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>>25617207I'm gay
impregnating sophie thatcher
In hindsight, I should have tried to become an actor. Literature is just too powerful. I remember when I began to read serious novels and poetry, the effect it had on me, the power, the spirituality, the psychic earthquake. There was no turning back.
>>25617230Not too late. The actors I know, some very successful, are, mostly by choice, perpetually out of work. There is surely time to pursue it whilst doing other things.
The times continue to be interesting. https://youtu.be/I_GOd_rnv0s
Wasting away
>>25617238I will never understand rightoids' obsession with Fauci. Is it because time and time again, the evil people turn out to be conservatives and conservatives turn out to be evil, so the right must create villains on the other side from nefarious myths and willful misrepresentation?
>>25617250
I wish you would reach out to me.
>>25617230Acting was always my main passion before literature, but given the fact I am porky and sweat more than the average person, I realised it would be too undignified of me to pursue a career on stage.
all the galaxies in the universe are spinning towards their particular pointcan i be blamed for being self-centered?
I feel like everyone, if they live long enough, has at least one moment in their life that's overtly supernatural.I don't know how materialists cope with such moments when they arrive.
there is nothing supernatural that could occur from the sum of our parts
>>25617280Nice fantasy but most people make it though their whole life without having a schizoid mental break, and it doesn't help you to get better if you indulge in one excessively.
>>25617293is this some kind of weird projection?
>>25617230I'm never less comfortable than when I'm in a room full of actors.
>>25617280From my observations of people, it depends on the type of materialist and the character of the 'overtly supernatural' event. I also think people who are of the extreme 'rationalist', atheist bent are a lot less likely to experience anything like that because they have constricted their awareness so tightly, like obsessive compulsives who barely feel the effects of psychedelic dosing. Anyways, a lot of people write off anything like that as weird coincidence, I must be really tired, I must have ingested some chemical, I must have some neurochemical hiccup, etc.
I'm just a fat fucking Jew.
There are only the sum of your parts you fucking idiot.
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Come join.
>>25617207Seriously, has no one else noticed how polluted this board has become seemingly overnight?
is it possible to have power levels that are too high to hide? like there is no point in trying to hide it because it's so blatantly obvious you might as well be open about it. like think of a woman with obviously massive tits. she'll never be able to hide them, might as well flaunt them and use them to your advantage.
>>25617339I was sleeping
>>25617339It's probably my posts that are doing it.
what have I become?
>>25617339Relax, anon
How can you watch a video like this and not think that all the possible cosiness of modernity hasn't been terribly robbed from us?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgnlfEE2Q-8
I should stop wasting time and actually get to learn Latin
>>25617388yes
My fantasy is where I meet a cute guy who is shorter than me and lightweight and smells nice and who likes me and who I would be the right person for and we have a comfy and cute and totally gay relationship but all the ills and evils of real homosexuality never come up and the fucked up horrors which result never have a reason to come to passI think about this a lot
>>25617388you should get some latina pussy instead
>>25617388>I should stop passively wasting time so I can actively waste my time insteadanon, I...
>>25617207Pretty miffed that Donnie Iris didn't get a sticky on /mu/Being i live near Pittsburgh that's an insult.
I listen to CHVRCHES live shows when I have nothing else to listen to. Like I'm doing now.
>>25617396*whom
>>25617468Try Sylvan Esso's With
>>25617473don't sweat the small stuff
>>25617396>>25617483Nevemind the nasty little pest that I am, anony. You are going to make it, I believe in you!
>>25617489thanks but I'm definitely not going to make it
Once again, /lit/ is a classical boardhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_GKh4FY398
What other boards are you on?
>>25617497
>>25617503/adv/, on occasion.
>>25617503I check lolita threads on /cgl/, but it’s positively dead there.
Serious question here: can construction next to the building I’m in compromise it? The walls are shaking, I’m scared to shit.
Damn, first time in several years I've taken a melatonin and it didn't work. That means either I'm developing a tolerance (I'd say I've used it 5 of 7 past nights) or I'm already fully caught up on my sleep and should just stay up (which is also disturbing because it's 1:30am! I took it at 11pm).
Wait, 1400 calories in the bags of kettle corn I've been buying and eating? Damn! Guess I won't be buying any more.
>>25617503These days, I 99% just camp this thread and the /classical/ general on /mu/
No, he’s right, being interesting is gay. That’s why they call it eccentric.
I jerked myself todayto see if I still feel
>>25617503boards of canada
>>25617541I’m so sorry, dear. I wish I could help somehow.
