Screaming For Vengeance EditionPrevious;>>25366041
first post!
You who murder conversations and entire life-scripts with your dirty ‘new thread’ deals
>>25368287Nice
>>25368270Yeah you're doomed then. Everything is "sales" in commerce and in celebrity. It's about tying yourself to your audience or your audience to you, and notice I said YOU and not your art because you have to sell YOURSLEF and make it seem like people should like you and then once they like you and the parosocial demon starts to suckle at their subconscious they think "hmmm how can I support my friend*, I KNOW! He's a pretty talented artist, I'll buy some of his stuff and cram it on my shelf in between funco pops and my heavily annotated copy of Infinite Jest"Realizing this is how modern commerce (mostly) works is why I mostly gave up ideas for starting businessesCute girl btw I'm sure flurries would love to pay you to draw obese farting racoons or whatever, if you want to go that route ( I hope you do not)Apologies for typos t. Rumanon
I’ve been reading lately about the difference between schizophrenia and paranoid schizophrenia. The schizophrenic doesn’t know he has hallucinations, he believes they are all real. A paranoid schizophrenic knows he has hallucinations, and is trying to discern between what is real and what is not. He is on watch, hence he is a paranoid schizophrenic, and I imagine he’s a lot better off for it. Now the etymology of schizophrenia, that’s ‘phren’ for brain as in phrenology or phrentic, and ‘schizo’ as a dirty conjugation of ‘schism’, essentially meaning ‘split mind’ or ‘split brain’, bicameral even. ‘Paranoid’ takes ‘para’ for ‘above’ or ‘beyond’ and adds ‘-oid’ to it like some sort of taxonomical slur. What’s important about the paranoid schizophrenic, is that he’s not only on watch to detect what is a hallucination, but he also is liable to classify any part of reality as a hallucination in this effort. Things that are obvious to others, are arbitrarily sorted as ‘something that’s just in my head’. People will spend lifetimes trying to communicate the obvious to a man who takes that claim as a threat of relapse. In this way, the paranoid schizophrenic is not only half-deep in a false reality, they are also half-deep in a false fantasy, where occurrences that feel like delusions are in fact happening. There are a lot of opportunities for interesting scandals here, (consider a recovering paranoiac denying evidence of stalking as if it were a returning symptom), but most often this occurs in the field of love. Something that mercurial and immaterial is easily identified as a delusion, you would become a crazy person again just like last time you believed ‘love’ was in the room. Is this ‘love’ a hallucination? Could be a shared one, and its much easier to have always believed it was true. Therefore, I have decided. There are two types of lovers in this world - schizophrenics, and paranoid schizophrenics Chapter 2 - I’ve been thinking of developing paranoid schizophrenia, if I don’t have it already You won’t hear it anymore at this point, but about thirty years ago from the release of this text, people would say if you talked to yourself, you were crazy. My grandmother joked, ‘you’re only crazy if someone answers back’. I remind myself this smear campaign is only brief and recent, only a few hundred years, Plato would never have said such a thing… (unfonished)
>>25368279Thank you so much for making a new thread. I'm now no longer seething or coping. I'm quite calm now.
Semen.
I love the idea of long-distance communication. I love the idea that we're all on our computers or phones across the continent and also across the world. One person could be in California. The other person could be in New Zealand. They could be having a conversation! Wherever you're from is someone else's strange and exotic place, anons
In hindsight, maybe I should have become a constitutionalist lawyer. It combines three of my favorite things: literary analysis, debate, and pedantry.But in seriousness, I find I highly enjoy reading articles about constitutional jurisprudence and the history of debate on specific clauses, and the thought occurred to me, man, there are people to get paid to study and write this stuff.
>>25368293Grim, and punks don’t pay, huh? Not even attention?
>>25368321>And punks don’t payI wouldn't know, I'm basically Ignatius Reilly with more self awareness.
HOLY FUCK I finally remembered Eudora Welty's name. It's been years.Now I can say I like TWO female writers.
>>25368308I am glad
I've been emailing your drawings to a private investigator. His name is William, he works out of Albuquerque under Dynamic Consulting. The first one I sent him was the cosmological cartoon, the one with the speech bubble that wraps around the border. He called me after that, which he never does. He just said "keep forwarding anything else this person posts." So I have. Every time you upload something new, it goes to him. He replies with one word, "got it." Nothing else. That was April. Now I'm seeing the same butterflies in your drawings that I saw in the seismic charts from the Venezuela quake. I'm not saying there's a connection. I'm just saying I've been sending them, and he hasn't asked me to stop. I thought you should know.
>>25368332I read The Optimist's Daughter and wasn't impressed
hate to see that evening sun go downhate to see that evening sun go downmake me think I'm on my last go roundhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jSrj9O0Dq0
I'm writing a story in which a character has a unique ability that allows him to discover certain kinds of information in a way that is physically exhausting and which can be dangerous. He's really attached to his job, which revolves around using this ability, because on a deep level he believes he is worth less than other people and that it is good for him to damage himself in exchange for information that could help, protect, or prevent harm to others, who he sees as worth more than himself. He doesn't see any value in himself unless he is useful in some way and thinks the best way to be useful is to use his ability, which damages his mind and body over time even if it hasn't killed or crippled him during any one particular use. At the end of the story he fully spends himself and dies, having used himself up.
>>25368338This post is awesome and you get me, thanks for the attention
>>25368332I'm fucking haunted by this Guy Davenport interview where someone asks him about Eudora Welty and he says "oh yeah, she's the best writer alive. She writes like Joyce." What the fuck did he mean by this>>25368344Same here. I read a lot of her stories as a kid but I don't really remember them. I thought the last ~20 pages of The Optimist's Daughter was excellent but the rest of it was forgettable. I wonder what I'm missing, I think I have Delta Wedding on my shelves somewhere
>>25368344I only read one of her stories, over a decade ago, and thought it was fun and happy and reminded me of my grandparents. I don't know if her """art""" is good but I still like that story so I like her. I should reread it.
