I can't explain how or why, but that is at least 1 positive thing I can say about corporate culture.

I alienated a person I really cared about. We were best friends the one summer I was actually happy. Now I have nothing. I don't know why I even bother trying. There's no cure for the lonely.

>>25343251
Mortification of the flesh. Mortification of the mouth, of the eyes, of the tongue, of the fingers.
God most likely does not exist, but I want to make a serious attempt at finding out for sure.

>>25345165
>There's no cure for the lonely.
ironically the cure is acceptance and loneliness turns to solitude and being lonely transitions to just being alone.
And its not really all of a bad thing, you can find ways to cope and such. People tend to take up a lot of time anywa.

>>25345160
Lol

it's harder than ever to be a loser. you used to just be allowed to be broke and alone, but they're making that illegal now.

>"Hey, MC-kun you're disgusting and I hate you... Let's have sex!"
I don't know why, maybe I have brain rot now, but to me that is peak writing. It gets to the point, and I don't really give a shit if its not realistic or not, I'm reading a fucking 2d picture story about fictional lines doing shit.

>>25345178
>Being broke and alone is illegal now
If that's true then we are all secretly badasses and women will swoon at the sight of us because we are "dangerous bad boys" now :D

i saw a black guy cat calling an indian chick who was wearing a short skirt today and he was saying shit in spanish i'm like dude that chick is obviously south asian u don't even know what ur looking at

>>25345183
lol

Interesting enough, I'm usually pretty good at telling too, but the family at the end of the block I often wave and say hello to when passing by, I cannot tell if they're Indian, Paki, or some kind of dark Hispanic. Point is, I can relate with the homeboy.

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Im going to benevolence-max and cultivate endless virtue by doing charity work in NGOs and my local hospice, in order to get placed in a strangers will or two.
People are so foolish at times, little do they know that kindness is the easiest way to success ;)

i can't even write sentences that make sense anymore i must tired af

>>25345194
must be* fuck