Now, on the occasion of this unfortunate burial, we must all face the facts. In the wake of the heinous destruction of this human mind, body and soul, it is now our imperative duty to extrapolate this irreplaceable being’s so abbreviated lifetime.
>>25617503I’ve got these things called the board books that say what’s what on this dead whistle stop
I, 32, brought my 19 year old gf to a family dinner, and at one point when she had to use the bathroom, one of my cousins said,>Isn't she a little young?And in jest, I said,>Imagine being attracted to a girl older than 25. Couldn't be me!And lot of them gave me the side-eye and no one laughed.
>>25617637Kek, you're based, fuck your family
>>25617637Well you understand you’ve also called all the women in the room ugly, and told all the men they were with ugly women
I just met my gfs mom. She was a nice happy lady. I'm not sure what she thought of me though
>>25617637Hows the pussy like
>>25617644I usually tell tongue-in-cheek provocative jokes like that so I figured someone would find it amusing, but >>25617647 is probably right lol>>25617652Pretty good, but I've only ever slept with girls around this age and up to 25 so about the same
>>25617269how am i to know whether this message is for me?
i feel like the captchas filter out the retards that don't have patience during the newlymintedfag stage where have to wait a few minutes for a captcha, and then it filters out the other retards that lack the spacial reasoning and pattern recognition to actually pass the captcha. we are /lit/erly the e/lit/e!
>>25617656but aren't they fucking annoying?
>>25617768I've certainly watched more TikToks in the past couple months than I ever have in my entire life if that's what you mean.
>>25617791pussy is not worth it. under 25 woman are insufferable right now.
>>25617793Yeah but they don't mind I still live with my parents and ride the bus everywhere (because a lot of them do too), so it balances out. If I wasn't good-looking and attractive to younger women, I'd be fucked!
>>25617793>>25617796Oh, and obviously, y'know, the them being young and hot part.
>>25617793And women over 25 are frigid because of all of their failed relationships. Not to mention the body count. The truth is there's no winning one way or another, the Gods mock us by forcing us to court with women if we ever want offspring.
>>25617823You’re such a whiny asshole
is this version of lolita with this cover from the 90's movie too uh, strange to buy? every other version seems just as odd if not odder, and the cloud version just looks goofy.My copy of Tropic of Cancer had a titty on it but no one knows what Tropic of Cancer is.
>>25617876I love Lolita, but yeah I'm not sure if I'd wanna be caught reading that in public lol. Looks good for personal reading though.
>>25617876Is green one still available? Could’ve picked that one. Or better get something that is not written by katsap.
MY DOG IS CANCER FREE!YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! THANK YOU, GOD!THANK YOU, EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME GOOD WISHES!I'M SO FUCKING HAPPY!GOD BLESS THAT STUPID MUTT!
>>25617932happy for you and pupper anon
>>25617932Congratulations, Anon! Many more years to your doglet!
>>25617939thank you thank you thank you
HEAD LIKE A HOLE
>>25617940thank you, I'll relay it to him haha!
The show Lupin on Netflix is pretty addictive and fast-paced. Quite enjoyable. I recommend it for anyone wanting to watch something kinda mindless but fun without being stupid.>>25617932Godbless!
>>25617951God bless indeed.I'll pray for him twice as much from now on.
>>25617796you are lying dude. there's no way.
>>25617209I'm also gay
which is the hardest captcha?
When I was sick last week I shat my pants twice. Hasn't happened in years but here it happened twice.
Guy is high off his ass at the state mandated recovery program I'm at
if /lit/ ever finds out the russian word for book we’ll never hear the end of it
>>25617207>just keep suffer and living bro, life is precious and i am sure salvation will arrive in two weeks
How does a society produce conservative women? This is the most important thing a society can do, for conservative women are the foundation of it all. They raise conservative sons and daughters who will be proud of their civilization. Only the Muslims and Haredim Jews have been capable of it. Everyone else: Chinese, Koreans, Hindus, Europeans, Americans? The women are liberal and leftist, and these societies decay as a result.
>>25617541I've taken a melatonin every night for like ten years now and it still works. I do have trouble sleeping if I don't take it, so I think my body has gotten lazy with making it's own melatonin like it's supposed to but if I abstained for a couple weeks it would start up again. You can very easily power though a melatonin. I take mine about 30 minutes before I want to be asleep and make sure my eyes are closed and I'm laying flat and all the normal shit when that 30 minutes comes to bear. I find that if I miss my window taking a second one does nothing that night, so I try to hit it right. Anyway what I'm saying is that probably the melatonin is still working fine for you it's just some nights you can blow through it. It's a fairly mild drug and there's variation in how up your brain wants to be.