>>25368346You are flawlessly intelligent
I wonder how many anons are in this thread right now.
Hopefully just me and you
>>25368355Was he related to Edgar Rice Burroughs?
>>25368362>>25368359*Swings my enormous Irish belly into the saloon doors, slamming them open in an instant and shaking dust and plaster from the ceiling*I'm afraid not, gentlemen
>>25368365No he was the grandson of the inventor of the Adding Machine and he felt his brain was precisely the Burroughs computer spawned
Gonna give you a big ol lick. Gonna lick you right up! Gonna give you a big ol lickin! YUMMY!! TASTY!!! WOOO LICKIN! Then I'm going to go to the store and buy some eggs, laundry detergent, and mushrooms, because I have a coupon for mushrooms. I might go to the pharmacy and pick up more Aleve. Later, the park, and I'll eat the mushrooms in the park. Then I'll drive back and we can watch a movie ok?
>>25368370Why not make a mushroom omelette. That's what I'd do.
>>25368370What can I say I like a narrator with an agenda
>>25368367*tickles your enormous Irish belly*I'm one of those two guys heehoo tickle tickle one of us is tickling you heehoo
>>25368372I love a good mushroom omelette>>25368373Good to move through the world, I think
My favorite metal guitar tone of all time is Carcass, Heartwork
If I wasn’t due to sleep now I’d run an experiment where I responded to and appreciated all your posts and watch you all grow
As a Fiona I got a lot of Shrek jokes.
Tfw hand-drawn typo
>>25368386girl SAME. my dumbass parents named me farquaad.
I just finished a book! Everyone, look at me! :D
>>25368398I just started one.
Every time I try to "date" a girl it never goes to a second date. I can just imagine her talking to her friends about the weird guy she just went out with and its just so embarrassing. I don't think I will ever really get into dating, much less marry.
>>25368400look at us, bettering ourselves :D
Why do people hate Penguin?>>25368398Congratulations anon
>>25368403Your first mistake is being worried about what you can't control.
secret CIA cell that recruits twinks, traps, and femboys, trains them to be top-tier male semen demons, and employs them as male honeypots against powerful and influential gay foreign targets
Why is western culture the only one to value athletic excellence for its own sake? Like yeah, they have martial arts and a physical culture in general, but it's never an end unto itself.
>>25368427I don't think this is true, but if it is then likely because we leapfrogged everyone else and were the first to be so peaceful and rich we needed something to sublimate various war instincts into.
>>25368431It started with the Greeks, brah.
>>25368431it comes from the ancient greeks, u should have started with them, then you'd know that.
>>25368419>Why do people hate Penguin?Paper-quality is subpar, thats the only reason I can think of
>>25368338Keep going... this would be a great start to a novel or short story.would you mind if I stole it?>>25368344it's pronounced "communist daughter"
>>25368434>>25368435I'm well aware, what I said applies to them.
1000 hours in photoshop later
>>25368450Feel free. Carpe deus.
>>25368454Saved immediately but what the fuck is this even trying to say
we are most definitely doomed
>>25368454how to achieve this level of schizo, esoteric memetics?
BTW I found a pic of that life-sized Pacific giant octopus plushie I have which I was talking about last night.
>>25368467eww put the shirt back on him
>>25368467Meet me at Pioneer Square tomorrow and I'll buy that shirt on the right from you.
>>25368466Just read some bathtime bathos
>>25368468>>25368469Wat this shirt?
>>25368467I ate octopussy today. I think I posted about it earlier. It was today in the previous thread.
>>25368486Care to share that story a second time mate?
>>25368467Nakamura if he real
I used to work with this alcoholic gay guy who was tall and a little chubby and who lived in a halfway house. If he wasn't back by a certain time they'd breathalyze him before they let him back in. Guy had fucked his life up drinking and was putting it back together. Young too, like mid-20s. Don't remember his name. He was very cool. I liked him a lot. Funny, had great music recommendations. I wonder what he's up to. I hope he's still sober and doing ok. We would talk about books sometimes
>>25368494No, it ain't that much of import. Octopussy eating is the highlight of it. But that's a cool plushie. Enjoy it.
I need an officer of the law to stop me from doing illegal things. But there is no officer of the law to stop me from doing illegal things. And I don't really do illegal things even though there's no officer. So the officer must be inside me, in some sense. That feels gay to me. So I reject the officer of the law inside of me while respecting his sexuality. But the officer of the law is upset by this, says I'm a criminal, waves his gun around, the works. So I calm him down by doing what he wants me to do, which feels humiliating. But sometimes it's not humiliating at all, because I don't really want to do illegal things most of the time, so I don't do them. Take murder, for example. I don't murder people. Or theft, theft's a better example. Most of the time I don't steal things. I have the opportunity to do so, I could benefit from doing so, I could get away with it, but I don't. It's not even that I choose not to do so, it's that it doesn't occur to me that I could steal. Stealing doesn't even cross my mind. But I think about murdering people who anger me frequently. Would I steal? Yeah, I would, and I have before. Would I murder? No, not even if it was someone I hated. The cop living inside me thinks strange thoughts and does strange things. Some things are permitted but some things are not. Anyway, that's what I'm thinking about
>>25368511https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0phluwJ8_U
>>25368467BASADO>>25368465Yeah but we always were, so not much as changed except timelines maybe.
>>25368517We have to cast the ring into Mount Doom. That's what it means to be human. Like Frodo.
Just cleaned catberg's ear. I give her her ear drops in a couple hours.
Feeding things to the machine god. Hearing what the machine god has to say. The machine god thinks about things and returns answers. Sometimes they're good, sometimes they're bad.
I'm going tomorrow.
>>25368522where
>>25368520My ears... Please....
>>25368524The bowling alley with Sarah.
