im 27 and the only games ive reg played in the past are tf2 and gmod NPC battles. i sit in my low ceiling white contractor paint wall apartment waiting for my grandma to send me money so i can go on a walk and ogle women's asses on the way to buy weed, then i get home and listen to cum town in the background while i tear through weed hoping to feel high for 15 minutes. then i go have sex with my bubble butt hip sex toy while listening to techno music and i often measure and re-measure my erect phallus with a ruler for self-reassurance because i am generally insecure and possessive of any scrap of positive attention i can get and i only have my penis and porn and weed and loud mind numbing sex music because i am a loser i do not want to apply myself to life at all i am too emotionally immature and conniving and dorky and inept and poor and kind of ugly and unimpressive and sort of useless and i am pushing 30 and i am a complete vampire hedon stupid white trash piece of shit who cant hold a retail job for more than a year without being terminated for absence and mental breakdowns and autistic outbursts. may as well slam the brakes on the games and weed because either way my future is nothing. it is not there. i have nothing. my family is aging and dying and losing their money my friends are alienated from my squalor and abject self-neglect i am too autistic and poor to get pussy i just want to jack off until my heart stops from Cialis even if im sober for 4 months im still running out the clock somehow just thumb on the fast forward button theres 30 theres 40 nothing body rotting alone dying bye im sorry if words took awhile mom
>>25360100Yeah we went through that phase. Play your vidya standing up, you can go pro with those.
Faulkneresque anon you should definitely start keeping a diary if nothing else. Consider looking into disability or the alternative in your country, you can find lawyers who will do the legwork in exchange for a good chunk of the first fat check you get, but then you get my tax dollars for free. Frankly you need em more than I do.
The fact that I haven’t killed myself yet is good enough reason me for to work on my situation for the most part. It means I don’t really want to.
i want to abduct op from his room at night and take him on a nice chill camping trip in the woodlands
we can't give up, anonwe simply can't give up
We're all gonna make it brah
>>25360100I feel exactly like this except I'm a trans woman
whiny little brat
Fuck I hate losers. OP stfu and go swim across the engliush channel>>25360232>>25360911
nice post
>>25360100same but i do every drug except for weed and dont wallow in sorrow because hedonistic NEET life is actually pretty enjoyable and I never got the doomer slant anons push
>>25360100>I have sex and have my own apartment feel sorry for me!no, kys normie
>>25360100Why not start writing? You’re obviously interested in it. Or swap the weed to shrooms or even better, lsd. One dose could fix your whole messy life by letting you out of this cage of fear.
Op i feel you, i was long time in a similar situation. The only thing that can get you out is you.Sounds corny and is corny but the fuck you gonna do about it. You have to get physical, get a trading job, join some sports club or martial art, go for walks, shit like this. I was completely removed for several years, just taking opiates and drinking and smoking, living through the day binge watching and self pitying. I moved back to my parents, have a job now, make money and actually feel normal, i can converse fine, people talk to me back its strange nad im still not completely with it, but right now im on a good path, i can feel it, although my social life is still slim and i still take lots of drugs i actually can feel the existential dread fading. You may say im a failed normie or im just coping or delusional, but i know exactly where you are coming from. Many of my neuroses are way weaker now, i dont think as much and go more through life like a dumb npc. Its bliss. But as i said, keep your self occupied on a physical level, exhaust yourself. Fucking retail is poison for your soul, i wouldnt be able to hold such a job either. Move your body, or as funkadelic says move your ass and your and will follow. Exhaust yourself>>25362838sex with his doll, if you actually took your time to read his ramblings
do some pull ups at a playground, some pushups and bodyweight squats in your home, get a bycicle and ride around aimlessly