I don't have family or money and will probably live in a car soon. I was raised to be an abject white trash retard and a bachelors would never be in the cards. This year though I took a creative writing class at a community college. Just last week the professor literally pulled me out of class and told me I was the best writer he's ever had.I have no idea what a smart person even is. Does that mean I'm just the least retarded, or would I do well at a university too? I guess no one can tell me but him. I'm not sure how I'd ask him that question.
>>25617527Very unlikely. The standards for most buildings get them though at least minor earthquakes. The stress on your building from a big gust of wind is probably many times what it's suffering from the construction. Buildings are made out of different materials that are attached to each other in many places so it's basically impossible to get some kind of harmonic oscillation going. Etc.
>>25617637Same cousin went into the bathroom right after her to try to smell something.
What kind of people drink coffee in PM? When I go to office and back my way lays through this coffee shop, and there are still some people having drinks. WTF, how don’t they concerned about their sleeping schedule?
>>25618101I want you, weird lil creature!
>>25618115Being smart isn't terribly important for being a good writer. Some people have a knack for it by chance, all good writers read a lot. It's more like making music than doing architecture. Everyone can succeed at pretty much any undergraduate program in a university. Where people fail is they don't work hard at it (I never had to work to get an A in high school, you can't keep doing that in university, you'll fail) or else they skip the introductory classes when they actually need them and go too far into the deep end too early (matters for some types of classes, like math or physics, than it does others). If you take a conservative speech approach to class selection, diligently do all of the reading and homework you are assigned (do not use AI or look up homework questions online, actually do them yourself), and visit your professors during office hours for advice on academic things you are finding difficult you should be able to get a 3.9 GPA at any school in any discipline.Sometimes by graduate school the material is difficult enough that not having a good enough brain can become a major burden. Sometimes people love math but have to become lawyers. But there are a lot of lawyers with an undergrad math degree. And not everyone can hack it in law, maybe they are better suited to education or some kind of public administration or tech or whatever. But for undergrad everyone can hack it if they have an adult work ethic and are proactive about seeking help when they need it.
>>25618127If you drink more than one cup a day it can stop having an effect on you at all. I do one cup in the morning mostly because it makes me fire out a shit before I have to leave my bidet having house but can feel the coffee. In college I was drinking it so often that I would very often have one to try to help me push though some reading at night and I would fall asleep on the desk with the empty mug still warm next to my head. I don't know what the mechanism is for that level of caffeine resistance but I expect a lot of the population has it.
>>25618155That's the thing, I have an awful work ethic. I genuinely would need years of therapy to be useful enough to go to college. I've lived in my car on and off partially by choice because I think my welding job is worse than homelessness. But maybe academic things are easier.I'm in class with a lot of intellectually disabled people. Community college creative writing is where their parents send them as a last ditch effort to prove their kid is capable, but they never really are. Reading their shit is like pulling teeth. But at the same time I realize I'm the same kind of person as them. I simply couldn't function from highschool onwards.Also I showed a friend with a master's degree an essay I wrote once and she got so fucking mad at how bad it was she accused me of being the reason anti-intellectualism exists. So. That might've traumatized me.
>>25618171>she got so fucking mad at how bad it was she accused me of being the reason anti-intellectualism exists
>>25617207writing is so alluring, when I do it, a great feeling flows through me. it's cathartic in it's own way. unfortunately, everything I write is complete dogshit
>>25618182I must say my expertise is creative writing and not academic essay-ing.
>>25618171Anyone who has worked an adult job for a couple years has a big advantage vs most of the 18 year olds in their introductory classes. Especially today. Even a lot of students who have only As and Bs coming into freshman year of college now expect: Infinite retake options for a test, their teacher to track and ensure they are doing their homework, infinite time to do that homework / redo it / have it graded again for full credit, extra time to take their tests if they feel sad about it, that if they express they are having a hard time that is enough to raise their grade without any change in performance.It's ok to come into your intro classes with a bad ability to write, not being used to reading difficult texts, not knowing how to research and meaningfully assemble that info. It's not ideal and it says something about the the education you got prior to university, but unless you're going to a top flight uni in your country (I'm guessing you're Canadian so like literally McGill) the intro classes are constructed to fix these issues and onboard lower level students (as well as to hopefully offer something worthwhile to strong students, however in practice when you get a valedictorian type student at a lower level uni they just talk to their advisor and to the professor for the 201 level class and skip the 101 level classes that they actually don't need).What I'm saying is you can go to university and do fine. There's like a 5% chance you're still too stupid, as an adult with a real job and actual interest in succeeding in a university, that you're still too stupid to make it. You're making legibile posts with paragraphs, actually, so that chance is more like 2.5% or something.