>>25368520<3 love you catberg hope her ears heal quickly
>>25368528xoxo
It's three in the morning and I'm thinking about high school but I don't want to be thinking about high school so instead I'm thinking about other things I'm thinking about water moving through the earth I'm thinking about the sun far ahead on the other side of the planet I'm thinking about shoebox apartments in Tokyo I'm thinking about microphones in recording studios I'm thinking about crayons I'm thinking about green beans I'm thinking about how they make lotion I'm thinking about how cocaine is the motor of the modern world I'm thinking about the asphalt paving companies I'm thinking about tire engineering I'm thinking about the US Coast Guard I'm thinking about astronauts I'm thinking about living in Ireland I'm thinking about cigar smoke I'm thinking about shooting free throws I'm thinking about large amounts of pasta I'm thinking about cutting fruit with a dull knife I'm thinking about USB cables I'm thinking about the weather I'm thinking about sonar systems I'm thinking about men's hats I'm thinking about island chains I'm thinking about shield volcanoes I'm thinking about acrylic paint sold in plastic bottles I'm thinking about cat food in the can I'm thinking about rows of prefabricated metal shelving I'm thinking about celestial navigation I'm thinking about container ships in the Pacific I'm thinking about cracking my knuckles I'm thinking about moving to Spain I'm thinking about Buddhist scripture I'm thinking about semen I'm thinking about my dishwasher I'm thinking about the door mat I'm thinking about the balcony behind my apartment I'm thinking about my love I'm thinking about you I'm thinking about my family I'm thinking about the Catechism of the Catholic Church I'm thinking about wearing a suit I'm thinking about McDonalds I'm thinking about casual nudity I'm thinking about candlewax I'm thinking about incense stacked in racks in the back of the store I'm thinking about wire shelves of CDs and DVDs I'm thinking about hot and ready pizza I'm thinking about going to bed I'm thinking about allergy tests I'm thinking about different kinds of bandages I'm thinking about flooring I'm thinking about everything I know about streetlights I'm thinking about how things are going in Baltimore I'm thinking about the Chunnel I'm thinking about different landmarks in South America I'm thinking about eating mushroom omelettes I'm thinking about the subjunctive tense I'm thinking about taking my ball and going home I'm thinking about mason jars I'm thinking about varnish I'm thinking about a teal ping-pong paddle I'm thinking about pocket dictionaries I'm thinking about used dishrags hung on the stove handle I'm thinking about soda spilled in carpet I'm thinking about solar power I'm thinking about interstellar communication I'm thinking about the stars
Read a room, guys.
>>25368540The room should read me
>>25368540Please give me a little room to lie down in. If I had a little room to lie down in everything would be okay. I could lie down naked there and it would be fine and you wouldn't hear from me I promise. Nightmare nightmare nightmare nightmare dream dream dream dream. Hand me pieces of chalk I have to go outside and talk to people on the street. They can look at what I'm drawing and writing but I don't want to answer their questions. Fact of the matter is you can't buy me with your money because I am on sale for more money than exists in the entire world. I'm naked and sweating in your room. I'm reading in there. I'm reading many many things and I'm sweating all over your books and I have a knife but I don't want to use it.
Speaking of ears my right one has developed a little scab in the crevice and it's irritating like a persistent itch but I put a little vaseline on it so it should heal up quickly
I dont care for these developing storylines I see in these threads. Every thread should be selfcontained. I dont want to recognize any of you. Also Im supersmart so you should listen to me and do what I say
>>25368546Your wish is my command. For the next week I'll change how I write and post as if I were a homosexual.
>>25368546Affirmative. I'm actually a good listener and follower, though I can be a good leader in times of need. This makes me well suited to something like a second in command. I've been in the Civil Air Patrol and some of the men who are part of the military even said that's the kind of temperament I have that's suited for a lieutenant. That's just some context for you.
I am getting sick and tired of the maintenance person deciding to deep clean the breakroom during lunch break every day now. There are 7 other hours to do that, but nope.Have to pick the one hour a day during our shift when the room is actually in use, and then get rude with everyone who tries to eat lunch during their lunch break in the break room. Whatever. Going to start eating in the computer room for lunch and if anyone complains I will point out that the break room can't be used to eat lunch anymore.
i miss my ex and if i'm just retarded enough i'm gonna call her tomorrow and beg her to take me back
You dig in places 'til your fingers bleedSpread the infection where you spill your seed
>>25368546Now I'm wondering if that anon who recognized me is here>the best interview I ever did as a screenwriter was never uploaded anywhere so all I've got are my first interview which I was extremely nervous for and another one which went well but has absolute dogshit audio
geewhiz i love penis
>>25368564Women are jealous. They always say that. They want to pee straight up into the sky. That's why penises are better than vaginas. Vaginas pee downward toward the earth. Penises pee toward the heavens.
>>25368567the metaphysical value of gay penis is self evident. yes
>>25368574Oh your gay?
I'm getting flip flops fatigue.
i've made a number of mistakes, gross miscalculations really, easily avoidable kinda stuff, foolish if i'm being honest, idiotic even
>>25368633Learn from your mistakes and try to do better in the future.
I just learned about gibberlink. Wow
>>25368652no i think i'll double down and do the same as i always done
Let me ask you something once posed to me by a famous Hollywood socialite - Do you feel blame? Do you feel you need to explain your existence? Do you not feel you and your actions are self-explanatory?
You know what? Like an RTS game unit, if you keep clicking on me like that, I’m going to run out of things to say. Does that make sense?
