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They avoid effort, avoid trying anything, as to try would leave them vulnerable to the plain remimder that they really are responsible for themselves and that their lack of achievement and procrastination cannot be couched in a cozy delusion that one is a loser because of an act of God and factors beyond the discernment and advisement of peers and clinicians or even poets.

People who after highschool sat on the computer doing nothing for 10 or 15 years that have never had the courage to even attempt a hobby and are now heavily alienated and emotionally barricaded behind tectonic plates of self-doubt and are now vicarious and anonymous specters haunting themselves, becoming so closed off that they reprimand themselves for even feeling joy, as if anything good in life is but a trick and the joke has been over for a long time.

They also can't accept compliments because they have trained themselves to feel nothing about them because feeling self-esteem triggers an urge to suppress that and instead assume that they are just getting lazier and not analyzing their flaws because there is a general distortion in them that dictates that they must always be wrong or that their view is fundamentally worthless. When people try to reach out and help them they will become slippery and self-prosecutory and like they are trying to convince everyone that they are a loser so when those people eventually give up on them, it's used as confirmation to continue neglecting and denying themselves