just took a shitfeels really good
>>25618171Do you actually want to write? If your professor went out of his way to encourage you like that, I bet he would be willing to help you seriously develop whatever talent you have. Just put aside all your thoughts about how shitty you and your classmates are and go for it. I missed so many opportunities like that when I was in high school and college, I could have become a serious woodworker or writer, but I always backed out because I had determined that I was just a pot-smoking videogame nothing
>>25618194Damn this made me feel a twinge of hope. I'm not Canadian, but that's really funny you think that. Do Canadians live in their cars a lot or something?Right now I'm just focusing on being a functioning human being. The work ethic issue is probably more of a severe depression issue. If I can save myself I might try to do something better with my life. I'd like a master's degree. Being a professor sounds fun. I won't forget my retard friends...
>>25618201Ok yeah this just slapped me across the face. You're right. I love writing. Its the only thing I can do.
>>25618191A lot of people who think they're good at academic writing are actually incarnations of the god of Midwittery. They basically were handed a boilerplate way to do it and think anyone who hasn't received those instructions yet is beneath them. I was creative writing focused for my first degree and got a lot of pushback in my lit crit type classes for my academic writing because I was constantly trying to innovate around what I knew was expected of me. Eventually I decided to not waste so much effort on trying to make my essays into rewarding reads and to just give what was expected and overnight I was suddenly an academic writing genius as far as my professors were concerned. Maybe my academic articles were actually really bad and I needed to be reigned in and that was the lesson, but the feedback I got wasn't along those lines, it was just that my writing was bad. I expected guidance in improving what I was trying to do, more like I got in creative writing workshops, but what I was told was "don't try" and once I didn't try my academic readers were a lot more comfortable. So I figured out how to do academic writing that was well received, but never really figured out how to do academic writing that was the kind I liked to read. And I don't really value academic / critical writing enough to dig back in and figure it out. Maybe some day, but I'm fairly old now and have a non-academic job to survive on so it's unlikely I'll ever have that much spare time to throw away on secondary projects of that sort again.
>>25618220>A lot of people who think they're good at academic writing are actually incarnations of the god of Midwittery. They basically were handed a boilerplate way to do it and think anyone who hasn't received those instructions yet is beneath them.YEAH. I agree there was a lot wrong with that essay but her big gripe was that I was writing about a comedy film and I had inserted jokes in the essay instead of keeping it textbook and formulaic. That really pissed me off honestly. It seemed like such a given that I'd lighten the tone and goof off a little when the literal topic in question was comedy.
https://vimeo.com/8927689
>>25618237should i click?
>>25618127I usually drink coffee around at around 1-2 pm
>>25618243ya
>>25618202If you want to be a professor in 2026 you need a PhD. It's also really important to not be a white male. I'm a left leaning person but I have more than a small amount of direct experience with how hiring works for tenure tracked professor work (you don't want to be hopping from school to school every two years your whole life making dogshit money, have to seek a tenure track position) and being white and male is such a huge handicap that its just a matter of practicality to strongly consider non academic work if you are. It's already very competitive, any disadvantage can become too much. Over and over again everyone on the hiring committee puts in their recommendation for the most qualified and experienced guy who has a cool sample lesson and some pretty good publications and then the department head goes and talks to admin and comes back with a big smile saying "Wow team we're going to be so fortunate to welcome J'ayquona Shaniquell Jones to our department next semester! She is going to be a big plus for our students of color, I hope you're all excited about helping her aboard."
>>25618250fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuggggg
>>25618252>you don't want to be hopping from school to school every two years your whole life making dogshit money, have to seek a tenure track positioni'm 36 and single. portorican. lil dicc truecel. probably will never have wife and kids. fuuuuuggghit. academic life let's gooooo!
>>25618256I'll answer any questions if needed
>>25618164>it makes me fire out a shit before I have to leave my bidet having houseHow would you ensure that there’s no particles of poop underneath your nails?
>>25618266thank you thank you
>>25618265are you already bald at 36?