Alexander the Great,Became a god amongst mortal men,Alexander the Great,He died of fever in Babylon
>>25368677what would be your stock voicelines?One of mine would definitely be "The great Journey waits for noone"
I went to sleep after losing my virginity last week. I had a dream where I was frantically looking for my pants, I only had only a shirt on and was bare ass naked from the waist down. I try covering my junk by using my hands or using my legs as I ran around from hallway to classroom until I remembered it was located in the teacher’s lunch room. I went into the small room and found some of the teachers I knew Growing up. There was only a table and two chairs in the room, so the rest had to sit on the ground. One of them being Ms. L., my special ed math teacher ( yeah, I didn’t do great in school.) she was one of my earliest crushes I had. I thought she was special because how sweet she was and felt like how we just clicked together, personality wise and interests. It wasn’t meant to be though. Besides the huge age gap, (she must have been in her early 30’s while I just entered my teens when we met) she also had a husband and her own kids. She was leaning against the wall, eating her lunch from her Tupperware. Her hair covered most of her face. I was embarrassed to have her see me like this and had regret from the times I tried to search her social media and try contacting her. It was just a comment on her dead YouTube channel. I deleted it after feeling like it was creepy. I started to apologize for my appearance to everyone and stated I was just here for my pants. I picked it up and went though what looked like a door to a storage room but led me outside.What looked like it was the outside anyways. It was just a large room with unseen projectors shooting out images of a whimsical forest at night. In the off center part of the room was a car. I was just putting my pants on when I saw my crush entering in the forest room. Her entire appearance was shrouded in a black silhouette. She went forward to the car but turned around and briskly walked towards me. I put my hands forward and told her I was sorry and I just needed my pants. When she grabbed my wrist the whole room had lighted up in lighting bugs and illuminated Dandelion fluff. Her face was finally revealed to me and it had a glowing smile. She said to me she was happy I had a girlfriend and congratulated me for it. Basically, I’m being congratulated for losing my virginity here. I woke up after that.
>>25368669>a famous Hollywood socialiteWas it Tom Cruise? Another anon said that while jerking off in the woods he got approached by the actor who asked him to continue
>>25368692Well well well look at mister "I can have an erection"
I said, quit pinging me
Now listening to "Shock The World (Melody Version)"
‘Once in a Lifetime’ by Talking Heads with the same lyrics but its about a serial home invader
Gave catberg her ear drops. Then I played with her for awhile. After that I gave her some wet food with this pumpkin puree additive meant for cats & dogs mixed in with it + her probiotic supplement I give her once a day on top (it's also supposed to increase "palatability" and is basically dried kitten food)...and she was very happy, lol.
>>25368692not reading this ai slop but i'm happy for your prompt or whatever
>>25368685>howdy>not a problem>you got it >sure thing boss>affirmative I use these at work to great effect. Management subliminally enjoys quick compliance in this video-game form
>>25368682Love Iron Maiden but they are really pretty ass lyricists and it’s funny to notice their songs are mostly fanfiction of cheap pulp. Plus they’re like six albums deep into ‘we are old and going to die’ theming
My sister-in-law suggested I move to Ohio and I told her I’m already in defiance
>>25368696He was a famous woodsman I’ll tell you that
A wise teacher once said to me, ‘That’s not what I fucking meant and if you don’t pay attention and quickly you will get the belt again’
Spread trouble in her wake, like a great shipCouples fight, milk spoilsFlowers wither and horses kickBabies cry, light bulbs burn outHard drives die when she walks aboutDogs howl and fall to the groundBottles break, and drummers quitCrashing planes shadows, we run underTroubled, complicated and constantHow are you in love, art, and crime?You get in the way of yourselfAnd you remember the timesSpreading trouble in your wake like a great shipCouples fight, milk spoilsNow get over it
After Cain left us so horribly Disabled
I get what I get cause I got what I got
I do not want to work today, I’m calling in gay
Was walking home the other day and caught this girl in a car checking me out and she stared so long someone had to honk for her to drive. I must be doing something right!
I have nigger fatigue. I can't stand seeing them anymore. It's like trying to ignore a roach invasion. I wish I could flip a switch and they'd be gone and I'd also forget they ever existed. I can't believe everyone but me is OK with niggers existing, how do you manage to grow indifferent to niggers or even like them? Just please I want them gone. Take them away I don't care how or what you do with them just take them away from my sight fucking disgusting ape looking niggers begone
>>25368823Every considered that she might have experienced an aneurysm? I'm just saying we should consider all possibilities before you haphazardly draw the wrong the conclusions from this affair!
>>25368832As Nietzsche writes, the great man misinterprets and uses history at his own will to his own benefit!
>>25368834> Beyond good and evil: 68 “I did that” says my memory. I couldn’t have done that – says my pride, and stands its ground. Finally, memory gives in.Keep that fire going friend, and you will set something ablaze soon enough
Alright cut the bullshit, John Lennon was politically assassinated by a telecommunications-aware Christian concerned after the proud socialist got everyone to sing ‘imagine there’s no religion’ in hopeful terms. Nothing crazy about that
This warehouse slave job I’m at isn’t so bad for me because I spend most of my time at home bouncing off the walls anyways, only problem is they don’t let me listen to music. Another problem is how the work is just nonstop but they don’t expect me to actually take care of all of it on my shift.
>>25368853Without music I don't think I could do it.
>>25368858Oh yeah I forgot to mention in my post there’s this really cool dude who keeps coming by my area and for whatever reason has told me several times that I should apply for the easy position he has because he used to have mine and only lasted two weeks. Meanwhile I’ve been there for nearly six fucking months. I think different people are just able to handle different tasks differently. Like I have to imagine how that guy feels about going back and forth and back and forth and back and forth for an entire shift; I don’t have a problem with that because I pace all the time at home anyways.
>>25368860Well glad you're happy and enjoying it. Hope it has room for advancement or w/e
>>25368863It does, thankfully. Only problem is I don’t know what to do next after this. I’ve been kicked into the real world and everything out there looks not much different than this.
>>25368866Have you tried the restaurant industry? If you aren't an autist, you can make good money as a server. Plus it has a nice pace and lots of young qt coworkers.
>>25368868Not necessarily an autist and can handle social situations as I have come to learn but I prefer to avoid people (and responsibility) mostly which is why warehouse type jobs are perfect for me... hate to say unfortunately.