>>25618273maybe
I was about to buy wine today but the store was already closed so I just went back home
At the risk of being the most vain poster on the board, I'm actually an incredibly talented and interesting but also fairly solipsistic and somehow cut off from the desire to participate in any form of large crowd or audience, even online. Perhaps it's childish but I don't really trust the public's ability to be a friend or someone you would want to have around (not that I don't have people I'm perfectly close to in my own life). I was thinking of developing a very surrealist anonymous identity that would directly tie into the surrealist expression intended in my work. I don't know, it's not so much that I hate people or actively am averse to them, it's that I kind of don't have that major source of motivation that belongs there, that I imagine drives most people who are, you know, expressive figures. I'm not extroverted like that, except when I am by accidentIn a lot of ways I'm simply scared to a level of disinterest, of getting out there
>>25618267We've got a guy from Laos that started as an intern so when I get to work I just jam my fingers down his throat until it looks like there's no little pieces of shit left under the nails. It kills the first half hour of my day and gives him a regular task to attend to every morning which helps him learn about productivity, as Laotians are famously scatter-brained and lazy.
>took a week off from work>went up to the cabin to hunt >read a little HG Wells and relaxed>still don’t “get” Kant
>>25618283I’m concerned about that so that I got a dedicated brush for nail cleaning, but you do you man.
>>25618265Get a real dark tan before your next job search and maybe you can slip under the wire.
>>25618282Making an online persona is kind of like making an online fursona, if you think about it.
>>25618282This reminded me about this show called Daria. When I was younger I liked Daria better because of her clever and aloof aura, but in my thirties I’d better be like Quinn. Attractive, popular, universally accepted - what not to like?
How do I get published writing in Old English? I understand it affects sales but not the contempt of fellow writers for returning english to its former glory.
>>25618314Still haven't dated a Quinn, huh?You should stick with your first instinct
Wagner's head was enormous. he should have been a philosopher.
Statistically speaking i am in a group that will suffer tremendously before death. This has to do with my sosioeconomic status, diagnosed mental illness and education level. For me to succeed in any way i would personally find gratifying it would mean beating incredibly poor odds. This makes me angry and nihilistic.
>>25618320Instead of standardized tests there should just be a piece of plywood with gradually decreasing head sized holes cut in it and the kids start at one end and they stop when they can't get their head through the next hole and then the number above the hole tells them which class to go to.
>>25618320Man how many Germans were mowed down thinking of this guy and his apocalyptic warcries
>>25618194Ah to assist university and receive a quality education. What a dream. Back in niggerworld one just has to make do and enjoy the funny anecdotes.Partially my fault for choosing a subject with a professional culture of autodidactics and independent learning I have absolutely no passion for whatsoever. But I have to see it to the end. Maybe by then the field will have collapsed due to AI or we are all dead, idk.
>>25618335i just learned what they did to my beloved prussia after world war 2 and i am livid.
>>25618321Same, but it makes me hopeless and desperate.
>>25618320He dabbled into it, at least.>>25618335Probably quite a few. I wonder if SS soldiers were over-represented in that number. They tended to be better educated and more ideological so perhaps.>>25618353If you open the Pandora's Box of unspeakable barbarity with dispassionate speeches about the higher's natural pre-eminence over the lower in nature you cannot go back to believing in morality and mercy once the wind turns. As it stands I think the arrangement they got was fair. The west of Germany is treated with as much civilization as possible, and the East is left to the East. Germany's multitude of Voivoides and anachronistic hangers on got a much rougher deal.
>>25618407Very true very trueAlso Wagner was essentially a philospher https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/GesamtkunstwerkBut of course, in his terminally (and I mean terminal to the culture) German nature, it looks a lot like autism about absolute perfectionmaxxing and idealmogging
>>25618407but a huge scene is made of the holocaust of the jews, yet ethnic cleansing of the germans from east germany is passed over in silence. the prussians are now the ones in exile as the jews once were.
>>25618433Well its a matter of marketing and money, as always. Israel is not doing so well publically right now though!Hey is Netanyahu about to, uh, lose this re-election as the Chief General of the IDF publicly explains he just denied a direct order from Netanyahu to start a major battle with Iran in order to win support for his re-election?
>>25618318I’m talking about personal identity, not potential partner’s.
When I was younger I had a plenty of people who was interested in me romantically and sexually, but I didn’t get a chance to make any friends. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I saw people making friends, but they don’t really want to befriend me.
Fine I guess its up to me to elevate the contents of this thread from mere farraginous tagraggeryHowever...
i had a dream i was starting a dnd game with some hot 80s horror movie type ladies and some kind of epic fantasy theme was playing from something i left on in the other room. i wish i was talented enough to recreate the music because it was really cool
>>25618579oh yea? WELL I HAD a dream where I was traveling in a car with a bunch of strangers, and one woman next to me was like "My legs dont feel too good", and so I gave them a quick check. I noticed they were awfully lighter than expected. So we unrolled her clothes to see how the skin was faring. Turns out she had flesh eating bacteria that had already half consumed her feet, her toes being completely eroded away.
>>25618135Thanks!!!
I nowadays have post nut clarity even before nutting. What to make of this?
>>25618593Dr. Jungie says dream women are your unconscious anima, means your hidden feminine is rotting and desiccated, how will you get anywhere if your legs are like that? You're stuck in place, even if you seem to be moving with that automobile of yours, full of strange men, the anima probably in a bad kind of situation, no?>>25618658Is this about the production of almond butter? I don't understand.
>>25618441hold up, WHAT?
>>25618658That's why old men lose interest in sex. That and being tired of the effort.
>>25618670What do we think about Jung? My father-in-law is a top Jung admin in a big tower, total narcissist, couldn’t dream his way out of a paper bag (and he thinks he can hide his Ayahuasca books behind a Buddhist text, like I can’t see them). I think i’m going to start accusing his sauna of being an orgone accumulator.
>>25618675Yeah, look it up, so Israel is having its big PM election soon and Netanyahu told his chief of staff for the IDF to start a big fight with Iran specifically before the election. And that chief of staff went public with that explaining he denied the order because it would’ve been absolutely horrible for Israel at the time and there was no strategic value, and that he suspects Netanyahu ordered it to drum up support for the election. So Netanyahu is facing a massive scandal and kind of a whistleblowing from his top military executive going into this election. I’m not sure where his legal status is right now, but I imagine if he doesn’t win the election he will be in jail, which will be really funny.
Have you seen new PnP? I cannot decide where to complain: here or Reddit?https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=KuRYRhP6kag
>>25618670Jung was also a retard by my standards sooooooo idc what that freak or any of followers would say.
>>25618684I'm tryna see some PnV ykwis?
>>25618683holy fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuggggg
>>25618658>I nowadays have
>>25618683Sounds like somebody's advisor has his own political ambitions poppin wood these days
>>25618712Your behavior is non-conducive to a positive learning environment
>>25618719Learning begins with recognizing your mistakes
>>25618712>>25618492
>>25618723True, but you got to add faux positivity when you highlight a mistake :)
I am at such a level of utterly hopeless inceldom that I have become a spiritual cuck living vicariously through the romantic relationships of other people.
the bret easton ellis podcast is pretty good
>>25618769No
Let's stay stoic about this
>>25618779>stoicFace it chump, the cyrenaics won the culture war and the hearts of the masses
>>25618783Everyone knows you goon
>>25618788Impossible...
I’m going to sleep. Meanwhile behave yourself!
>>25618755Get a pet turtle and have it chew off your dick and balls. Because it is a reptile and slow.
When did you realize you were bad at your job and how did you cope with it?
>>25617207i spent a long time thinking i was a good writer only to find, on review, that i was just doing well in high school because i could string words and sentences together. i'm actually a terrible writer.which should make me relax and just sit down to write terrible nonsense like all the other bad writers out there, unafraid of living up to some kind of standard, but it doesn't. not only can i not write, i can't write either.
>>25618850>job??
Usually I feel pretty unnerved by the immense black vacuity of outer space, but I remember dreaming about it just before I woke up without the slightest hint of feeling afraid.
>>25618194grim
I don't know if it's just being on a bad place mentally, or if I'm actually becoming dumber and more retarded
Tried to post, idiotically, from a semi-public library, but I was banned for rule 1. Scary stuff.
>>25618115Are creative writing courses even viable anymore with AI?
>>25618972Almost certainly the former, unless you are thinking about a time decades ago, and you are, say, in your forties.
I had a dream where I was with two hot, tall goth/alt/emo/scene girls, I was totally about to get two chicks at the same time. Then I decided to start talking about how I'm afraid of sea monsters. the next thing I know I'm in the middle of the ocean surrounded by sharks punching and kicking them away, knowing I can only do it for so long before they get me.How do I just fuck the girls next time instead of getting eaten by sharks?
Where do these fuckin' fruit flies in my room keep coming from!? Can they fit through window screens? My room and window is on the same corner of the house where we keep our garbage bins, which is always lousy with flies (hehe I've always wanted to use the word 'lousy' in this context).
It feels like a cosmic joke to be born into a life of concentrically intensifying rings of decay and entropy, familial, communal, regional, national, civilizational...it's not even the difficulty of things that gets me, but the lack of a future, the futility and the undignified desperation of it all...
>>25619002You were born in Somalia?
>>25618850Job?