>>25368873Why not go back to school? If you're smart enough to be on /lit/, you're smart enough for college to be ez.
>>25368873just get one of those forklift licenses and you will be ballin all day playa
>>25368874For what? I already said I don’t know what to do after this. Plus I’m not that smart anymore. >>25368875Those dudes make 23 an hour max which is how much the position I can progress to makes.
Maybe I don't want a relationship, but just sex. People who consume too much of my time, or who don't let me be alone, tire me very fast. Yes, maybe I am just horny and not lonesome.
I like to go to the library to read. I used to bring a backpack but now I just carry the novel I'm reading. However, lately I've wanted to start bringing two books with me: one novel, one poetry or non-fiction. Does it look tryhard to walk around with two books?
Just smoked a FAT cigar and had a beer
I heard my name ring out in that voice, cracking through my eardrums like a shock. I knew who it was, only one person, that girl I was so infatuated with I forcefully distanced myself from to keep from self-destruction, 7 or so years ago. My eyes wander from the ground up, going up the bare thigh taking in the sight of the outline only rose tattoo, my sight blurring as it continued upward. As I gradually arrived at her face, all I saw was a silhouette of the one who I had known it was all along. I slowly closed the door, scared of that sort of infatuation overcoming me again after all these years. Despite her being able to see me through the glass, I just let my head hang low and locked it and turned around and continued on my day.this is the best way to describe how I felt yesterday and i'll be honest I'm still shaken to the core, my worst nightmare coming to haunt me again in real life.
I’m going through bank withdrawal which is to say I’m tweaking because I’m poor
>>25368940She called out your name and you shut the door in her face? savage
>>25368890yeah i went to the city yesterday to meet some chick and i left feeling like i had been interrogated to sus out of i had money or the potential to make money etc. like u feel like u got harassed by a panhandler
>>25368945yes, i can't let myself become like that again, the kind of guttural yearning you lose sleep over.
>>25368945based af
>>25368940>rose tattoosounds trashy
>>25368951What was her reaction?
>>25368960i dont know my eyes blurred, I couldn't see her face, I could only see the faint shape of her eyes wide recognizing me. >>25368958no worries, I'm trashy too, I have enough tattoos like a huge fag for the entirety of this board, it's how I was recognized so easily after 7 years.
>>25368961i wish i were trashy like just move to some shitty town in the south and get a job at a gas station, tons of people live that way and they are happier than me, but like the guy up the thread talking about driving a forklift, i'm way too educated and uptight for that, i can never fit in with proletarians, but my education isn't elite enough to fit in with bourgeois coastal types. i have no place in the world which is i guess way i waste so much time on here.
I wanna fuck you like an animal
>>25368980nin sucks so bad they have like four good songs out of ten albums and the songs that aren't good aren't just not good they're actively cringe
>>25368973I mean I went to mit and graduated with a phd in physics, I currently work a labor job and I put up a sort of mask with my coworkers, I'm pretty happy though, no debt, enough money for books and an apartment in a pretty costly coastal area.I just fear that she will come seek me out again, I cannot handle that love I had for her and she was willing to return it to me. I would have died at the slightest upset and I cannot let myself get like that again.
>>25368982bad opinion
>>25368986>i have a phd in physics from mitand ur working in a warehouse instead of at spacex? mhmm
>>25368995yeah, I'm covered quite literally head to toe in tattoos and hate office jobs.real dumbass for that one, should've just started working out of highschool but I have an appreciation for education.
>>25369010no one cares about tattoos anymore dude, it's not 1950. my boss who has a masters from columbia has sleeves and tattoos on his hands and neck.
>>25369014i'm happy, why would i change what i'm doing.i live a pretty simple life and that simple life has made me happier than I've been in a long time.
>>25369019i feel u jobs where u have to live in the office are wack unless it's like shooting rockets onto mars or something
>>25368303I'm a paranoid schizophrenic and what you described is accurate, but what the most painful part, is that I feel like a detective who is constantly ruling out antagonists, only to have another one pop up out of nowhere.I can't even imagine what my life was like before my first episode because it's consumed me so much
I live and was born in the U.K.My childhood was green pastures until about 2008 when I noticed the country starting to sour, the decay is undeniable now, when it just to be speculative. My problem is that I was born with the English speaker's hubris and at 31 years of age I'm probably going to have to learn a language to move to a European country that isn't currently being pillaged and ruined by illegal rapists. I'm too poor for America, or at least, America seems strangely against wanting patriotic Englishmen into the country to become Americans.The last time I felt like the street had an opportunistic feel to it in my town was about 2019. Every single day in the U.K. is a humiliation ritual and I don't know what to do.
>>25369033I have never been diagnosed but I realize that is how I live my life
I saw a guy on Twitter saying that at one point he got on unemployment and was getting $1000 a week. So that's $4000 a month. That's more than I've ever made in a month doing freelance writing gigs. How do I get on this gravy train?
These fucking collaborators in my head. The collaborate with my enemies, they collaborate with the government. They collaborate with narcs and plebs and yuppies and communists and sell-outs. Each taking a different voice, often directly that of a real figure. There are at least six different podcasters who own my political thinking voice, they don’t all agree, and i can adjust the timbre of the voice to alter its source and watch my politics change in real time. I can even summon Rush Limbaugh if I want.
I'm reading "How to Read Like a Writer" and it's kinda boring. The crux of this book feels like it boils down to 'pay attention to the novels you read'.
>>25369167Well you can lead a horse to water…
Hell yeah, the goth baddie cashier at the hardware store went out of her way to tell me she liked my hoodie and gave me $3 of nuts and bolts for free.
I haven't read a book in 8 yearsI don't even know why I keep coming to this board
>>25368951Was >>25368553 you?