Bros idk... I dont got high hopes for today after that blunder yesterday turned out to be.Gotta pick a few fronts to defend until I get stronger, instead of spreading myself thin trying to cover them all. Im leaving myself exposed to the demons onslaught, and once they get a foothold inside, all semblance of order disappears, and the day becomes lost.Slow and steady
>>25617207I SEETHE with unyielding absolute FUCKING FURY
>>25619003Somalia has a TFR of like 6, they are on the rise. It’s the West which is decaying
It's a homemade tacos and Beckett kind of night
>>25619187>TFR of like 6,Important on a macro level but has almost nothing to do with you as an individual.
nobody has talked about the fucking lesbians and their masks recently so anyway as they say fascists aestheticize politics, liberals politicize aesthetics which they FAILED to do, a focing monumental turd of a failure so nobody on any side is capable of admitting that masks have social uses beyond "disease prevention" aka they keep out people who won't wear masks but the fucking lesbians won't even make that argument won't admit they have aesthetisized their political mask fetishism hell by now it ought to be a proper fucking subculture YES we LIKE WEARING MASKS NOW FUCK OFF no it's all weaved into their pathetic long covid fake science bullshit which is why they're politically socially so lost in the sauce they can't see their own noses and anyway if you can't aesthetisize politics you are going to die a slow and painful death of either fascists knocking down your door or your own protracted suicidethis is the basis of all religions and the failure of this process to occurr will have monumental consequences in the coming centuries
>>25619188Looks about white.
The doors are shut and locked and I knock on them as loud as I can, so that I do not freeze to death. But everyone is for themselves and it’s my fault for I have become undead, trying to release and forgive while holding onto what still needed comfort. I cannot explain how painful it is to be that alone. My eyes saw saw truth, and doubted and looked, and my chest is heaving for room to just be. Why have I and my life become painfully aware of my own inevitable decay at every break of dawn. I want my reality to break apart, to let me finally see and move, one way or another.
>>25618991A lot of the time what people think are fruit flies are what's known as fungus gnats. Fungus gnats feed in larval form on fungus that grows in the pots of house plants. They will tell you online that they come from over watering but even if you are careful not to if you have fungus gnats in your potting soil they are difficult to get rid of. If you look on the top of your house plants you can see the larva crawling around usually, they are tiny white dots so you have to look closely for a while. To kill them you have to buy a bacterial agent (bacillus thuringiensis israelensis, usually abbreviated to BTI) and apply it in the water you use to water the plant about once a week. I had to apply it at triple the suggested concentration before I got results. Some states also restrict it to commercial growers only. Fungus gnats are a constant issue in greenhouses and one they're in your house they'll spread to all your potted plants pretty quickly.
>>25619198Interesting, thanks.
>>25619200I have some very bad sentences in there. The larva slowly march around on top of the soil, not on top of the plants. They live in the first couple inches so if you have a lot of them people will sometimes throw that soil out and replace with fresh and then start with BTI because you won't be able to get the soil out of the root ball very well.
>>25619222Well, we have hella houseplants around the house, both inside and out, and I can't exactly tell the homeowners to just throw all the soil out. Guess I'll just have to learn to live with it and keep food out of my room.
I'm watching this French TV show and I can't quite tell if they're pronouncing the vowels at the end of names. ex:>AssaneIs that Ah-son or Ah-son-e?>AdeleIs that Ah-del or Ah-del-e?This is the exact same problem I had taking French in school and I wasn't sure if 'vivre' was 'veev' or 'veev-ar'
>>25617757if you think it’s for you then tell me something that only you would know.
As planned, just took my once-a-week shit on day 7. Such relief. Beyond that, it makes me happy knowing I don't gotta worry about it for another 7-8 days. It's crazy how much comes out of me, I have to flush several times to not only make sure it doesn't clog, but to make sure it doesn't overflow the bowl lol, there's legitimately enough in total to do that. The first piece that comes out is generally over a foot long! I should take pictures. Probably win me a world record or get on the news.
It's baffling how much easier it is to destroy something than it is to create and maintain. You have an aristocratic family that's been protecting its bloodline and genes for generations and generations, centuries and centuries, and all it takes is one set of kids, one daughter or one son or both, to go, "this good genes stuff is stupid, I'll sleep with and have kids with whoever I want, especially if it makes my parents unhappy" and poof, just like that, it's over. To recover from this one act, it'd take several generations of perfect breeding to purge out the inferior stuff.
>>25619188Looks tasty but not very filling.
>>25619337Yeah we buy a bunch of each ingredient and make a bunch over a few days. I'm about to eat my fourth of the day right now.
Thought I was gay turned out I'm just retarded
You have no idea how important this is for me.
Mohammed was a pedophile and muzzies are just fine with that
>>25619232It's pronounced "Allahu akbar".
>>25619297Why you only poopin once a week? Opiate professional?
>>25619330Aristocrats aren't inbred to keep their genes sharp, they do it to keep shares of inheritance close to the trunk of the tree. You should know this but you don't. It's nice of you to believe them when they say they are fucking their first cousin out of a sense of pride and nobility, but they are disgusted by it. It's just worth it to them for the earn. You should know this, but you don't, because you're retarded.
>>25618684Bennet daughters are all portrayed ugly, shan't watch.
>>25619489Yes.
>>25619225If you can convince them they have fungus gnats and tell them how to treat them they probably will -- usually plant owners just assume they are hard to get rid of fruit flies like you did. There's a lot of stupid and ineffective treatments for them online, only the one I mentioned (BTI) is actually effective.
>>25619297I take a shit twice per dayfeels john goodman
>>25619413If you are already retarded you might as well be gay, it's not like you'll understand what you're doing anyway.
>>25619510I always kind of wanted to be an opiate pro. Anyway have fun, I've participated in narcaning a hundred of you but I'm gentle about it. Can't imagine how shitty it feels to wake up that way.
>>25619517>Anyway have fun, I've participated in narcaning a hundred of you but I'm gentle about it.Really? You an EMT?And don't worry, I'm not using the street stuff anymore, I'm on methadone. My dose is just too high at the moment.
>>25619514One per day for me but I have a tablespoon of ground psyllium husk each night so I damn near fill the fucking toilet up in the morning. It's preposterous how much it volumizes my caca.
Trying to categorize a personality through handwriting is pseudoscience right?
>>25619499Lydia looks cute, I think it’s her being the closest to the camera.I don’t trust modern movies. A while ago they jumped on this bandwagon of making characters that always make you feel sorry for them, and keep going and going. Can we get someone well rounded in life so they don’t invoke pity in viewer, or it’s too privileged to bring up?
>>25619525Graphology is pseudoscience, yes. Forensic document examination, however, which is just determining if someone wrote something by comparing to other examples of stuff they've written or authenticating signatures or letters and whatnot, is a real thing. It's not 100%, but it works and is accepted in court.
>>25619519Was a paramedic. Long time ago now. I'd usually start with 0.5mg in the deltoid, give a little rub, maybe bag them in the ambulance for a bit if they were slow about coming around. Only felt I had to do the full amp into the vein a few times, but those guys all dealt with it pretty politely. Had one semi-regular partner that hated opiate users and she'd fucking nail em every time if it was up to her. Had a lot of projectile pukes and getting swung at in her history but she was born for conflict so whatever. Her perogative, and she was a real veteran so I'm not going to pretend to know more.I think legalization is the obvious best way forward but that will hurt some people too. It would be nice if I personally could just get coke and MDMA and opiates and mushrooms otc though. Never had an issue with addiction myself but I'm the one that has to deal with shady drug assholes to keep old men and Jesus freaks happy on the back end.
>>25619525Yes, except for if the handwriting slopes down as it goes across the page that person is 100% a weak little nothing.
>>25619535lol damn, can't say I've ever had that happened to me (I always smoked the stuff) or been in a case where I had to do it (except once but it was borderline and we ended up calling the paramedics and they took him to the hospital and he survived -- I forget if they narcan'd him). Anyway, yeah, I imagine it's a thankless, unpleasant job. Thanks for your public service.>I think legalization is the obvious best way forward but that will hurt some people too.It's tricky because as much as I think someone becoming a felon just because they have some H/fent/blues on them is stupid as hell, I've also seen the other side of decriminalization here in Portland, and it ain't pretty either. So maybe cops should be able to seize it but not arrest, I don't know and charge? Or only a ticket? I don't know.
>>25619330What pic related taught me is that it’s only important to marry the right person so that you have funding to fix the roof in the western wing like >>25619493said, but fornication is pretty normalized and borderline encouraged.Plus, if you are not in the line of the succession, like second child, I would assume that you will be left for your own devices.
>>25619527Jennifer Ehle as Lizzy is the benchmark/touchstone of comparison.
>>25619493I wasn't talking about inbreeding, but rather the notion of 'quality stock' and 'good genes' is taken more seriously amongst those circles.
>>25619232the e at the end is always silent.
>>25619545Thank you. That's what I thought but a few times I swear I heard them say it but they talk so fast and with a thick accent it can be hard to tell. What about with 'vivre'?
>>25619541She is!