Wow
>>25369220The nerve
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr53pJ7bMuE
>>25368982This tbqh imho>>25368986The market is collapsing now but you should have tried to get a cooder job. It would have been trivial with those credentials.>>25368973Sorry, no, we're full.>>25369047Same thing is happening over here in the South, I'm sorry my distant cousin. I personally would love more people like you over here, unless Restore (not Reform) wins I can't see a positive future for you all. Not that it's so much brighter for us over here.
>>25368704Sir kindly ping me later discuss java core architecture speedily
My wife called and asked if the microwave is running and I said no. She said she meant the refrigerator, I hung up the phone. Lmao she's such a cute airhead.
drinking red wine and listening to some musicand it's raining outside
Why am I a recluse but not a reckless?
The rational part of me is aware of all the reasons why I shouldn’t but I still fucking miss you.
What would happen if you pissed into someone's eye socket who was missing an eye? Asking for a friend.
>>25369282>drinking red wineOkay Im aware of the alleged small health benefits for doing this, but I feel like drinking wine is mostly a meme people do because they think its what cultured people do.All the tasteless upperclass people I know do it all the time
>>25369298I don't care about any of this, all I know is that I enjoy it, I also have almost finished the bottle I bought
>>25369298Wine, and all booze for that matter, is like those all-flavour candies in those children books. I fear that you yourself are the meme
I'm afraid of opening the file containing my story and actually having to write, so I come here looking for something to write about.In 20 minutes since I started browsing, I've written about 200 words, had some mental masturbation over feeling clever, had some stimulation from the (You)s.I'm about to close the tab and open the file, I swear to god.
Went to bed at 4 in the morning last night. Woke up at 2 in the afternoon. Why am I like this?
>>25369306Try masturbating me. See what comes out.
>>25369304>>25369305okay 2 against 1... As Gustave Le Bon taught me, the masses degrade into stupidity and the individual alone preserves his intellectual facultiesThough to be fair, I do remember having a bottle that left a delightful caramel aftertaste :^)
>>25369328My penis and arm are already sore. There's nothing left to jack off to.
I've noticed that Germans love to flex their feces shelf that's in their toilet. Every time I talk to a German they bring up the shelf and how it's beneficial for understanding their gut health. Am I a little jealous? Yes, I want to be in an environment in which we care for our gut health instead of guzzling highly processed food and drinks that give us nasty shits and enlarged bellies.
>>25369337There you go, cheers
>>25369286Me? I'm just a wreck
My dad sold a four bedroom cabin with however many fucking acres two states away and I see no point in living anymore. We are not rich which is a major part of the reason why he sold it. But I would have no problem working the most pleb jobs until the end of time if it meant holding onto it. I DID get a pleb job, AFTER he sold it, so what’s my point in living? To start all over? I would need more than a pleb job to get a dream place half as good as that was.
>>25369358Take walks in the evenings. Just walk for 20 min in nay direction and then turn back the way you came, et voila you have taken a 40 min walk
I hate my dad for bringing me into this world.
>>25369286I’m both tbqh.
I wish I could kill all the bees in the world. They're so freaking annoying.
>>25369391woah ur dad was forced to sell his goon cabin because u were too lazy to get a job? worst son ever?
>>25369401hmmmm have you heard of the term repercussions?
>>25369410Haha my plan was to make it a goon cabin, his was to do outdoorsman shit. That was my future right there, but he’d rather fish than say he owns a cabin. Not entirely true but essentially it is. Yes though, I guess I was too lazy looking back.
>>25369401What, did poor baby get stung? Maybe you're a genetic travesty and allergic. What I can say for sure is you're a bee-itch.
We gotta get my foreskin back.
I don't want to be stuck in this world. I don't want to kill myself, but I hate this world.
I want to know everythingI want to be everywhereI want to fuck everyone in the worldI want to do something that matters
Relatable x2.
>>25369423>>25369424Yeah. Agreed
My life is going nowhere. But all of our lives are going the same place -- the ground. And you can't take your money or titles with you. But that might be cope.
>>25369441Most people have an horizontal ambition that focuses on the external, more money, status, sex etcBut few care about the vertical ambition which is internal and leads to greater sights and a calm soul.
>>25369420Im with you
>>25369466Im with you too
>>25369441It's hard to tell sometimes, isn't it?What's the cope here, for example:>The nature of desire is that you want things you don't have, and once you have them, you start wanting something else, because you can only desire what you don't have>Fantasy is perfect because it's not real, and once it comes in contact with reality, is replaced by a new fantasy that reality hasn't touched yetIs this a cope for not having a 10/10 girlfriend and not even bothering to try? Or is believing that a "10/10 girlfriend" exists somehow somewhere (and the struggle and seethe that follow) a cope for the fact that reality will never live up to our impossible expectations?
Can I say hi? I'm close.
>>25369495yeah come on up
>>25368303paranoia comes from "para-" above/beyond "nous" which means thought//intellect/intuition.
Hmm do I want to walk and bus to the library in the rain so I can do some reading today... I suppose I should get used to it, for when I get a job.
You know that feeling you get when you are just better than everyone else? Heh, of course you don't... You're not me :^)
>>25369495Yes.
>>25369541ie out of your mind.
nil nil
>>25369541>>25369754You tell him sister!
>>25369241britbong here, do you mean the American south I assume? I'm from the English north. I fell in love with a woman who moved to Texas a few years ago online, nothing came of it. All I would like to say to Americans is that like South Africa, there are a lot of English people who would be happy to become American patriots, we are starved for freedoms here, and much like the Soviet Europeans, there is a sizeable portion of "unreported" British people who recognise the freedoms we have lost and the price we have (or our govt. has made us) paid. I loathe what Pakistan has done to my country and I hope every single American is aware of that cost.
>>25369768unrelated to your post but the idea of someone moving from (like) hartlepool to texas (and vice versa) is fascinating to me. more on topic i’ll weigh in and say >there are a lot of English people who would be happy to become American patriotsis massively overstating it.
>>25369776I'm from a nicer area than Hartlepool, but it doesn't matter, since when you go out on the weekend there are the same foreigners who just glare at people at midnight in the street. You're probably right, I'm a 4chan anomaly, but I wish I was right, it may not be millions, but maybe thousands.
>>25369781as an aside i think hartlepool is actually 99.8% white. but yeah - english culture is busy dying (if it’s not already dead) and is being replaced mostly by american culture (or maybe a better way to put it would be every english speaking nation is becoming more international). probably it’s easier to like yanks up north (if you’re not online) but in london where you’re likely to run into them now and again, i think any true englishman finds them more foreign than the japanese.
I like my neighborhoodI like my gunI'm gonna be quiet and I'm gonna tell the whole block!
>>25369788the problem with English culture is that Tony Blair successfully installed the Crab Bucket (TM) as an institution, as a result of the £ doing so poorly past the GFC and Labour glorifying art with the standards of the kitchen sink, the ambition of the middle class simply did not survive and rotted, it was more lucrative to pretend to be poor and "cooler" to own nothing, have nothing. Since then, we could not compete with the American wage, it is humiliating, no matter how exceptional a Brit is, they are playing 5th fiddle. I have said this many times before, as soon as America recovers from obesity, our country will have nothing but old (to be set alight soon) buildings.
>>25369814the middle class were never rooted in english tradition anyway. in the previous century, there was the whole ‘u and non-u’ discourse; they found the upper class and working class often spoke plainly and directly, using the same words, while the middle class tended to use ‘fancier’, french words for things, in an attempt to sound more refined. the upper and lower class both name their children jack and charlotte, it’s the middle class that feel the need to give them names like percy and felicity.
Often I assume a task or activity is going to be hard and beforehand I think ill fail or barely manage. Is this me knowing myself or me sabotaging myself? Or both? I get the feeling im making everything way too complicated for myself.
come on england
>>25369828The upper class has been placating to the working class on camera and in the press to prevent being murdered for years. In my experience the middle class I have known, have more eccentric names simply because education has afforded them the knowledge and use of the names, Christian babies get more elaborate Biblical names and babies of History majors get Historical names which are not in use. My personal experience is that the working class rarely, if ever, has contributed to British culture because they simply repeat the status-quo of the past and scarcely, if ever, invent new passageways for the British. Having said that, I do believe at the moment there is a movement to replace the working class altogether and their position as a bedrock of continuity, e.g. fish and chip shops/pubs/folk songs is not to be put down as inessential.
Anybody else trying to novelize their bank statements.
>>25369836A defeatist attitude certainly doesnt help, but I find any task is achievable as long as time isnt a factor. Your competence/IQ only determines how fast you get it done
Cut grass and chicken shitCreosote and cigarettes
>>25369842it’s more that the upper & lower feel no need to perform. the middle are fundamentally insecure. has royalty ever felt the need to signal their education through their children’s names? when was the last king percy? someone - orson welles i think - said middle age is the enemy of life like the middle class is the enemy of society.harry kane onside
what game should i play tho
>>25369849Any books on how to change this attitude?
>>25369858I don't disagree with you, a lot of middle class people act sanctimonious, especially the liberals, but the upper is not something you can break into, so it's the furthest many people can get.
>>25369867football
>>25369867Super Mario World 2: Yoshi's Island
I spilled an entire jug of water at the restaurant today (accidentally).
>>25369873the point is: it pays to remember it’s a fundamentally pathetic position. people who are too easily impressed by that sort of thing (you see a lot of in northern aspirational sorts) are a lost cause. it’s why the most successful liberal politicians (FDR) come from rich families. if you’re not from money you can ultimately be bought, be impressed by money.
>>25369868Sure but kinda depends on whether you like fiction, philosophy or scienceSome eastern works on how the ego and (You) dont exist is a classic start.
>>25369839My name is London, not England.
My Southeast Asian roommate is back from SEA.
Almost out of pain pills from Dentist. Going to have to switch to OTC stuff once I run out. Not a big deal, but I do wish they gave me a full 30 pills instead of 16.Whatever.If Ibuprofen alone isn't enough I can add kratom capsules for a week or so for additional pain relief while this mouth wound heals. Tired of how the antibiotics make me smell. It especially makes my piss smell really bad. Though oddly my gut feels better instead of worse like I typically feel when on antibiotics. Guess whatever had been bothering my gut for the past few months was from some sort of bacterial thing that has now been wiped out. That and I have been avoiding all spicy food due to the mouth wound. So that might also be why my guts are happy despite being chem bombed.
Where can I find adults?
and after all
>>25369913Happily
>>25369911Those things are everywhere. Outside, inside, even talking to you on the internet right now. Can't miss them.
>>25369902i have a new roommate moving in next weekend. i'm just gonna buy a condo. when ur renting it only gets worse.
>>25369913You’re my wonder wall
>>25369925excuse me?
>>25369920Pushing forty still doing roommates
>>25369927It’s a song
>>25369928oh shit, sup babe, i was on a date with a cute pakistani chick yesterday. u jelly? come to nyc.
>>25369928inb4 algerian chick
Everyone is invited to my fourth of July BBQ. So long as you aren't from a top 100 city. NYCiggers and San Fagciscites will be reported to animal control on sight. Chicago people are alright though.
>>25369948Will you offer accommodation for overseas visitors?Also will you pay for my flight if I help you with some miscellaneous tasks?
>>25369948I have autism, so if I went there I would be quiet in the corner the entire time not doing or saying anything, then I would eventually leave without saying anything. That's what would happen if I went to your 4th July BBQ. So I don't think you really want me to be there because I'm a square. I've always been a square my entire life and no one likes me. Everyone hates me. My dad said I'm not a likable person.
>>25369954Email me fakeemail@fakewebsite.gov
>>25369946hot algerian chicks are the best part of /lit/
>>25369964sent ;)
>>25368382I was never a fan of that album, too soft.give me Incantation - Onward To Golgotha over that anyday.
>>25368755I think the Duelist, my favorite track of theirs has actually good lyrics.
>>25369928over 40 still doing roommates here
Starting to see why asceticism and spirituality have such a long history together. I had this idea like, "Oh, I'm gonna cut some vices out of my life and go stone-cold sober, no caffeine even, that should give me more room to meditate." But somehow the brain compensates for it. You're miserable for a few days, but then the brain is like, hey, we're back to normal now. And it's a good thing of course, but in a way it's also a horrible thing, because that misery was really the most effective fulcrum for change you've ever had. So once you're back to feeling content, it's like, who needs spirituality anymore? And you might try to keep up the religious shit, but you know good and well your heart's not in it
I made this song. Yes, I made it.https://vocaroo.com/1mDOYux2XYdn
>>25369990I dont "do" music*scoffs*
>>25369995Are you okayt?
>>25369999I am only replying out of respect for the trips, but seriously what the hell is that supposed to imply?
>>25370003Sorry, I meant to type okay but I fat fingered the t at the end. So the question was supposed to be are you okay question mark.
>>25370006Oh okay. To answer the question I'm doing dandy :)Gotta take a cold shower soon, in this heat such a thing is divine
>>25370008Take that cold shower and think of me while you do it.
>>25369486I'm with you three
>>25370012I will. ;)
>>25370012Maybe I will uwu>>25370014DUDE SERIOUSLY FUCKOFF! NOBODY FUCKING INVITED YOU TO OUR CONVERSATION
>>25370013Im with you fouryoutube.com/watch?v=faMvRGSKbnY
>>25370016No, this is Abuse
>>25369946Too late
>>25370023Pain makes you stronger, since it forces you to acknowledge weakness. Abuse is merely giving away life-lessons
My taco is finger licking good.
>>25370040Can I lick your fingers?
father i stretch
>>25370050I'm not responding to what you said.
>>25369758Bro, do you even out of your mind?
>>25370061he said can i lick your fingers
>>25369836Youre doomscrolling in your mind, just say "fuck it" and go for it. It is allowed, even if you make mistakes or almost die
>>25369856A touch of brass, a drunken wittry and temp a temptress
Take him, take him very far'cause I can never leave himCan’t hold on to what's never gonna healMake him safe or break his fallCatch him while he's vulnerableLoving him was not just a coincidenceI tell you, he was broken, I was broken tooSpeak the truth in every senseBury it with innocenceWade through your troubles with grace, night and dayCan’t combine this life of heaven and hellLeaving home, have faith and follow the roadThere’s truth, believe in your soulWhen it's time to let go
Erm... Why did this pop up as the #6 link when I googled "Philo sofer" in my search for finding a pdf made by guy on a dead philosophy forum about his philosophical worldview and lifestyle. (I found it and it was awful as expected. Its kinda insane how good my intuition is getting, but I most become ever better)
I just explained my childhood night terrors to myself by writing a surrealist story outline. I mean what 6 year old fears the nuke?!
>>25369867Chess
>>25369867Aurora 4x
Part of my motivation for lifting is to develop a nicer ass.
I had a dream last night that my eyes looked like this, except realistic not like a child drawing.
>>25369990>https://vocaroo.com/1mDOYux2XYdnDoesnt start soon enough, you gotta get that hook out front!
>>25370030I can see how you would think that
Hide away from me. From who I am, infinity. Time to blossom rage. If people want to cage me like an animal Tonight I'm gonna show you my supremacy. Now, I am insatiable, I'm unerasable, I'm Jagganath. Now, I'm indestructible, endlessly beautiful King of the World. Gotta hunt, gotta find, feed the fire in my mind. Fuel for my prosperity. Gonna cut, gonna slash, gonna burn you into ash, for my prepotency. Prowling to succeed, the hero stampedes hysterically. Violent masquerade, I'm brutal and appalling to your common eyes, tonight. I'm gonna show you my sublimity. You get, connoisseur, what you deserve, and I am
>>25370102I'm hiding. Don't show me anything!
>>25369957I wouldn't mind, although you might not enjoy it. My very autistic (to the point of having meltdowns and flapping his hands around) coworker came once and he seemed to have a good time. He likes fireworks and doesn't mind loud noises.
>>25369990https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8tTxiPIT96I
>>25369954You may sleep in my garden shed if you'd like, I'm unable to offer anything further at this time.
Zinc does indeed greatly increase semen volume, the studies did not lie to me. I guess ejaculating massive amounts would be cool if I were in a relationship or something, being a cum founting is probably funny. But I'm a suicidal perma virgin so I'm not really sure what to do with all this semen.
I got friendzoned by my friend.
>>25370125Haha.
>>25370124Dad why am I named Zinc?
Just wrote the abstract for the new great paranoiac american comic, ask me anything. I could probably defeat Alan Moore
>>25370120>Amin Yashed
eighty nine to twenty twelve
>>25370139That's how I like my women.
August 6th. 8:16am. 1945. Hiroshima.
>>25370149What happened at that time that you're referring to?
>>25370132What do you like?
Why don't the gays have their own language? Imagine if trannies started meowing and they understood it and we didn't.
>>25370132Can I see some of your drawings of children?
>>25370154>Why don't the gays have their own language?The very high up ones do, i think
>>25370154they got their own wacky argot atm, once we send them all to an island Im sure they will conjure up something interesting for the philologists
Someone please make another thread once this hits the second page. I don't want to get upset. Last time I got upset and I don't want to get upset again. I can't make the thread. I've made too many of these threads.
>>25370171You're making me upset with your complaints.
>>25370177No, you're making ME upset. We're on page TWO and there's no new thread. I'm going to get upset and I might seethe and also I might cope!
cope with thisNEW>>25370202>>25370202>>25370202NEWjacqueline du pre cello edition
